Chapter 10
After telling Jackie good-bye, I boarded the plane.
I read a book most
of the way and when the plane landed, I called a taxi to
take me to the Hilton
hotel-I knew the guys would be there, they always stay in
the same hotel...
When
the taxi stopped, I paid him quickly and went inside the hotel to see Bobby-
the
hotel manager.
I remember his face lighting up as I entered the hotel, "Carla,
how are you,
I heard you were sick! The guys aren't here, they went out to play
basketball, I think Nick stayed though!"
We chatted for a while,
then Bobby told me the room number for
Brian and Nick's room and gave me a key!
A smile was tattooed on my face as I hopped onto
the elevator and mashed
the 6 button.
We climbed 6 floors in no time and I walked slowly down the
hall to
266 where I could hear mumbling coming out.
"Is Nick talking
to himself?" I remember thinking as I inserted the key into the
door.
I
open edit to see Nick's bare back facing me and he was leaning over
something…
or someone!
~*~I need you tonight, I need you right now, I know deep within
my heart… it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right! Because I see Heaven in your
eyes!~*~
I remember the confusion entered my mind slowly until I saw long
brown
curly hair in the air and a hand pull Nick's face down to hers.
I
must have gasped so loud that they heard, Nick turned around and
horror came
over his face as I ran out of the room running as fast as I
could to Brian's!
I could hear Nick screaming close behind me to come back, but I didn't listen!
I just continued running down the endless hall!
I felt like I was
in a tunnel and the world was sucking me into his giant
place called hell, I
remember seeing the red fireworks set off as my heart blew up with them!
I
remember inserting the key as fast as I could into Brian's door and
running into
his room as fast as my legs would go!
I remember the room shaking at first
when I saw that AJ's bags were
in the room-AJ and Brian must have roomed together!
I saw flashbacks of AJ at the mall buying a expensive switchblade knife with
across on it!
I started rummaging through his bags quickly and I saw
the silver tip of it and
quickly grabbed it!
Mashing the small button,
the blade of silver shown in the pale light.
I remember standing there for
several seconds with the blade in one hand and
looking at my other hand.
I
examined my wrist for what I thought would be the last time that I would
ever
see it intact!
I placed the blade slowly to my wrist and thought for a minute
when Nick
busted through the door, I turned around to see the smirk on Nick's
face-like he
had done nothing wrong!
"What are you doing here? You
wasn't suppose to be here until
you get better!" I remember him saying in
shock.
"Obviously you're feeling good!" I remember choking out
through my tears.
"What are you getting so worked up about… it's just
sex… sex is
sex… it doesn't mean anything either way!" I remember hearing
the words
echoing in my ears, ringing like bells of a church!
I could
feel my face growing face.
I was speechless, I couldn't speak… all I could
do was cry, cry until
I hurt!
Maybe I thought my pain would go with the
single tears that fell from my eyes.
"Why are you crying for? I told
you sex is sex… I needed something
different… or should I say a different scenario!
I mean, no joke you could
get me pretty hot but that's all sex is… getting hot!"
I remember him saying
heartlessly as I thought of all the many memories that
we shared and how
of one night of pleasure with him turned him into the monster
that I
never knew existed inside him. I remember him laughing sarcastically
and
brushing a lock of blond hair from his sweaty face. "What do you
expect?
Did you honestly expect some one that looked like me to stay
with someone forever!
Every girl on this planet would give their left arm
to fuck me, touch me, feel
my breath on them and you expect me
to worship the ground you walk on…Please!"
I felt my hand grip around AJ's switchblade and the last word
that left
Nick's mouth made me climb out of my skin.
