This is a story of love, betrayal, death and most of all lies.

This is my story and no one knows it better than me. I regret the
day that I ever met Nick Carter…I regret the day that I fell in-love with
him but most of all…I regret the day I killed him...

Please read my story with an open mind, I will be sent to the electric chair
soon and this is the only chance I will ever get to tell my story, of what really
happened…the day Nick Carter left this earth!

I will start from the beginning, let you all get the feel of what kind of person
that I was, let all of you know that I am not the cold hearted bitch that reporters
have made me out to be.

It's such a long story, I don't know where to begin…this is not a
happy story so for all of you who are looking for a happy ending please
stop reading now.

I loved Nick more than anyone but the day he broke my heart was the last time
he ever saw the sunlight.

It all started five years ago when I met Nick through my best friend Brian.

Brian was joining a singing group with Nick and three other guys.

I can remember the day like it was yesterday, how Nick's blue eyes
glimmered in the sun, how he smiled and shook my hand nervously…
how from that very moment, I knew he would be a big part of my life until the very end!

I watched them all harmonize for a few moments and then Brian quickly introduced me to everyone.

I smiled as I shook each of their hands and was so excited.

I could see their talent…their ambition and I knew that one-day, they
would make it in this cruel world, one day everyone would know who they were…
one day everyone would love them as much as I did.

I was always the type of person that helped my friends and Brian
needed serious help, he didn't know what he wanted to do.

He knew that he loved singing and that he wanted to spend the rest of
his life in music but like his older cousin Kevin (Who was also
like a big bro to me) he wasn't sure if the others liked him.

Howie often gave Brian dirty looks when Johnny (their manager) would
give him the lead vocals, before Brian came into the picture Howie got most of the lead vocals.

AJ seemed all right but he was just a little too crazy for Brian and Kevin also.

Nick was the only one that Brian connected with immediately, he was
the only one who even attempted to welcome the two into the
new group that Johnny had formed…one day soon would be known as the Backstreet Boys!

I watched Brian laugh nervously that day as Nick made a funny joke about Howie's hair.

Nick was only a couple of years older than I was, which made me the baby
of the group, sure I didn't sing but I was considered a part of this group!

I got to go on tour with them… my whole life the only one that seemed
to even give a damn about me was the Littrell family.

I spent all my time with Brian, he acted as my older brother, and this
meant that I would just have to go on tour with him.

I couldn't wait to see the world with Brian and the others…Nick especially!

I knew that one day, there was more than the world that Nick and me were gonna see.

I had no idea it would end like this… I always thought that Nick and
me would be together forever, that he would never hurt me!

Like I said before, this is my story and no one knows it better than me!