I decided to update this, for those that come often to my page I thought i owed it to them to put something new. Plus I owed it to myself. If you haven't been here before, well this space is reserved for a very dear, wonderful, amazing friend I once had. His name of course "shaun", and he was something rare, and something I know I'll never find again. A month ago he was killed, police closed the case, and he's buried in baltimore. When I frist found out I was watching tv, and a 4 o' clock flash came on...an unsolved discovery was found in an arlington apartment...2 men found dead.

When the news camera showed the location, and I saw the front door of the apartment, it was all clear to me of who the bodies where. I recognized the plants outside, I knew who they were. To make a long story short, it was in fact my friend shaun and his father. And I took his death extremly hard. If you want to read what I frist put up, you can read this It explains most of it.

As I'm working on this update it still hurts that he is gone, he was the one real person in my life that made me think everything was worthwhile. He brought me sunshine, smiles, and laughter. I have very little of that in my life. And for a month i mourned not only him, but the happiness I lived while he was here. For a month I felt I'd never be happy again, that's how important he was to me. And as I'm sitting here trying to update things, I still hurt that's he's gone, but I know he'd never forgive me if I allowed sadiness to take away everything he gave me. Sure, physically he's not here...but to me I know he's everywhere. And when he's around...there isn't any room for tears, and sadiness. So this is my update. If you read this and thought it was corny, well you've never had a true friend, you don't understand, and I don't really care. Anyway, you're everywhere my friend, I miss you, even though I know you're watching...