days of our lives...
Do you ever have days that end with you simply feeling "blah"? I mean, i just feel down and out, like something totally disastrous just happened. REally what i need to be doing is writing my stories. These are the best times to write because I can use emotion to really drive characters and events.

Chaucer. We're reading his "Canterbery Tales" in class. I am not really finding them all that interesting, which is odd. Starting a few years ago i really got into books... after growing hating to read.

My mind is so...confused or something. I can't stay on one subject. I suppose that means it's time for bed...

So to all of you...or the most likely one or two of you..who are reading this good night.

i remembered something!
Mood:  surprised
Constellations, the movie i was an extra in, is coming out later this month! I'm really excited about seeing it. It'll be very very very strange to see myself up on that big silver thing they call a "screen". Yes, it's coming to local theatres. So much happening that i don't even realize is happening...look at my last entry..i sound bored...i soundboring...i sound like my life is just work school and...sometimes sleep...well it is...but...occassionally i get to have fun!

junk mail?
Mood:  lazy
i hate junk mail. we get it at work, at work from the fax machine, at the fire station's fax machine, and of course at home! The army sent me this thing AGAIN asking me to join. i've only been called three times and TOLD THEM that i can't join because of my "acute asthma" (according to my doctor, which hasn't acted up in several years, but because it's on my record i can't join...anyway).
Ok, that's my rant for the night.

Things have been going relatively well lately. As always lots of thinking about what i'm going to do. My test monday for my EMS class was postponed until tomorrow...er today (it's 2 a.m.)...and i think i'll do pretty well. Life is so difficult and confusing. I guess that's why my webpage's name is so true, even though it was one of those "o shit i need to name it" kind of things. life is full of foggy times, and dreams. of course, it's also full of hard, sad, and horrible times. i guess i really can't forget the good times and the REALLY awesome times. it's just a jumble. and it drives me nuts that it can't be at least somewhat consistent.
ok, so i ranted and raved again. sue me.

yes, this is my life: school, work, fire department, and, sometimes, i even sleep. Amazing! i probably have bored any readers this thing might have...you know, i haven't even chacked to see if it's even been read. i could be talking to myself...nothing new...

well, i'll cease the boring for now.

GAH!!!
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: my life
Don't you hate it how just when you think you've got you're life figure out, there's just ONE MORE bump in the road. I mean, i really knew what i wanted to do. What school i wanted to graduate from, what i wanted to do after, ETC ETC. BUT. There's a new fork in the road.
it's looking like now the Alabama Fire College will be getting some of my money somewhere sometime and then i'll try for a job with Madison Fire. i don't know. HEMSI sounded good. GAH!!!
maybe...

it was SO FREAKIN' BUSY at work today. it started to slow down and i was just pining for a padded room with sound proof walls. a very loud scream and a few bounces off the walls and hell yes i'd feel good. but it wasn't bad after the thousands of people left.
HOW MANY PEOPLE can come into ONE store and order tickets for The Monster Truck show in one day???? i know there are three showings...BUT STILLLLLLL!! The of course you have the odd-balls who want Jessica simpson or stomp or some ticket way out in atlanta (as to cover my butt i simply mean odd-balls in reference to there being only one person wanting tickets for the three specified shows, whereas i sold close to 20 for the monster truck show-- THERE WAS NO MENTION OF MY OPNION OF ANY OF THESE EVENTS--now that i've hopefully completely covered myself from angrering any bipassers...)

wow...talk about stress relief...i just need to sit here and vent more often...i'm feeling better already.

hm...it sucks that this is a one way conversation...

thinking
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: it's silent...oh no
Topic: my life
you know, i think too much. right now it's like...where do i gofrom here. do i go on and bewcome a firefighter, do i get into peramedics, or do i find something where i help fewer people, enjoy what i'm doing less, but make more money. it seems, though, my writing is not blossoming so i can't take that approach. how do i decide. i guess i have to wait AT LEAST until i finish my EMT-Basic class. but, blah...

aren't you glad you're reading this. i'm just yabbering.

anyone who knows anything about my life have any suggestions?

why do i keep falling into these darned 'unknown' phases? i think i'll just bang my head on the table and go to bed. it's late. and i have a test later. that in itself deserves a head bang...*bonk*

good night

fun stuff...
Mood:  spacey

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn
Your name:
Weapon of Choice:	A muppet
Your Favorite Target:	Retail workers
Your Kill Count:	779,592,224
Your Battle Cry:	"Touch me, I'm happy!"
Years You Spend in Jail:	20
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:	$151,697,144,970,998
Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 55%
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I finally gave in...
Mood:  not sure
Yup. I did. I Finally gave in. I started one of these darned things. Maybe I'll keep uo with it...no guarantees. So, it's been a good day. Slow...mind's been...everywhere. I can't really focus on anything today. I guess it's just all finking in. Anwyway...I'm going to actually try to keep this thing up-to-date (if that's possible with my lifestyle and schedule...if you don't know...ask! it's completely CrAzY)

but, well...
I really don't feel like working today. I have to go in at 3...that gives me about an hour to lolly-gag and get ready and 30 mins to get there.

lolly-gag...who comes up with these words

well...i'm going to go and "lolly-gag" or find a show on t.v. or something...who knows, maybe you'll see me later...