Sick
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: So Sick Remix - Ne-yo feat. Jin
I'm at home, and i'm sick. I'm "SO SICK" of being sick. The only kind of "sick" i'd like, is if i got to stay overnight at the hospital. Why do i have this obsession with being visited at the hospital. Hmm, it's kind of like a fantasy, but not really, because it's not like fulfulling or anything sexual or whatever ... HAHA! well fulfilling sure, to see who'd actually come and see me? *sigh* Love songs make me sad, but somehow that's fulfulling too. I wish i could tell 65 how i feel. I wish he'd care. But, i don't think he does. And most likely, if i do tell him, he'll either freak, or play me off and just keep his cool. Psha, yes, i know, then why would i like someone like that? Because "this time it's different" How many times have i said that? A lot. I know. But yeauh, the guys are different, the situations are different, but i guess the end results are always the same: me with a broken heart. And who's there to mend it? NO ONE! I guess actually, my heart doesn't really get broken, because it hasn't really been mended. So it's still broken, but like i don't know. Let's say since hmm Grade 8, i can say my heart was in two pieces, then after a while, it was in four, then eight, then sixteen. I don't know how that math adds up through what i've been through. But i have a feeling, that this heartbreak, will tear my heart into a million pieces. Because i care for him, just THAT damn much.