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downNow Playing: GooGoo Dolls - Iris
as the title might suggest, im gunna talk a bit about my feelings.. i dunno why but i guess i have to before i forget how strong they are
this summer was incredible.. i cant believe i have one more week.. i just left my cottage, and all i can think about is how much im gunna miss everything.. i worked all summer at a small marina at the end of the lake.. it was an incredible first job..
i worked with my neighbour Eric, ive known him since i was a baby, hes exactly 3 months and 1 day older than me.. i guess this shows how long ive known him, our families have been friends for roughly 25 years.. its hard to believe that the whole friendship between me and Eric started just 6 months after his parents bought their cottage.. that was when my dad bought the cottage next to it..
ive never really been friends with eric though.. so this is a strange thing that we've actually become friends.. when i was little, of course i was afraid of boys cuz they had CCOOOOOOOTTIIIEESS!! plus when i was growing up, i was never liked by boys, my friends always got the attention, the boys just picked on me a lot.. and nooo its not cuz they liked me, they had better pickings than me.. and i was informed i guess 3 or 4 years ago that Eric liked me.. i was terrified.. ive never been in that kinda situation! what was i supposed to do!? i did a paper route with him, and i stopped talking to him most of the time.. i refused to spend time with him.. and then last year he fell in love.. not with me, but his cousins girlfriend. i was ok with this, actually i was thrilled
except this year it just pissed me off, cuz all he would do would be to just fall all over the place and help her, do ANYTHING for her.. can u spell Lapdog? cuz thats what he was.. i kinda felt embarrassed FOR him.. which is pretty bad.. and i would get mad cuz he would treat me like SHIT when she was aorund.. for obvious reasons
i guess this summer it showed me a part of him that i never knew, how sensitive he was, and all that.. so i guess i should just get to my stupid missing list..
1. im gunna miss waking up and seeing all those beautiful trees, and see the lake
2. im gunna miss sitting in the boat, feeling the chilly morning air hit my face early in the morning on the way to work
3. im gunna miss Randi Clavel coming into the store practically yelling "HEY RUGRAT!"
4. im gunna miss Jo calling me "Elizabeth"
5. im gunna miss eric trying to suck up to me just so i can do something for him
6. im gunna miss eric hollering at me to do my job
7. im gunna miss looking up at the sky through the trees just to see the stars
8 im gunna miss seeing the reflection of the moon off the lake
9. im gunna miss missing home and my friends
10. mostly im just gunna miss the cottage..
this is my emotional piece.. maybe tomorrow ill talk about Ace Gang Weekend
. sally .