Digitally Imported is my drug of choice!
*yawns* Here I sit, 3am and once again I'm well beyond tired, and should have probally gone to bed hours ago....oh well, I'm young and impetuous....the joys of youth....except lately, I don't feel all that young...I feel alot older, a lot wiser than I was even a year ago....alot has happened in the last year, and It's actually served a lot of good....I've found a new sense of discipline and ambition that I recently thought unfathomable...

I've been working at the call center for almost 2 months now, and for once in my life I feel like I'm where I want to be...It's not the greatest paying job in the world, but I work with great people and feel like what I'm doing is right, and I've never felt that before...

Unfortunately, the hours suck, and I've thus been prompted to aquire other employment to supplement it...at the moment I havent had much success, but feel as though I shall rectify that, and soon...until then, I'm not doing to bad off....my finances are in order, and with a roomate I don't feel to rushed....it all seems to slowly be coming together....

All I'm really lacking now, is a girlfriend....someone to share my joy with, someone to have fun with....to spare me of the loneliness I sometimes feel when I'm laying in bed at night...A slight tinge that reminds me that no matter what I do, I still lack a part of my life...a small void that needs to be filled...

at the same time, I cope, and I'm in no hurry...I've had several opportunities, but for once in my life i feel no hurry...I've realised that sometimes being alone is better than suffering with someone you don't truly care for...I'm content to wait, unwilling to rush into something I am not completely happy with...

Until then I work, I sleep....I spend time with my friends....in a way, with the good friends I feel less alone than I could ever feel where I with someone...

SuperNovA
and today makes 3....I'm on a roll baby :D

I woke up around 11 today, as per my usual regime...Bummed around the house for awhile, , trying to find someone to go to wonderland with, but of course everyone was busy ...not really interested it rushing into the day,as saturdays are usually my lazy day(and/or sunday MY sabbath) darryl came over around noon, and we all kinda sat around being lazy until we left for downtown around 130...the bus took forever to get here, but what else is new....once we got downtown, we parted ways and I headed off to the bank and to wonderland where I spent 2 hours playing ddr with this really cool kid that was just learning....I love teaching noobs the tricks of the trade so to speak :D ..

Of course during the middle of a song, josh gave me a ring wanting to make plans for later...typical, but no biggie :D after wonderland I headed home, had a shower and hung out with whit, darryl and his friend mike, listened to some music and played some cards....then josh, lorna and jennie came to pick me up, we picked up joey and dropped jennie off...

headed to boston pizza to play some pool, and garret and his cousin met us and we decided to head to joshs to drink and play pool....after going to joshs we suddenly decided to head to his apartment in moose jaw, so we packed it up and headed to moose jaw, hung out did some drinking and then headed back around 230 and I passed out...joyous times had by all

-=- Justin -=-

One in a million
Wow, now look at that...2 days in a row for a post....I must have no life or something :D lol

Anyways, today was a pretty good day indeed :D Well of course any pay day is a good day in itself

I didnt sleep very well last night (the usual strange dreams plaguing me) but I woke up around 10 oclock, hopped in the shower and went off to work to pick up my PHAT pay cheque which was more than I had expected (gotta love bonuses :D)

after that, I headed downtown, cashed it and hung around a bit, catching the concert for the grey cup party(mutters about how the riders SHOULD BE PLAYING, Stupid crooked refs) waiting for whitney to call me so we could meet up

After we met up, we went for lunch and then went shopping(house stuff and a present for my friend)

after that, we went home, I did some laundry, had another shower and then met my friend jennie, played some pool, drank some beer, and then I came home and crashed....fun times...

Carry on Dancing
Well, well well....

Another much needed, but very much put off entry

It's been alot of the usual, work work work...
well, not in the last few days, works kinda slowed to a crawl at the moment, but shall pick up soon...

in the mean time, I've had much more time on my hands than I know what to do with...I've gone from working every day to not having worked in almost a week and well, I'm kinda going crazy...time to find a second job I guess :D

other than that, and the usual day to day "hanging out" with various people, not much excitement has happened in my life...well, other than the fact that whit and I went and got a land line hooked up yesterday, so once again I have net :D yay me :D

More later, -=- Justin -=-

Standing outside the fire
Another day, another dollar....worked another 9 and half hours today, fun times....I cant remember the last time I had a day off, but honestly it doesnt really bother me...I love my job, and I love the people I work with....they're all pretty awesome people for the most part :D

Not much going on my life lately, just a few failed attempts at sparking something with a few women along the way, but then again Im not in much of a hurry....without a female in my life, I've been doing quite well about working my ass off, which is good cuz the more I work, the more money I make...which I dont have the time to spend ...pft ahh well, c'est la vie....

2 days til the party, and I'm really excited....jennie and I did an EXCELLENT job decorating my place, but I must say most of the credit must go to her...she's quite creative, and very patient with my fumbling attempt at art(I am so very NOT creative with art) so, I guess come P-Day it'll all be worth the work we put in :D and I will ceraintly have pictures to post, until then...good day

-=- Justin -=-

My name is justin, and I have a problem....
We all have an addiction.

Be it caffiene, niccotine, Drugs etc, we all have at
least 1.

I have several, and I have no problem admitting it, and anyone that knows me personally knows these addictions all too well...

but the one that has really reared it's ugly head lately has been my internet addiction...

I am proud to say it loudly...."I am addicted to internet" ...I always have been and always will be a net geek

so ya, that's my little rant ...now on to bigger better things, and that is my new post...it certainly has been some time, but then again I have been a very busy person...

Recently I have been throwing myself into work, bearing the rigors of the 9 - 5 world, and working like crazy....I havent had a day off since the 8th, but honestly it's not that bad....the job is cool, and the people I work with are amazing...well, with exception of one...elisha....a cool girl and all, and we really did get along great, but I made the horrid mistake of asking her for email address so we could talk outside work, and she misconstrued that as an attempt to pick her up(even tho I wouldnt since she clearly has a boyfriend) but oh well, c'est la vie...I'm a dirt bag I guess

other than that, not much new...except that really now, I'm to the point where I could give 2 shits about shyla anymore....it now appears I wont even get to be in the hospital when she gives birth to our child cuz she doesnt want me "to see her family" she's a bitch, life goes on....next rant...

actually I'm all out, looking forward to my "big" haloween party lol...me, jennie, josh, lorna, joey cassandra and MAYBE linda and walker...woopie doo...ahh well, not much of a party per say, but I couldnt think of any other people I'd rather spend my night with...I lovethem all to death....more on my boring life later, til then I must sleep...

All work and no tv make homer something something
So much to write, so little time...as per usual, I havent posted in quite some time, b ut mostly because of the lack of a phone and access to the internet at the moment...the only time I gety my net fix is either at my friend syls or my mothers....


so there hasnt been much going on in my life as usuual, other than starting a new job at the ndp, quitting my old BULLSHIT job at prairie publications, and moving into a new apartment...

seems like stuff is starting to level off though now, and for once I have a bit of a respite from the stress thgat has been hounding me for the last 2 months....finally some peace...this weeken should be fun, jonal is coming down from edmonton to see "the gang" so that'll be fun...other than that, not much else going on

-=- J -=-

When morning breaks, thus dawns a new day, and a new hope
Again I have neglected my blog, but as usual I shall try and justify
it by saying I have been rather busy with the goings on in my life as
of life.

First off, let me update by saying I finally found employment :D
yay me, Starting tomorrow at 1PM I officially am a telemarketer for
the saskatchewan fire fighters association. Not by any means glorious
but whatever puts money in my bank makes me happy, and that it shall
a LOT to be exact :D

other than that, the last few days have been...rather like all the
others, with exception to the fact that I've been sick...

I REALLY hate being sick, my throat hurts, I sound like a frog and
I feel dizzy and nauseous, other than that...hey good times

But over the last few days, I've also come to a realisation(prompted
mostly last night by the message from shyla that for now she wants no
communication from me).

(Note, I really wanted to continue here, but I wanted to post the rest of this in my writing section
so click Here to read it.

Life is like a box of chocolates...and Im lactose intolerant
I hate mondays...I always have and always will

monday signifies the begining of a new week, and the begining of a plethora of new trials and suffering that seem to plague me, especially of late...

Every day i am finding it harder and harder to get out of bed, it seems like everything I do seems to have no real positive outcome, no matter how I try and stay optimistic, something comes along and smashes any hope I seem to have

I don't have any real posts for today
as really, today was depressing beyond words, and the mere memory of it finds me fighting the urge to scream or cry or something to that effect

Instead I wrote a little bit about how I feel
as posted
Here

People can be so fucking annoying (Sub titled: MY FUCKING FEET HURT AND I THINK MY ANUS IS BLEEDING)
Friday september 13th 2003

Well, I again seem to have neglected my journal..

Not for a lack of time, more out of a matter of laziness, but it seems the longer i leave it, the more I have to say, so here goes...

First off, the last 2 days were of no real interest, just slack days really....

today, on the other hand, was one for the books

FIRST of all, I was up at 930AM...yes, that's right....AM...this is unheard of for me, as I am NEVER conscious at this ungodly hour ...

Anyways back to the point, at 10am I was out the door and starting my day...first step city hall...nothing much to say there, just had to pick up my water bill...on of the documents I need for a meeting at SS....

So upon arriving there, I'm informed I dont have one of the documents I was earlier informed by someone at the call center that I wouldnt need...due to their ineptness tho, I was forced to call their call center....I timed it...45 GOD DAMN Minuts on hold....JUST on hold....either way, I cleared that matter up, went BACK to the desk and was told that now that it was 1130, they were not seeing anyone in the morning and would have to come back after 1....W

Well, I was most CERTAINLY pissed off at this point, as I had a MILLION things to do, and this was going to throw my whole day off...

So anyways, I went and did some other running around, came back at 1, and cleared the matters up...

after that, I went shopping for a bit, had some lunch and then walked down to my second interview at sports mart(I think it went pretty well) ...after that, I walked down to staples, walked home./..then had to walk BACK because the video card they sold me was in fact just an empty box....pissed off at that(for OBVIOUS reasons) I walked back, returned it, and then bill and I went to wonderland, then had supper....all in total, I spent a grand total of 12 hours almost CONSTANTLY on my feet....and now I'm going to crawl into the tub and DIE