My name is justin, and I have a problem....
We all have an addiction.

Be it caffiene, niccotine, Drugs etc, we all have at
least 1.

I have several, and I have no problem admitting it, and anyone that knows me personally knows these addictions all too well...

but the one that has really reared it's ugly head lately has been my internet addiction...

I am proud to say it loudly...."I am addicted to internet" ...I always have been and always will be a net geek

so ya, that's my little rant ...now on to bigger better things, and that is my new post...it certainly has been some time, but then again I have been a very busy person...

Recently I have been throwing myself into work, bearing the rigors of the 9 - 5 world, and working like crazy....I havent had a day off since the 8th, but honestly it's not that bad....the job is cool, and the people I work with are amazing...well, with exception of one...elisha....a cool girl and all, and we really did get along great, but I made the horrid mistake of asking her for email address so we could talk outside work, and she misconstrued that as an attempt to pick her up(even tho I wouldnt since she clearly has a boyfriend) but oh well, c'est la vie...I'm a dirt bag I guess

other than that, not much new...except that really now, I'm to the point where I could give 2 shits about shyla anymore....it now appears I wont even get to be in the hospital when she gives birth to our child cuz she doesnt want me "to see her family" she's a bitch, life goes on....next rant...

actually I'm all out, looking forward to my "big" haloween party lol...me, jennie, josh, lorna, joey cassandra and MAYBE linda and walker...woopie doo...ahh well, not much of a party per say, but I couldnt think of any other people I'd rather spend my night with...I lovethem all to death....more on my boring life later, til then I must sleep...

All work and no tv make homer something something
So much to write, so little time...as per usual, I havent posted in quite some time, b ut mostly because of the lack of a phone and access to the internet at the moment...the only time I gety my net fix is either at my friend syls or my mothers....


so there hasnt been much going on in my life as usuual, other than starting a new job at the ndp, quitting my old BULLSHIT job at prairie publications, and moving into a new apartment...

seems like stuff is starting to level off though now, and for once I have a bit of a respite from the stress thgat has been hounding me for the last 2 months....finally some peace...this weeken should be fun, jonal is coming down from edmonton to see "the gang" so that'll be fun...other than that, not much else going on

-=- J -=-

When morning breaks, thus dawns a new day, and a new hope
Again I have neglected my blog, but as usual I shall try and justify
it by saying I have been rather busy with the goings on in my life as
of life.

First off, let me update by saying I finally found employment :D
yay me, Starting tomorrow at 1PM I officially am a telemarketer for
the saskatchewan fire fighters association. Not by any means glorious
but whatever puts money in my bank makes me happy, and that it shall
a LOT to be exact :D

other than that, the last few days have been...rather like all the
others, with exception to the fact that I've been sick...

I REALLY hate being sick, my throat hurts, I sound like a frog and
I feel dizzy and nauseous, other than that...hey good times

But over the last few days, I've also come to a realisation(prompted
mostly last night by the message from shyla that for now she wants no
communication from me).

(Note, I really wanted to continue here, but I wanted to post the rest of this in my writing section
so click Here to read it.

Life is like a box of chocolates...and Im lactose intolerant
I hate mondays...I always have and always will

monday signifies the begining of a new week, and the begining of a plethora of new trials and suffering that seem to plague me, especially of late...

Every day i am finding it harder and harder to get out of bed, it seems like everything I do seems to have no real positive outcome, no matter how I try and stay optimistic, something comes along and smashes any hope I seem to have

I don't have any real posts for today
as really, today was depressing beyond words, and the mere memory of it finds me fighting the urge to scream or cry or something to that effect

Instead I wrote a little bit about how I feel
as posted
Here

People can be so fucking annoying (Sub titled: MY FUCKING FEET HURT AND I THINK MY ANUS IS BLEEDING)
Friday september 13th 2003

Well, I again seem to have neglected my journal..

Not for a lack of time, more out of a matter of laziness, but it seems the longer i leave it, the more I have to say, so here goes...

First off, the last 2 days were of no real interest, just slack days really....

today, on the other hand, was one for the books

FIRST of all, I was up at 930AM...yes, that's right....AM...this is unheard of for me, as I am NEVER conscious at this ungodly hour ...

Anyways back to the point, at 10am I was out the door and starting my day...first step city hall...nothing much to say there, just had to pick up my water bill...on of the documents I need for a meeting at SS....

So upon arriving there, I'm informed I dont have one of the documents I was earlier informed by someone at the call center that I wouldnt need...due to their ineptness tho, I was forced to call their call center....I timed it...45 GOD DAMN Minuts on hold....JUST on hold....either way, I cleared that matter up, went BACK to the desk and was told that now that it was 1130, they were not seeing anyone in the morning and would have to come back after 1....W

Well, I was most CERTAINLY pissed off at this point, as I had a MILLION things to do, and this was going to throw my whole day off...

So anyways, I went and did some other running around, came back at 1, and cleared the matters up...

after that, I went shopping for a bit, had some lunch and then walked down to my second interview at sports mart(I think it went pretty well) ...after that, I walked down to staples, walked home./..then had to walk BACK because the video card they sold me was in fact just an empty box....pissed off at that(for OBVIOUS reasons) I walked back, returned it, and then bill and I went to wonderland, then had supper....all in total, I spent a grand total of 12 hours almost CONSTANTLY on my feet....and now I'm going to crawl into the tub and DIE

Just another day
Tuesday September 10th 2003

Well today wasn't actually a bad day

Didn't sleep much again last night, but that's nothing new

Went to my interview at business depot at 1, and I think it went okay...they said they'd call me back for a second interview by friday, so I'm crossing my fingers on that...

after that, I came home geeked out, burnt my supper then hannah came over, we went to ruckers and then came back and watched part of a movie...

after that, I hung out for a bit w/ bill and then went to bed...why do I get the feeling that my life is fast becoming a rather un-exciting routine? ah well

Time flys by when you're...oh forget it
Monday September 9 2003

Today was quite a fun day indeed.

After getting a grand total of 1 hour sleep last night, I was up at 7:30 to go down to this stupid career class I had to attend(Jobs first)....

Woopidy doo, after sitting around for 3 hours
listening to them spew common sense(I mean isn't it common knowledge that you should go to an interview well groomed? I mean come on) I was free to pursue the rest of my day.

Mainly which was spent running around doing various errands....wow, so much fun..

After which I headed home, fiddled with my computer some, had yet ANOTHER argument with shyla(what else is new?) then had a power nap....

When I woke up, I tried calling a few people to find something to do...of course being unsucessful(damn people with lives) I moseyed on down to wonderland for a quick round of ddr, then went to syls, came home and crashed.......fun times...

Life can be so boring
September 7th, 2003

First off, due to the lack of a working computer in my house, I havent had the opportunity to write in my journal for the last couple of days :S

The weekend was rather uneventful, friday was spent applying for jobs as per usual, and then in the evening I went to wonderland with dave, luda, linda and kyle....typical friday night really..

Saturday was my lazy day, I didn't leave the couch for much other than the usual reasons for getting up(Ie food etc)

Sunday(Today) I woke up, luda, josh and joey came over and hung out, then I came to my moms, watched a movie and had supper...


Other than that, and yet another fight with shyla, nothing interesting really happened...

One of the longest days of my life.
September 5 2003

With much hesitation I went to SIAST today
and attended the orientation for the adult learning
course.

A rather enjoyable and informative event which I came away from with newfound hope.

The bus ride home was rather interesting as the bus lost power and careened around a corner nearly hitting a tree.

After spending about 10 minuts on someones front lawn(I can only imagine the persons horror of seeing 40 odd strangers sitting on their front lawn) we were back on our way and I made it home.

After which, I went with shyla to go look at some baby stuff. A fun event into it's own as we spent a good chunk of time sitting in front of my moms house afterwards arguing. Always pleasant.

To add to the pleasure of my day, my mom then proceeded to make my life hell by bitching at me.
What a wonderful day.

Afterwards I went to my friend sylvans house, and hung out...ranter and felt alot better...

All in all, a rather fun day.