Realize the Lie

*** This was a poem i wrote one time when i was feeling not myself. I felt like i was always putting on a face, always acting happy even if i wasn't. i was in a shitty mood, as usual for writing my poems LOL, and wrote about it. I think this is one of my fave poems (i have a few of these that you will read on here that are in that group)that i have written so far. I think that its pretty powerful. maybe not emotionally but i find it paints a vivid picture in my mind. mind you it may be because I WROTE IT, but oh well LOL. hope you like it***

Act like I’m happy

That nothing hurt.

That I know everything.

I’m the perfect little angel.

But angels are fragile, breakable, crushable.

Look into my eyes and realize the lie.

I’m not happy but lost

not invincible but vulnerable.

I don’t know everything, I know nothing.

My wings have shattered, I’m a falling angel.

My angelic facade hides the real me inside the lie.

Do you believe the lie?

Or will you see though the crack in my halo.

I don’t shrink from the darkness, I seek it.

I don’t loathe the pain, I relish it.

I don’t love you, I hate you.

You remind me of what I pretend to be,

of what I long to be.

In the darkness I cry

a river of black tears.

I float lifelessly down an endless stream

surrounded in my darkness

Can you realize the lie?

Or will you be blinded by the angel on the outside?

~ Written by Cheri MacKenzie March 12th, 2002 ~

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