There’s an empty place in my heart where you use to be
A place that was warm, safe, and just for me
But slowly you started to slip away
The man I once knew fading into history
Till all that was left was a thing of mystery
An empty husk of a man who’s eyes were the windows into oblivion
The pain you endured was a burden which grew
As each day passed, it began anew
The question of whether you would shine through those windows for me
Or hide in the darkness of your sanity
It was for these days of sunshine I yearned for
When the man I knew and loved came back to me
An illusion of forgotten normalcy
But that’s all those few precious moments were
Moments spent in an imagined fallacy
Where things were like they use to be
And you were still my fortress of sanity
The man I loved and adored
The one I would do anything for
But just as quickly as you came
Your sunshine would quickly fade into the night
And reality came back without a fight
one of pain, sorrow, loss, and love
for a man who was surely lost to me
Until the day I tried to hide
Scared to see the disappointment in your eyes
Hiding from this man you’d become
Never knowing just how far you’d sweetly slip
Into a never ending dreamless slumber
Where the pain of this world could never wander
There’s a whole inside of me, a place where you use to be
But the angels took you away from me
While I hid away from my failure
Avoiding the truth I knew mattered
Wanting to stay a little longer in fantasy
To scared to add to your burdening pain
To tip the scales to the extreme
And rip you away from me permanently
But no matter how hard I fought
You were still ripped away
Leaving behind the already vacant shell you once lived in behind
To grow cold, lifeless, and dead
Right beneath my very nose
There’s a hole in my heart where you use to be
But the angels took you away from me
Leaving me alone and empty
So empty is all I feel
~written by Cheri MacKenzie May 28th, 2006
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