Heart of Confusion

***I think everyone has found themselves in a situation like this at least once. You know, when you fall for someone, but you feel like they dont return the favor, or that they dont care for you like you do. Well these were one of those times for me, and i was a lil upset as you will see. but this was a good way for me to vent my feelings, and i guess the situation isnt a total loss, i got this great poem out of it.***

Here I sit

anguish on my face,

despair in my heart,

and hot tears running down my cheeks.

Intense, my pain grips me,

sending my emotions reeling.

My heart aches for love, for you

but do you feel the same?

Foolishly I left myself open to you,

unprotected, vulnerable.

I let myself get too close to you,

I let myself fall to much for you.

What do I have to show for it?

Nothing but confusion and pain.

I lie on my bed, confused, ashamed, tired,

Letting the pain wash over me in smothering waves,

drowning my heart, my pain, my confusion.

Numbly I lie here, feeling empty,

lifeless, alone.

Thinking of you,

Wondering if you feel this way too.

All the while wishing to be released

from the confusion of my heart.

~written November 2, 2002~

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