Do you understand me or am I giving you too much credit?

These are my rants and words with no particular order. What is contained within may or may not be my real feelings anymore. Some of this is older than some of you and yet some may be completely new. Who knows what lies with in the depths of my mind and why its there.

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if the world is a gem then you are the one who makes it sparkle

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I am who I am and no one can change that

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I am me and its wonderful to be me

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Look, look the world though my eyes, careful it may be to much for even the strongest

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I am I said I am I cried and no one heard not even the chair

-- Neil Diamond

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the sun mocks me, it smiles at my sorrows, it beams at my displeasure

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let me in, let me in

its cold outside

sad, sad day

your hear wont open its door

point me in the right

direction there is still

hope for me may be

someday

someone will let me in

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cold winter night

pass this house tonight

for summer lives here

my love to give fills

this house with warmth

no cloud can overshadow

what is true

my love for you.

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let me make you my sunshine

allow your self to brighten my day

let your self be free

clad your self in me

be my rain my sweet dear

and wash away my sins

be the breeze that cools my temper and fans

the flames in me

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my my young man what rage

over a damn holiday some

stupid day that’s supposed to symbolize

the day of love and yet all it causes is stress and heartache

02/08/02

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you’re a fucking vampire bleeding me dry let me go

there is no more for you to take

save your tears for a rainy day

so no one can tell them apart from heavens drops and may

you find someone who gives a damn

because there isn't much fight left in me

02/08/02

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