About that...Mood:
not sureI apologize for what I said to Sarah, I wasn't thinking very clearly when I sent her that e-mail. It intended to start anything or blame all my problems on her or anyone else for that matter. Sarah really wasn't happy when she replied and it made me cry. I was sitting there thinking, how could I have been so stupid? If I could have taken it back, I would have. If only... I hope that you can forgive me for not wanting to talk about certain things with you, I was unsure of how you would react and I know that I would be telling you those things through tears. Sometimes it feels like things can be better said to Sarah because she knows about it a lot more than I do. Recently, it was kind of a feeling of helplessness and misunderstanding. Nothing really made sense and it all felt scattered away. As I have e-mailed to Sarah, I am stopping what I have been doing. I promise that I won't do it again, or atleast I'll try my damndest. Please don't confront me with it because it won't help. I meant that in the most sincere way possible. Again, not trying to start anything.
Remember that I will always love you, until the day I die. Always and forever... I love you.
Maddie, I know that you wanted to help me, but I really believe I can do it on my own. Yes, I know... Stubborn as an ass.
I love you with everything in me and with a passion greater than I will ever know. My undying love for you grows larger and stronger with every passing day.
I love you and always will,
Your Angel