*Door Opens*


Dawn enters the living room and finds everybody sitting on the couch waiting for her.


>Dawnie... where were you?, you had us worried... "Tara said looking at the young brunnete released because nothing had happened to her".

>It was nothing... 

>You sure?..... How are you?

>Five by Five... "Dawn says smiling remembering when she heard it from Faith".

>WHAT?!?!?!?!?!... "they all said on the unisone, looking at her surprised... of course... because they recognized the phrase right away"

>What what????... "Dawn says in a desperade intent to hide what she said with a fake smile... because she could tell by the look on their faces... that there was something wrong on what she said".

>You said.. Five by Five....

>And?... "Dawn says nerviously trying to make it look like she didn't realize and that it was all unconscious"

>That is Faith's phrase...

>Wait a... "Dawn was trying to say Wait a minute... you guys know Faith??... but she was interrupted by Willow"

>Buffy, she doesn't even know who Faith is... besides it is not like she is out of jail you know??... unless of course they have developed some sort of telepathical connection.. which is impossible.... So where did you hear that Dawnie???


Dawn realized they knew Faith and apparently, judging by the look on their faces... it was not really good news hearing about her.


>Uhm.... I guess that in a magazine... "Dawn said.. trying to make her answer sound natural".

>How come... I've read a lot of magazines and actually didn't know about that one... "Anya said innocently".

>Uhm... I... Well... <THINK FAST DAWN!!!.... THINK FAST> I... I... it is a very small Conneticut magazine... Melissa brought it to the store... they say.. this phrase is the bomb over there...

>REALLY?... "Buffy says a little reluctant to believe what she hears"

>umm.. yeah... it is... anyways why are you making such a big deal out of it.. who is this Faith girl you guys keep talking about? ... "Dawn asked because she wanted to know why the scandal".

>Dawnie... I don't think it is appropiate for you to know about this sort of things... they might cause a big impact on your...

>ON WHAT??? ... "Dawn interrumpted" .... on my baby ears.... aw C'mon Buffy... I am old enough.. I am 16 now... and besides if you are gonna start shooting me with questions since the very moment I step a foot on the house... at least I deserve to know why.

>Alright... you want to know... then sit down. "Buffy said really serious...making it sound more like a dare than a statement".


Obeying to her sister's order, Dawn sat on the chair with a very concerned look on her face... what could be so bad about her that she was put in jail... was there a chance of being just a coincidence (a big ass coincidence)... that there are two Faiths in sunnydale, and both of them answer to the question How are you with a very odd phrase... 


>Faith is a slayer... or I mean was... before she was arrested....

<definitely the same one>.... >uhm.. go on Buffy...

>We worked together for a while, until she joined the mayor

>What mayor?... the one that turned himself into a snake?

>Yeah... well she joined him, and she tried to kill us... and also Mom...

>Aw... and uh..

>AW!... and Buffy don't forget that she also raped Xander.. "Anya interrupted innocently".

>ANYA!!!... "all the scoobs said on the unisone".

>What?? She said she was old enough Buffy... "she answered"

>EW!... "Dawn said while picturing Xander having sex with her new friend... of course if she could still consider Faith her friend after all the things she was hearing about her".

>Well Yes Anya, however... I think that this is a little more than what she needed to know... "Buffy said concerned".

>But Ok!.. is that all?? "Dawn asked to her sister".

>what do you mean is that all... like if it weren’t enough to have her killed the next time she shows her face around here... and if I didn’t tell you about this before, it was because I didn’t consider it necessary... It is way more than you can handle.. but yeah... it is the short story... so, she was put in jail, in Los Angeles .. and as far as I know she was ordered also to receive psychological hel...

Suddendly Dawn remembered...

>Oh!.. the phone message... I knew I should have said something.

>What message?.. "Buffy asked surprised".

>huh?

>I said what message?

>Message?!?!.. "Dawn tried to avoid Buffy's question because she realized this was serious and that she would get really mad if she found out that Dawn was hiding such a thing from her... because Buffy wouldn’t have mind receiving the message from her if she told her she deleted them accidentally, but she would freak out if she finds out that Faith in fact was coming back to Sunnydale and she didn’t know about it”.

>Nevermind...

>Hey... uh... I ... I am real tired... I think I'd better go to bed... Night!

>Aw... Night.... "Buffy replied with a weird look on her face because Dawn suddendly felt like sleeping and was no longer interested on the Faith subject"

>NIGHT!... "all the scoobs said in unisone".








Upstairs at Dawn's room...


Dear Diary, 


First of all, I want to say that I am crying.. so forgive me if I stain your pages with my tears.

Why am I crying??...... I am crying because I hate the shit my life’s turn into... I dunno why things have to happen this way... I don’t know why the fuck did the damn monks make like this... so complicated... I mean.. what is the real usefulness to “the key” in questioning her sexuality?... Is it really helpful for “The key” to hate herself and her life??? I’m the key for God’s sake... I am not even human.. yet I have this stupid feelings I am not even supposed to have.. this feelings I hate and I wish I didn’t have.

Now I feel like a dirty piece of shit, I feel so bad... and you know why?? Remember that Faith girl I told you about?? I kinda like her you know?.. though I really think we both knew that one already, but guess what... now I find out that this girl is a psycho who tried to kill the scoobs, my mom and Buffy (Well... even Buffy needs to get her ass kicked every once in a while... but not that way)... Anya also says that Faith raped Xander.. about that one, honestly I would rather just not talk... And the thing is Diary, that I love my mommy... and also Buffy (despite of the disagreements we may have ocasionally).... and the scoobs.. they have been pretty good to me... But I just can’t CAN’T... stop liking and thinking about Faith... And that is just not right, is it???? THOUGHT SO!!!.... What should I do???... Is it better to go running to Buffy and rat on Faith... should I better go to Faith and give her a kiss like I’ve wanted all the way back home??? But you tell me dear Diary... WHY THE FUCK CAN’T SHE BE A “REGULAR” PERSON?!?!?! WHY? WHY? WHY?!?!?.... I am having enough struggle already just to admit I’m having some kind of trouble with my sexuality... you more than anybody know that I didn’t wanna admit it... now... besides of that (which is a lot by the way)... do I really have to handle that the girl I happen to have a crush on.. is a slayer... but not any kind of slayer... but a crazy mean psycho slayer who tries to kill everybody she runs into???... Do I really deserve that??.. DO I?!?!?!

But you know what? She just saved my life today... and that just doesn’t fit into the behavior of a crazy psycho... she would have just let that vampire kill me, or even better, she would have joined him in his raw-meat fest... and would have given him ideas so my death was more fun... but no... she saved me, and she also was this sweet girl... and I just can’t let that go either... because it doesn’t matter how bad I want to forget she didn’t seem mean to me.. I can’t... I love my mom and everyone else.. they are like my family.. but... I just can’t let this go.. I know this ain’t right... I know that this shouldn’t be... but I just can’t stop thinking about her.... and I think I won’t

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.... Next Morning at Dawn’s Bedroom


>Dawn??

>____

>Dawnie???

>______

>Dawn today is a work day!!! ... “Buffy says softly as she moves her baby sister’s shoulders”.

>umm... “Dawn mumbles still asleep”.

>Dawnie, wake up... you fell asleep on top of this book... WAIT.. it is not just some book... it is your Diary huh??. Well I guess you are not in a hurry and can sleep five more minutes while me and Mr. Diary have a nice talk!!... “Buffy says as she takes the Diary softly so Dawn doesn’t feel anything”... 


*Door Opens*


>Buffy???... It is so early for you to be walking around the house... who are you talking to??? ... “Willow, who just woke up and whose hair was all messy, says”.

>Willow!... you scared me... 

>fair enough!! you woke me up....

>Shhhh!... Dawn’s gonna wake up...

>and isn’t that what we want???... “She says in a very sleepy voice while scratching her head”.

>yeah but...

>What is that book you have under your arm???... “Willow interrupts Buffy and takes the book so she can take a better look”.

>Dawn’s Diary...

>Ooooh Buffy. This is not alright.... you shouldn’t be invading her privacy...

>I am not gonna read it all... “Buffy says as she tries to take back the diary, but Willow steps back”.

>Then what the hell are you gonna do with it?... don’t tell me you are gonna hide it or something...

>No!

>then??...

>Well... you want the truth???

>DUH!!... “but she chokes and starts coughing”.


The sound of Willow’s cough woke up Tara, who was still sleeping when Willow left the room... she silently opened her door and walked to where the noise came from still kind of asleep... she saw three shapes, her girlfriend’s, the slayer’s and Dawn’s... she stood right in the doorstep half asleep without being noticed by the other two girls...



>Well Willow... I’ve seen the way Dawn looks at Xander... and well... I am not twelve years old... I have the impression that she has a crush on him... and this is the only way... don’t you wanna find out...

>Well... I don’t kno..


>Guys!... what is it that you are doing here??? ... “Tara that had finished waking up said to the other girls”.

>FUCK!!!... “Said Buffy”.

>God!!... “Said Willow”... you scared the hell out of me baby...

>Sorry... I didn’t mean to... what are you doing anyways??

>Well...


>Whu-what... where... I.... BUFFY!... what are you three doing here?!?!?!? “Dawn who just woke up by the noise says mad when she sees that there are three people on her room watching her sleep”.

>Well...

>And why the fuck do you have my diary there?.. GIVE IT TO ME!... “She says as she extends her hand to Willow... so she can give her the diary”.

>Hey.. I am ... sorry... I, I didn’t mean to... “Buffy says when she realizes how mad her sister is”.

>What did you read?

>They didn’t read anything Dawnie... “Tara says”.

>OK... Now get out...

>BUT... I was just here to wake you up Dawnie!... “Buffy says trying to make up for trying to read Dawn’s diary”.

>Well... If you can’t notice, let me tell you dear sister that I am pretty much awake... now Get Out!!.. “Dawn points with her index finger out the door”.


The three of them walk away...


*Door Slam*



>Damn it... how the hell did I fall asleep on top of you???... “Dawn says looking at her diary”.... Guess we’ll have to hide you or wait... you will go with me everywhere I go... that is better huh?... cos you know? Buffy wouldn’t be exactly happy if she reads what I’ve written on you... I’m sure she didn’t cos otherwise she wouldn’t had just let me throw her out... instead she would have thrown ME out the window... 

>Ew... my eyes are like soooo small... looks like I’ve cried for way more than I can recall... “She says as she analyzes her image at the mirror”... I need to take a hot bath... my neck and my back hurt real bad... now I know why it is not healthy to sleep on chairs... 

Dawn takes out some towels from her drawers and heads to the bathroom, closes the door after her, hangs the towels, opens the shower... waits for the water to be hot... but then she thinks <Uhm!... I am a sweat like a horny pig If I take a hot bath... it is summer for crying out loud.. I’d go with this one... WAIT!!... too cold... uhm.. OK!!... this is it... not too cold, not too hot....>.

She gets undressed, and enters the shower and soaps herself as she thinks... <I feel funny... I feel this little thing on my stomach.. guess this is what anguish feels like... I feel like I have this real BIG thing to solve... and I do... I thought I was gonna wake up around 10 or something... but it is 11... everybody is sooo lazy in summer... so since there is no noise.. I can sleep peacefully... I thought I was gonna have some more time to give this Faith thing more thought... but now I finish showering, get dressed, take a fast breakfast... and to work... 12:30 to 6:30... Geez... I feel so weird....>

She finally closes the tub, wraps herself in a towel and goes to her room... where she gets dressed without really taking care of what she is wearing because her mind was caught up in some other stuff... after a while, Dawn get’s downstairs where Buffy offers her breakfast... and she was so concentrated on what she was gonna do that she even forgot about Buffy and the diary thing and accepted the slayer’s offer... 



...32 Minutes Later...

>Thanks Buff...

>Welcome Dawnie...

>Gotta go...

>take care... and don’t come back late...

>I dunno,... me and the girls may be going to the mall just to hang out there... “Dawn says absently”.

>oh ok!... but take care

>Yeah... Bye!

_______________________________________________________________________________________________ 

...A couple of hours later at Dawn’s work...


>What time is it Britts?

>6:26

>Still?

>What do you mean still??

>I asked you like ages ago what time it was... and you said 6:26.. are you sure your watch is not broken or something??

>What is it Dawn.... what has you worried... If you are feeling sick, you are excused... you can go, I can mark your card... who is gonna notice if you leave four minutes before?

>I... I am sorry... did you say something???.. “Dawn who had not been paying attention at all, just heard a sound and said”.

>Duh!... I have been talking like a stupid to a wall... Dawns... why are you moving your foot like that... are you nervous.. you've been like that all day

>No.. yeah.. I... I don't know... I need to pee....

>Alright...

>No wait... I don't feel like peeing... what time is it?

>6:27

>CRAP!... 


2 Minutes Later....


>What time is it???

>Damn it Dawn... 6:29... three, two, one... there you go... 6:30.. you can leave

>Thanks... Uhm... bye...

>Bye... you want me to check out for you

>Yeah yeah yeah!



*Door Slam*




>Damn it Faith... where are you???


Dawn kept on looking everywhere without noticing the dark slayer in sight... but when she finally did, she remembered of everything Buffy had told her about her the day before and thought <Man... I can’t handle this... I’m sorry Faith... > She even pictured her mom fighting for her life and Faith with a knife and with a crazy look trying to kill her... <I can’t... I think this is a huge mistake... even if I regret it later... I’m turning around now... besides... I guess... it was not such a good choice to be a dyke...> she says to herself as she turns around and starts walking home....


As Faith gets closer, she’s able to see that Dawn had turn around and was leaving... she thought that perhaps Dawn thought that she was never gonna show up and that is why she left... so she starts running after her so she reaches the younger brunette.


>D!... “Faith says from about 6 feets behind Dawn, but she doesn’t turn”.

>____

>Dawn.. “Now she tries next to her”.

>I can’t Faith, I’m sorry... “Dawn says looking at the floor”.

>huh?... whu-what... I don’t understand...

>I just can’t be with you.. I just can’t talk to you... I shouldn’t even like you...

>Why???... Are you scared?

>yeah... NO... I mean.. I am... but it is not that...

>Then?

>Look... I just can’t... “Dawn says while a tear slids down her cheek”.

>Hey... are you crying???... NO!... you don’t do that... please... let me understand this.. I don’t get a single thing you are saying and... I just can’t let you go this way... at least tell me what is it... let’s go sit somewhere

>Don’t feel like going to the park right now...

>Let’s go to that coffee shop...

>I don’t feel like coffee...

>Please Dawn...

<I can’t say No to her damn it... why is it so hard, I can’t even look at her because I know I am gonna melt>... >ok..



*Door Opens*


As they sit, some waiter approaches the table and tells them both... >Here is the list... I’ll come by whenever you are ready..

>We already are.. “Faith interrupts as she sees that Dawn was really uncomfortable because her eyes were red and she probably did not want to be seen that way”. I’ll have a strawberry sundae... and.. 

>I’ll have just a coke.... “Dawn said playing with a paper napkin that was on the table”.


>Alright!... “The waiter says”... I’ll be back with your order soon...


Knowing that they were soon gonna be interrupted by the waiter with the order, they just remained silence waiting for it.


...3 Minutes Later


>Here miss...

>Thanks.. “Dawn says smiling sadly”.

>And here is your strawberry sundae...

>Ok!


The waiter leaves


>You like them huh?

>What sunshine... the ice cream?... yeah I do... 

>Don’t call me that please

>why?

>Cause I like it....

>Ok!... don’t take me as a stupid, but honestly... every time I understand less of this situation... 

>me too..

>why were you running away from me that way???

>because it is not right for me to like you...

>why??? Because we’re both girls??? You know.. you shouldn’t really...

>It is not that! “Dawn interrupted”... I wish it were just that you know???... that is so easy to get over... I am afraid yeah.. I have never been with another girl... but honestly Faith, being or not being a lesbian is the last of my concerns right now...

>Then what is it tell me...

<Ok... there is no easy way to say this.. so I’ll just say it as it comes>.... >that you are not a regular person Faith...

>HUH?!?.. “Faith said as she choked”... because I’m a slayer?.. Hey!... look... you shouldn’t be afraid of that sort of thing... I mean... I...I.. I didn’t know...

>I ain’t afraid of Slayers... “Dawn interrupted”.

>then???

>I ain’t afraid Faith.... I’m just telling you that... this is not possible.. this You and Me thing is not possible Faith...

>But why??... I can pretty much tell you want it too...

>And I do... but this is my family we’re talking about... 

>I don’t even know your family Dawn... what are you talking about?...

>you DO know my family??

>Nah Uh!... “Faith says trying to calm nervous Dawn”.

>Does the name Buffy Summers ring any bell in your head???

>WHAT?!?!?!?! “She says as she definitely chokes this time”.

>Looks like it!

>Are.. you relatives with Buffy... she never mentioned having such a cute... “and she left the phrase like that so Dawn would complete it”.

>SISTER!

>Are you B’s sister??... But she never mentioned a sister

>yep!... I’m Dawn Summers, Buffy’s younger sister... it is complicated though...

>Aw Man!.. I am totally speechless...

>I can notice...

>I...I.... so you know who I am right???... that cruel girl that tried to kill everybody..

>And I’ve heard some more.. but I am just not gonna start telling you all that...

>I... I... I’m sorry... Look... if it is worth something.. I’ve changed.. I am not the person I used to be anymore... I know it is kinda shitty what I did.. but I won’t do it again...

>Course you won’t join the mayor again Faith... He’s dead now...

>I didn’t mean that.... I meant... that... I won’t do what I did again. As in betraying probably the only people who ever trusted me... but people can be pretty stupid at times... and I was really stupid... really stupid... I wish there were something I could say in order to make this easier...

>I wish there were something too...

>But you said you like me...

>I never said I lied to you when I said that... I mean it.. I DO like you

>See?... we can work things out then

>why haven’t you told Buffy you came back yet then... if you say you’ve changed...

>I did... I mean... that Tracy girl was supposed to do it... she said she called...

>Aw the message...

>yeah... the message... and since Buffy never really called back I assumed that she was ok with my being here...

>She never got it you know?

>How come...

>I deleted it accidentally... 

>Aw... so, guess miss Summers has no idea that I am here in Sunnydale huh?

>Nope...

>Guess I’ll have to call dead boy so he gives me a hand telling Buffy I’m not the same person now... because it looks like they don’t really have me as their idle

>Dead Boy??... who, Spike?

>no, that is bleach boy... dead boy is Angel...

>Aw... “Dawn says letting go a sad smile”

>Was that a smile... 

>probably...

>so can you give me a chance D?

>Look Faith... don’t take me wrong... I DO like you.. but I really gotta think this over...

>But uh...

>No... please... I gotta give this a lot of thought... I can’t really decide now...

>But I didn’t even finish my ice-cream... 

>Guess you don’t really need me for that...

>Well...

>I wish things were different Faith... “She says as she gets up and walks away, but about three steps, she turns around, gets closer to the older brunette face and gives her a small kiss on the lips”.

>Bye...

>____



*Door Slam*


>Man D!!... Guess I’ll have to finish my ice cream on my own... there is not too much left though... 

Faith finishes her ice cream absently and then asks the waiter for the check... after the waiter giver her the change... she stands up so she can leave the restaurant...

>Auch!.. what the...? “She says because she trips over something and almost falls down”... What’s this??.. crap!... this is Dawns bag... she must have forgotten it... But.. I just can’t take it to her house... not quite just yet cause B would throw me out... tomorrow I’ll take her to her work... She has a nice backpack... Faith likes... “She says”.

___________________________________________________________________________________

16 Minutes later, Dawn returns home...


*Door Opens*


>Hey Dawnie

>Hey!

>Dinner is ready...

>Not hungry... 

>But you gotta eat something...

>I ate at the restaurant...

>weren’t you going out with your friends???

>Changed plans...

>How was your day...

>Look Buffy... I don’t really feel like talking... my head is killing me and I just wanna go to sleep...

>why are your eyes like that?... have you been crying...

>No... I think that I... I’m gonna get a cold...

>aw ok...

>I’ll go to sleep alright?

>Ok...



*Dawn’s door Slam*


>Hey!.... but how come you are getting a cold if it is summer?? “Buffy asks surprised”.

>______

___________________________________________________________________________________

Dawn sits on her bed for a while... then, lies on it with her head falling down the edge of the bed.... looks at the ceiling.. and thinks <I kissed her... guess you’d like to know that huh Diary??> while she tries to look for her diary... but there is no diary around her room... In fact... she can’t see her backpack nowhere around... <Guess I left it downstairs... I’ll go pick it up later... NO WAIT!!.. Buffy’s gonna read my diary...> and she says as she runs downstairs so rescue her diary...


*Door Opens*


>Dawnie, what are you looking for?... “Buffy says as she sees her sister all desperade trying to find something”.

>Uhm... my backpack, I left it here when I arrived...

>No you didn’t...

>Yeah... I... Oh!.... “Then she remembered she didn’t get out of the restaurant with her backpack”... OH GOD... The diary... <No one’s gonna want to read it though... what is interesting about the life of a 16 year old girl... > “She thought”.

>You remembered where it is?

>Yeah... I left it at Brittany’s...

>Did you have anything important there??

>No... just stuff...

>Aw...

>Go back to my room then... Night...

>Night...



*Door Slam*

___________________________________________________________________________________

Meanwhile Faith went to her place as well, and turned on the TV, she was watching some comercial where there was a girl with a backpack just like the one Dawn had... so she turned around to face the backpack she had next to her and started playing with it...

>Aw Sunshine... why do you have to make this so complicated... “she said as she opened Dawn’s bag and looked around”. They say... Look in a woman’s purse and then you’ll know what kind of woman she is... No purse now. But the backpack is just fine... Don’t think she’ll get mad at me if I do this right?... Nah!.. “So she emptied the bag on her bed”.

>Lipstick... uhm!... strawberry, me like... sunglasses... guess you must look hot on these... a pen... Jelly pen... a bar of kit kat... and a book... me open... “And she opens one page at random and reads”.... 


Dear Diary,

I felt like a dork on class today... Mr. Monter was giving a lesson (and you know I told you I needed a good grade on that course).. so I was thinking of an example... then... I hear the teacher asks for an example... I raised my hand... answer the question... and guess what?!?!?.. NOW THEY WERE TALKING OF SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT... I got red as a...



>OK!... I shouldn’t read her diary... but yeah.. I feel you.. those situations happen to me too... but you just gave me an idea... “and Faith looked for the last page Dawn had written”.... Blank Page!!!.. “She took Dawn’s jelly pen, took the cap off, sat on her bed, put the diary on her lap and wrote”.


Dear Dawnie,


You left your backpack at the coffee shop, guess you have realized that by now... I didn’t read your diary.. I just opened one page at random and read a little bit.. it said something about you feeling a dork in some class... then I realized I shouldn’t be doing that... because it is your privacy... I have some sort of diary too... I just write things that happen to me and stuff I think... It is no fancy diary like yours.. in fact.. it is not even a diary... it is any loose paper sheet that I find... Imagine I’ve even written on toilet paper... but that “Dear Diary”.. doesn’t go with me... guess it would be some sort of “Dear piece of toilet paper”... and that doesn’t sound quite fine huh?... Nope...

I’ve been thinking of you all day Dawn... I guess I really like you... I don’t usually like girls... guess you don’t do either.. but you are special sunshine.. there is something about you that just called my attention since the very first time.. I was gonna leave it just like that... but you spilled the order on me... and I was senteced to talk to you ...JK!... I loved talking to you... I loved the way you looked at me when I took my shirt off, and then turned around violently... I loved the way you choked when you didn’t know how to smoke.. and I loved the way you jumped when you finally got it... 

This is crazy D!... Life is crazy... I think this is the better punishment I could have gotten... having a crush on the sister of the person I hurt the most... you know what???... I’ve never loved anybody.. I guess I never found the right person I could fall in love with... there was always something about these people that would stop me from giving myself... but with you.. I am not afraid of getting into something deep.. in fact... despite that what first caught my eye about you was the way you look, then.. In the short time I’ve known you.. I’ve realized the kind of person you are... and I honestly must say that I fall for you even more with every single second that goes by.

Though I guess this is some kind of lost battle... you are right... how the fuck are you supposed to trust me if I tried to kill your family and your friends... and you would have been left out with no one... just because of me.. and that is so not fair, is it???... I mean.. is it really your fault that I messed up... now it is everything clear to me... I fucked up... and that is why I did the things I did... you know why I ever joined Mayor Jenkins??... well... I don’t really have family.. or well.. the family I have... doesn’t really feel like family... family is supposed to be the people you run to whenever you feel the world is falling down on your shoulders... they are the ones that must help you... but that never happened with me... I was alone all the time... and in a twisted way, the mayor offered me that.. a father, a family... everything I didn’t have.. I had B, and the scoobs.. but Man!... I never could fit in that closed group... I’m guessing you can’t either... don’t think it is like they don’t wanna be with you or anything.. it is just that they’ve known each other for so long.. that it is like they all speak the same language... one language.. nobody else is gonna be that good at...

So this is the real me... against the other me... the one everybody talks about... the fucked up, crazy, cruel gurl.. the real me.. is still crazy.. (Guess we all are)... still fucked up.. because my past is never gonna stop chasing me no matter how much time I spend in jail... and this situation is clear example of it... but I am not cruel anymore... I’ve come to understand... that not because I am unhappy everybody deserves missery too... I’ve changed Dawn... I’m not even unhappy anymore... so just.. think this over again... and give me a chance...


Faith!




After writing this, Faith saw some TV, and decided that this night she wasn’t gonna patrol... just sleep... and so she did... 

___________________________________________________________________________________ 

9:31 p.m. Next Day...


<ok... it is about ten minutes away from Dawn’s time to go... I’ll go give her the bag... why am I even feeling like this??>... “Faith thought because she felt a little nervous”.



Later at Dawn’s work...


>Hey!

>yeah?

>Can you please tell me where I can find Dawn Summers?

>Uhm... she left early, a couple of hours ago... “Brittany lied”.

>Aw.. okay “and she stopped talking when she heard Dawn saying goodbye to someone on the back and a door opening”.... Thanks... “she said leaving fast to the back door”.

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>Dawn!

>____

>Dawn!... “she tried a little louder”.

>Faith?

>Hey!...

>hey... “Dawn said looking at the floor and putting some of her hair behind her right ear”

>why did you tell that girl inside to lie to me... 

>Aw.. it wasn’t for you... I told her that if anyone came looking for me.. she should tell them that I left early...

>why?

>Remember the guy that talked to me the other day we were walking..

>your boyfriend?

>I have no boyfriend...

>then?

>He is my ex... but the thing is that he asked me out... and I said yeah... but now... I don’t really feel like it...

>Aw... I should go then ... “Faith said dissapointed”.

>No, please... stay.

>you forgot your bag yesterday... “and she hands the backpack to its owner”.

>aw thanks... uhm... I.. I just wanna leave something clear... “she says as they both sit on a park bench”.

>about?

>you and me...

>Uhm... before you say anything.. please read your diary

>YOU READ MY DIARY?!?! “Dawn asks half furious, half surprised”.

>Please read it...

>uhm.. ok .. “Dawn says with a weird look on her eyes”.... where?... “she says as she opens it”.

>The first blank page...

>ok.. “and she reads”.



Dear Dawnie,


You left your backpack at the coffee shop, guess you have realized that by now... I didn’t read your diary.. I just opened one page at random and read a little bit.. it said something about you feeling a dork in some class... then I realized I shouldn’t be doing that... because it is your privacy... I have some sort of diary too... I just write things that happen to me and stuff I think... It is no fancy diary like yours.. in fact.. it is not even a diary... it is any loose paper sheet that I find... Imagine I’ve even written on toilet paper... but that “Dear Diary”.. doesn’t go with me... guess it would be some sort of “Dear piece of toilet paper”... and that doesn’t sound quite fine huh?... Nope...

I’ve been thinking of you all day Dawn... I guess I really like you... I don’t usually like girls... guess you don’t do either.. but you are special sunshine.. there is something about you that just called my attention since the very first time.. I was gonna leave it just like that... but you spilled the order on me... and I was senteced to talk to you ...JK!... I loved talking to you... I loved the way you looked at me when I took my shirt off, and then turned around violently... I loved the way you choked when you didn’t know how to smoke.. and I loved the way you jumped when you finally got it... 

This is crazy D!... Life is crazy... I think this is the better punishment I could have gotten... having a crush on the sister of the person I hurt the most... you know what???... I’ve never loved anybody.. I guess I never found the right person I could fall in love with... there was always something about these people that would stop me from giving myself... but with you.. I am not afraid of getting into something deep.. in fact... despite that what first caught my eye about you was the way you look, then.. In the short time I’ve known you.. I’ve realized the kind of person you are... and I honestly must say that I fall for you even more with every single second that goes by.

Though I guess this is some kind of lost battle... you are right... how the fuck are you supposed to trust me if I tried to kill your family and your friends... and you would have been left out with no one... just because of me.. and that is so not fair, is it???... I mean.. is it really your fault that I messed up... now it is everything clear to me... I fucked up... and that is why I did the things I did... you know why I ever joined Mayor Jenkins??... well... I don’t really have family.. or well.. the family I have... doesn’t really feel like family... family is supposed to be the people you run to whenever you feel the world is falling down on your shoulders... they are the ones that must help you... but that never happened with me... I was alone all the time... and in a twisted way, the mayor offered me that.. a father, a family... everything I didn’t have.. I had B, and the scoobs.. but Man!... I never could fit in that closed group... I’m guessing you can’t either... don’t think it is like they don’t wanna be with you or anything.. it is just that they’ve known each other for so long.. that it is like they all speak the same language... one language.. nobody else is gonna be that good at...

So this is the real me... against the other me... the one everybody talks about... the fucked up, crazy, cruel gurl.. the real me.. is still crazy.. (Guess we all are)... still fucked up.. because my past is never gonna stop chasing me no matter how much time I spend in jail... and this situation is clear example of it... but I am not cruel anymore... I’ve come to understand... that not because I am unhappy everybody deserves missery too... I’ve changed Dawn... I’m not even unhappy anymore... so just.. think this over again... and give me a chance...


Faith!




>Now you can say whatever you want to me...

>one.. I’d certainly would love to read those pieces of toilet paper... and two... uhm...

>uhm.... “she says... expecting what the younger brunette has to say...”

>but shhh!... come closer... someone might hear...

>Ok... “and she leans in”.


Dawn first leaned in and looked at Faith’s eyes for a moment, then smiled and grabbed Faith's hands and put them behing her back... then Faith tucks Dawn's hair behind her ears and finally kissed her... it was such a different kiss... it was gentle, yet passionate enough... It was without any chance of doubt, the best kiss Dawn had gotten in her entire life... They were still in the middle of their long kiss when a little noise made them push each other away...

>Uhm!!!... it is certainly interesting what you can find on the streets at night nowadays... “Said a male voice behind them in a very sarcastic tone... when he realizes who are the ones that were kissing each other”.

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