tragic events...
Mood:  blue
Topic: WhaT's more unFortunate?
we had the worst night ever of my life. that day, i wore a dress. i put make up and the fag even shaved my eyebrows. i was regretting afterwards, knowing that it won't be the same again. i've always loved it. i guess you know already what i meant on that. yes.. the tragic prom night. it was hell. very hell.... i knew shyness wasn't the matter. but i just hate every single moment i'm on that place. good thing gon was there and we head bangged all night (literally)... i wished i just forget it but then it was a nightmare. it keeps on recalling on my head...

anyway, the eyebrow things was certainly an issue. even gon felt that it was detestable especially when we realized that it was such a mess. i did...
then i joined a school organization w/c meant for being a servant-leader. now i know that i must spend my time having boring meeting together with my younger school mates. in short, i won...

and then, i was reading the Da Vinci Code. You know the very controversial book in the world. i found it creepy though yet liked it being so logical. anyway, aunt mito told me about all christian things like what are evil stuffs and satanic church and it was really hard to forget the things you first cherished. you know what i mean. murderdolls. it was everything to me and in fact, it gave me the strength to fight back.. hehe...

sometimes, what you think of something to happen will really happen. like now. those tragic events made everything very unfortunate and how i wished i could change it back. only God knows...

p.s. saw II ost- mudvayne

the Terror of Pre-Final
Mood:  irritated
Topic: WhaT's more unFortunate?
i hate it! i know i failed most of my subjects.. my mom will kill me...
i'm afraid i had to do this here in global.. we had our exam and it almost cracked my head. and i want to destroy this computer! my disket stocked in the a: who cares anyway?

Human Tragedy
Mood:  crushed out
i really don't know what's happening in the world. yesterday, more 70 people died. most of them were old men and women.
i am happy to know that my best friend replied...

Suspension... Grrr......
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: How unfortunate no.2
well, i went home early today. the suspension was a mess. why do we have to carry rocks and watch the boys just stand there, relaxing?! it's inhumane...
we pulled out the grasses. then another sermon... then another problem... i don't know when will this end but i'm glad to be back home...

now i realized that gays are totally idiots.. and if i saw one, i'd kill it (no gays allowed).. i'm not really a cruel person but a gay to pick on me, i swear i could make a mortal sin. and it was so lucky and never fought back. i just look at it..

there are also people who are kind. i dropped a coin and a guy picked it up for me...

well, i don't know what to say...

UnforTunate Day no.3
Mood:  blue
Topic: WhaT's more unFortunate?
i'm sick of having bad days. and i know for a fact that today will be worst. my classmate just annoyed my teacher causing the trouble to be alot more. i looked around and saw my girl classmates crying but i didn't care at all. i just mind my own business and get myself into trouble with them. i just don't know why all this stuffs are happening. who cares?

me and gon-chan pick up rocks and placedon the holes in the field. we called it child labor and child abuse. it was physical torment. but what happened to our teacher was too much. and though i'm not one of them who killed her using actions plus word, i'm still there working without complaining. i just hope she'll recognize us..

i even wrote her a song:

tagalog...

kailan pakaya malilimutan
ang bawat sakit na naranasan?
di lang naman ikaw and nasaktan
di lang naman ikaw ang nahihirapan...
nandito pa rin naman kami laging nasa iyong tabi...

sa bawat oras na ika'y umiiyak
sa bawat oras kami'y may pighati
lam naman namin hindi madali
sa'yo ang magpatawad...

maraming salamat sa iyo, aming mahal na guro...
ang aming natutunan, kung paano mahalin
ang isang katulad mo...

composed by: killua
dedicated to: our beloved adviser
date: feb. 2, 2006

The worSt thinG ever....
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: HarmoniA
Topic: How unfortunate no.2
WindWind i never thought this day will be terrible. me and gon cried. it was some kinda embarassing though. sometimes, we hurt people.. sometimes we are a victim of those people being hurt. i'm innocent. and i don't want to happen that thing again. i know every body was sad. and i konw we can't change it at all. the past is past and though how much regret we feel, we can't do anything at all. i just hope that after this painful day, somehow we could forget. and i know it's hard to forgive but time will heal... right?

blAck-lisT hunTer
Mood:  loud
Topic: how unfoRtunate thiS day
today is not so good day. i lost my money. i felt so tired. we played a sleeping beauty during english class and was so- stupid...
ang malas talaga. sometimes i wanted to commit mortal sin. like wat?! like killing? anyway, that's what i'm born for... how i wished i can go somewhere there is no one in the world. only me.