Today
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: None
Topic: Life
Today was one of those days were I didn't know who I was. Were I didn't know what I wanted, what I needed. Know what was right or wrong. Were i didn't know who I loved, what I loved. Know what i felt, what i saw, what i heard. I didn't know what I said, or what was ok to say. What to do, or what was ok to do. 'Cause I didn't know anything. Because to know it, I would have to feel it, and some days its impossible to feel anything.

Her
Mood:  sharp
Now Playing: None
Topic: Life
There she is. She walks so slow. Smiles so sweet. She laughs so loud. She knows everything. She has everything. She has the perfect life, the perfect pool of friends, or is it. Why dose everything revolve around her. Why is she so perfect. Why is everything she dose so right. Why is there no fault in her at all. Why is she so pretty, so funny. Why is she so nice, so sweet,and such the perfect friend. Why is she the center of attention. Why is she the definition of whats right or wrong. Why is she the trend setter. But most of all why is she so popular. Is it 'cause shes truly nice, truly a great friend, truly pretty. Is she truly the trend setter, truly perfect. Or is it 'cause she scares the living daylights out of everyone. We all know this girl. She may not be the same for all of us, but we all know someone we wonder these questions about.

Peom by Serene
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Holiday by Madona
Topic: Peom
Kissed Children,
The Voodoo Truth
Laughter Forever,
But When Death Comes
A Knocking
You Have No Say In Whether
You Stay Or Go

Him
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Gonna Be.........*tear*
Topic: Life
For any of those who know me, you can probably guess who this is about. It happen recently, and it broke my heart.

She sits, crying. Shes in pain because of him. She doesn't want to be. But she is. She wishes she could lay down and die. Because she doesn't want to be alive, 'cause being alive means to feel, and to feel you have to feel pain. And that seems to be all she feels lately. She wishes she change him. To make him not hurt her so. But she knows that's impossible. She wishes she could hurt him. To get him back for all the pain he's given her. She wishes he would have told her. If he had, she would have understood. But he didn't. He'd rather break her heart then tell her the truth. For what reason....she doesn't know. But she wonders.

Peom By Serene
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: Thank You For Leting Me Be Myself
Topic: Peom
Some Wish On
Their Passion Like Water
Her Romance By Twilight
His Dream A Whisper
As Afternoon Love Dominates

Head On
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: Blinded By The Night
Topic: Life
Legs burning, eyes tearing, scared to death. 'Cause she didn't know, know what was to come, what was to happen. But she knew it was something. Heart pounding, mind racing, she faced it head on. Not knowing weather her head would break or merely hurt for a while.

Looking up at the moon, stars shining against a pitch black sky. Mind racing, eyes glowing, heart pounding, she thinks. She thinks about life, about death, about everything. Then a single, perfect tear, falls down her face. It wasn't 'cause she was scared or even 'cause she was happy, it was because of the simple fact that she felt so blessed. 'Cause no matter how much life hurts, it feels so good at the same time that you can't help but love it. It's like a crazy roller coaster, with all its ups and downs, but the best part about it is you never know whats going to happen next. And she felt so blessed to be on this amazing ride, that she forgot everything. All her pain and sorrow, and she just thought. Thought about life and how great it was. And she thought about this for hours, until finally her eyes, slowly, shut, and she fell asleep.

Quiz
Mood:  silly
Now Playing: none
Topic: Quiz
HOW IS YOUR LOVE


1.You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but very boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your significant other's house, short or long?

a.Short b.Long

2.On the way you see two rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend of any one color or two color combination. What number of white and/or red do you pick?

1-20 How Many Red Roses?

3.You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have the family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself?

a.The family member gets him/her b.Get him/her myself

4.You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

a.By the windowsill b.On the bed

5.Later, it's time for bed.You and your boy/girlfriend sleep in separate rooms.In the morning when it's time to wake up, you go into his/her room and check on him/her.When you arrive, do you prefer him/her to be awake or asleep?

a.Awake b.Asleep

6.Now it's time to go back home.Do you take the short, plain or more interesting road?

a.Short b.Long



THE ANSWERS
AND WHAT I GOT


1.The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.

You chose the short road. You fall in love quickly and easily.

2.The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return.

You give 60% and expect 40% in return.

3.This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems.

You like to get the person yourself. You are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.

4.The placement of the roses determines how much you like seeing your boy/girlfriend.

You place the roses on the bed. You like to see him/her a lot.

5.This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.

You prefer the person to be asleep, you love the person as the way s/he is.

6.The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.

You chose the longer road. You will tend to stay in love for a long time.

Alive
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Torn
Topic: Life






As the wind of heat hit her face and the bad smell kept coming, she closed her eyed and took a deep breath of cold fresh air and went back to the rotten food smelling air, and buckled up. As her head started powding, she wished she was at home talking to her courent love.

As they drove along she open the window and tryed to sleep...but it didn't work. Today she wishes she hadn't opened her eyes to see that sit. She wishes she had kept trying to sleep, and hadn't had to deal with the pain he felt the second she opened her eyes. For what she saw was not a person, but more like a memorey. And it was like someone put a dagger in her heart, and kept turning it, and turning it, and turning it, and all the while driving it further in.

For at the begining of all this she had wished to be talking to her curent love. But know she longed to go back in time, before this all began, before the pain had started, before they had fought, to one of those happy days.

It wasn't that she really wanted to go back after all that had happened happened. It was more that before it all began, the hints of it ending, before all the pain, it was...well...perfect...or at least good enough. She wanted to go back because even though there were parts of him that killed her, there were also parts that made her feel so alive. And ever since he hadn't been around, she felt dead. It wasn't that she needed him, it was that she needed to feel a live agian, before she did something dramatic. But in the middle of her thoughts the phone rings. She doesn't know who it is, but she stops thinging and starts to trying to feel alive.

Quizzes
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: none
Topic: Quiz
Here are some results from some quizzes I took:


Reese
You are a very fun loving person, who likes to laugh. You are fun to be with. People like to hang out with you. You are a very warm hearted person.

Snickers
Fun loving, sassy, humorous. Everyone enjoys being around you, but you are a practical joker, however, you are a friend for life.

3 Musketeers
You are adventurous, love new ideas, are a champion of underdogs and a slayer of dragons. When tempers flare up, you whip out your saber.

What Shape Do You Like?
A Squiggle is off-the-wall and creative. S/he feels best doing new and different things most of the time and gets bored with regularity. When given a task s/he will come up with bright ideas about it.

Ice Cream
You love vanilla ice cream, but you're definitely not plain! Lively and outgoing, you're always on the go or hanging out with friends.

Pizza
Deep Dish "Chicago-style" Pizza
You have a wild streak and like to live life to its fullest. You're likely to be a high school jock. You dream of being a sports star. You enjoy most movies --- comedy, drama, action-adventure.

Lip Stick
Sharp-angled Tipped Bright Red Lip Stick
Personality Profile

* Opinionated
* High-spirited
* Dislikes schedules
* Selective of friends
* Outgoing
* Likes attention
* Argumentative


BLUE

You enjoy a peaceful environment in which to relax and appreciate life.

You have a refined sense of beauty.

You are capable of persisting against all odds when determined to reach a goal.

You are intent on establishing a personal attitudinal framework within which to accomplish your goals.




Personality Quiz
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who is constantly the center of attention, but sufficiently well balanced not to let it go to your head. They see you also as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who will cheer them up and help them out.


Are You Boy-Crazy Quiz
Not Interested. Most likely, you have a wide variety of interests, which is healthy. You have plenty of time to get serious about boys. If and when guys start taking up more of your energy, make sure you continue to keep some of your attention on who you really are and what you want out of life.



Body Self-Esteem Quiz
Body Proud. You are very comfortable with your body, and your self-confidence shows. You take your imperfections in stride---you know that everyone has some. And because your body self-esteem is so high, others see you as attractive, too.