Mood:  don't ask
**sigh again** i hate my life...i really do. and i hate the world...all of it...well except for a few special people like my mom, Jess, Kevin, and some more. i dont feel like listing them all...well..."be yourself" i tried that..and it got me no where...i give up..im not going to try anymore...no more speidng hours getting ready to go out, no more spending ours to get ready to take a new pic...NO MORE!!!! if its not gonna get me anywhere then im not gonna do it...and i'll be alone forever!!!! oh well...i dont need anyone....yes i do

P.S. im gonna be at my moms this weekend... i'll prolly be on aim but dont IM me that much...i wanna save my texts...and if you want to talk you can call me if you have my cell number....and if your not special enough to have my number, too bad...

Mood:  blue
**sigh** ...does anyone know how to turn back time? i need to go back to like fraday night or something. i need everything the way it was last week...and then i cant screw saturday up...my one chance at happiness and i ruined it. now he doesnt even want to talk to me...i mean last week as soon as he got on he IMed me...or if he was on and i got on he would IM me..and now nothing. if i dont say anything then we dont talk...and even if i do say something the conversation goes no where. im so stupid to think that someone could like me...o the joys of being me..anyone want to trade places for a while?...i dont want to be me anymore

"i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter"