11-11-02
I ended up having a pretty nice birthday. It was Nov. 9th, but I had to work 11am-8:30pm, so I planned dinner with the kids the night before. We went to a nice resteraunt & enjoyed a wonderful meal. Afterwards, we went to WalMart to look at the new Christmas decorations for this year. Guess I got a wild hair, because I bought a new Christmas tree and several trimmings for it. Didn't buy the angel for the top yet, because I didn't find the perfect one. Worked all day on my birthday, but my ex called to say Happy Bday, and invited me to stop & have dinner with him after work. He surprized me with a candlelight feast of steak & shrimp, complete with birthday cake. That was very sweet. He really is a good man. Too bad things didn't work out due to a bad problem. I can't risk getting back to where I was, though. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results. I did for several years.
When I returned home late that night, there were 6 messages on my machine from WV. My Dad, my siblings, and someone else up there very special to me, had all called to wish me a Happy Birthday! The perfect end to a perfect day (with the small exception of the hours spent at work). I am learning more everyday who the people are in my life who really care about me. I went to bed with a smile, after the heartfelt tears dried.
As for work, it's all about the same. I had been considering relocating and transferring to another store, but I don't want to move again. Besides, I still have a few loyal customers here who count on me. With my recent attitude toward my job, it's a wonder I have any. I suppose I will stay where I am as long as I stay in this line of work. It's not a preferable occupation for a lady in the south, but it's what I know and have done for the last 13years. I really don't have a choice, since I like food and shelter. Starting over on the bottom in another line would not provide. So I will continue to work where I am for now, and pray that something better comes my way one day. It doesn't matter much, as long as it's only 40hrs & it pays the bills. I KNOW the scheduling will never get better as long as I stay where I am. It's just one of those things I have accepted. Besides, I like to sleep in. There is a silver lining in every cloud, although I have had to look really hard to find it lately.
Speaking of silver linings, Thanksgiving will be here soon. I talked to my ex, and plan to cook my traditional turkey dinner at his house. When I asked what he had planned, he said "I guess I'll just buy a little hen, since I'll probably be having dinner alone". I told him that was nonsense, and to go ahead and get the butterball, that I would be there to fix it, if that was okay. He loved the idea, so I already invited the kids, who liked it, also. I also invited a couple of special common friends. Everyone seemed happy with the plans. I CAN'T not cook Thanksgiving dinner for my family, although we have grown in seperate directions. I still thank God that we can all be here for another Thanksgiving dinner together. We have too much to be thankful for to disolve that tradition. Until my ex remarries, we can keep that tradition alive. He says he won't, but time and loneliness have a tendancy to change such things. I plan to never remarry, either. But I say never say never. There may really be a perfect man in this world. LOL!
Well, half of my day off is over, so I guess I'd best jump on my household chores. Gonna TRY not to put my tree up until after Thanksgiving, although I'm very excited about Christmas this year.
11-18-02 Well, I lost page 16 when my site crashed, so I will redo it tomorrow. Plenty to say, but it is VERY late tonight. Time to sleep.
