10-02-02
Today is my day off work and I have wasted most of it on the phone discussing my new internet business. I was up VERY late last night working on the page layout. It's an internet store which I hope to gain some income from, once I get it completed and into the Search Engines. I'll be adding a link to it here, too. So far, it has been only an investment.
My boyfriend moved out of town Monday. I already missed him by Monday night, although I haven't heard back from him yet. But I do keep my phone line busy when I am home. I guess if this was meant to be, miles between us won't keep us apart. If it's not meant to be, better to find out now. I am still confused on this issue. Trust does not come easy for me. When I have finally trusted in people, I have usually been wrong.
Not a lot to talk about, so I'll close for now. Take care. Chris
10-03-02Thurs. Night
I don't have much confidence in the co. I'm dealing with on my online store, so I'm not adding that link just yet. No, I'm not giving up, just considering another avenue. I'm wasting too much time, and their shipping fees are extortionary! Time. I value that. Seems I have so much more that belongs to me as a single person.
Work was okay today. Business was slow, but I was productive again finally. A guy I work with had a talk with me that he thought may make me mad. I appreciated it 100%. He was too right about me taking my workplace too serious. I WAS complaining too much, and about things out of my control. Beating a dead horse, so to speak. It's just a job. So, I took his advice and got back to being me, doing things I knew needed doing, regardless if anyone else worked, hung out, appreciated my efforts, or would even notice or not if the store caved in on top of them. I make the same ammount if I'm doing something the first time it gets done or fixing it for the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th time. It's really no big deal. Wasted payroll has no affect on someone in my position anyway. My co-worker was right. I've been letting things get to me that are no concern of mine - or anyone elses. If the place does cave in, what affect would it have on me? They'd either build it back, I'd get laid off & draw unemployment, or I'd get another job elsewhere doing what I do now.
Now, for the good stuff. This weekend is Fall Festival here. This time, I'll be working only until 6:30 Sat., so I plan to take clothes to work with me and enjoy the festivaties. The beauty of that is, I'll be on MY time this year. I can stay as long as I like, go where I like, and there will be no questions asked. I look forward to it. FUN! Of course, I'll report back here about it afterwards.
Gotta get to bed. Have to be at work at 9 in the morning. My son and his wife will be over after we all get off work. Busy day ahead. Take care.
10-06-02(Walk the Way the Wind Blows)
Well, it's Sunday night and the Fall Festival has ended for another year. I didn't follow my own plans. Actually, I couldn't follow yesterdays plans. I got off work at 5:30 instead of 6:30. But the festival ended at 6:00. Isn't that silly? That is just when the weather gets barable down here. Oh, well. I got my fill anyway. My friend & I walked it and ate there on our lunch breaks. Then, after work, I walked through some more, about an hour. There was a little live music there, but not enough to go back for today. So I just hung out here & caught up my laundry - and my sleep! I slept until 11:30 this morning, after turning in at midnight! Can't remember when I slept so long. I needed it. Hadn't slept much at all this week. It is 11:PM now, and I'm about ready to sleep again. Is bordom setting in already with my new life? Yes, it is, to an extent.
As for work, I have been more myself in the past few days than I've been in a long time. I think the term "the bitch is back" fits the occasion properly. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has used it. I decided to do the job that I have worked my way into over the last 13yrs., regardless of the new job description that my boss gave me. I read the book. I KNOW what my job is, and if he wants to change it, he must demote me first. I've gone back to doing what I am being paid to do. I have already got on a few tows, and expect to make more people angry, but that's okay. I'm there for finance, not romance. If I get fired for doing my job, it will look good on my resume. The hard part is going to be writing people up for the same things that the two mgrs. over me condone; like parking on the handicap ramp. That's an awful practice that I've brought to both of their attentions to be laughed at for mentioning. If THEY were in wheelchairs trying to get into places of business, only to find the Co. truck on the ramp, they wouldn't see the humour in it. They wouldn't shop there anymore, either. I had to make an employee move his truck off it yesterday so a lady could get in in her wheelchair. I told him the next time he parked there when I'm working, he WILL be written up for it. SOMEBODY there needs to take charge of such things. If the Mgr. doesn't approve of co. rules being enforced, although he doesn't do it, then he will have to find a way of getting rid of me. I won't quit. And I AM back to doing my job, even if it hairlips hell. I think it may. LOL.
10-08-02(Another One Bights the Dust)
The man I have been seeing FINALLY called me last night. He said he had been in bed sick for three days where there was no phone, and that was why he hadn't called.
I had gotten TOO close to him, as the thought of him really being sick in a strange town so far away from me ripped my heart out - at first. But wait a minute! He is that far away by choice. Yes, he asked me to move there with him. But the whole thing was just too one sided. Where HE wanted to live, how HE wanted to live, near HIS friends. I realized that I am not ready to sell my soul. Not only does he not know Jesus, but he even thinks he was only a mere prophet! THAT would not do with me. We were from two totally different worlds, although we were drawn to each other. Besides, if he had been in bed sick for three days, what about the other three? I am not stupid. Like I said before, anything worth having is worth waiting on. And if you wait awhile, you will know if it is worth having or not. So that relationship has ended.
I have learned you must be careful who you get involved with. You can't be too careful with your heart. So I think I will write men off all together for awhile. Seems to be the only way to have a peaceful life.
I talked to my boss today and let him know that I am back, have a job to do, and full well intend to do it. I also told him that before he came there, I was capable of deligating assignments & correcting insubordinance and WILL be doing my job in the future. He said all he meant was if there was a problem, bring it to him and he would handle it. I've tried that & seen others try it. I told him no, if I have problems with employees, I will handle them with write ups or whatever needs to be done. And that if he doesn't WANT me to do my job, demote me. He said he would back me up in whatever I do, and smiled and said welcome back. He doesn't realize WHAT he welcomed back, because, although it will clean up his store (that has already started) and improve his figures, he is not going to like it. I'm not prejudice when it comes to handing out truths, and HIS inituative is lacking. But first I will TRY to be a posative influence. LOL.
Til next time.
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