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CHAPTER 7 |
NEVER AGAIN
chapter 7:
[Moments later...
As their lips part, Todd remains pressed against Tea's body, his arms encircling her. Their eyes are closed as their faces nuzzle. They each feel more mentally, physically and sexually excited than either has since the last time they were intimately together. They've only shared one kiss but it's enough for their bodies to desperately signal that more intimate contact is needed...immediately.
Todd brings his lips into contact with Tea's lips again, but doesn't get the response he expected, or hoped for.]
Tea: No, Todd, we have to stop.
Todd: This was your idea. You offered to comfort me with your intimacy because I was bummed, remember?
[Tea forcefully pulls away from his embrace.]
Tea: This was all a lie, wasn't it? Just more Todd Manning twisted sexual game playing. If you really wanted to play with someone, you didn't need to come here and bother me, you could have just paid someone to satisfy your needs back in Llanview.
Todd: What's your fee?
Tea: Don't you dare!
Todd: I thought you were trying to say you won't let me fuck you again without compensation for your pain and suffering.
Tea: Sex with you isn't painful, but everything else is. I won't do this. I won't fall for your lies and half-truths this time. I won't lose myself in you. I won't give up my whole life only to have to rebuild, yet again, when you tire of me and replace me with a newer model...or should I say older?
Todd: Your claws are showing.
Tea: I don't care. I gave up everything for you and you gave up nothing for me, along with giving nothing to me.
Todd: I gave you everything and I gave up everything for you.
Tea: Name one thing that you ever gave up for me.
Todd: I gave up my kid. Remember, when we were married and you didn't want Starr around all the time? I gave her up for you.
Tea: Are you even capable of remembering events as they truly happened?
Todd: I remember giving up my kid for you.
Tea: I never asked you to offer your ex-wife shared custody of your daughter.
Todd: You made it clear that you wouldn't stick around if I didn't.
Tea: I did no such thing. I made it clear that, after the trial reconciliation you insisted on, I would be divorcing you so I could be with Andrew.
Todd: Keep that loser out of this.
Tea: It was your idea to change the custody arrangement, not mine.
Todd: I only did it because I was trying to do whatever the hell you wanted me to do so you wouldn't split on me. Do you think it was easy for me to choose you over my own kid like that?
Tea: You were sharing custody with her mother, you weren't abandoning her, at least not at that point.
Todd: That's a low blow. You know why I couldn't stick around that fucking town anymore. It was all your fault.
Tea: You consider every bad, or difficult, thing that has happened to you since the day we met as being my fault. I wouldn't be surprised if you even blame me for things that happened before we met, since you're so desperate to lay the blame for your miserable life on me.
Todd: Only because it's all your fault.
Tea: What is my fault exactly? What have I ever done to you that was worse than what you've done to me, or to all the other people who have tried to love you?
Todd: You conned me into thinking you were different. You had me believing you were the one person who wouldn't split on me.
Tea: You never believed that. You never even wanted that. You actively pushed me away every day.
Todd: Not every day.
Tea: Maybe not every second of every day but, yes, every day. You could never allow us to have any moments of genuine happiness without instantly shooting yourself in the foot to ensure that your preferred misery would return.
Todd: Misery makes sense. All that other junk doesn't.
Tea: It does to me. I enjoy being happy. I enjoy waking up every day feeling good about myself, about my life, and the people I choose to share my life with. I enjoy my work. I enjoy going home every night after work because I know someone special is waiting for me. I enjoy not having demeaning insults directed at me on a regular basis. I enjoy communicating with my lover...in every way.
Todd: There's no way that you and Skippy communicate like you and I do.
Tea: That's true. I don't have to guess with him. He actually speaks to me...in complete sentences. He doesn't grunt at me and expect me to know the translation of all his innermost thoughts.
Todd: I never wanted you to know my innermost thoughts. You were the one who wanted that. I was trying to keep you from figuring out how disgusting it really is inside me.
Tea: You don't have to worry anymore. I'm no longer interested in the inner workings of Todd Manning. Now, I think it's time for you to return to Llanview and go back to forgetting I exist.
Todd: How do I do that when you won't get the fuck out of my head? Tell me, Tea, how do I stop thinking about you all the time? How do I make it so, when this bitch of a life throws my fucking past in my face all the time, I don't think about you and need to talk to you, or just to have you look at me in that way that lets me know that I'm not invisible.
[The conference room becomes silent as Todd realizes that he just revealed far more to Tea than he had wanted to. To his surprise, the sympathy he sees in her eyes makes him want to reveal even more, although, he's certain it would be a disaster if he did.]
Todd: Forget I said that. I didn't mean any of it.
Tea: I'm not the person you should talk to about your feelings anymore.
Todd: I don't have anyone else.
Tea: You have Blair.
Todd: She divorced me. She's back with Sam again.
Tea: Poor Sam.
Todd: He deserves some payback.
Tea: For what?
Todd: He turned on me.
Tea: By dating your ex-wife?
Todd: This has nothing to do with Blair.
Tea: What is this about? What's the real reason you're here?
Todd: As soon as he showed up again...Mitch Lawrence...
Tea: Mitch Lawrence?!
Todd: No way! Tell me you don't know him. Tell me that scum never laid a finger on you. Tea? Tell me he never hurt you like that.
to be continued...
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