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| LAST CHANCE BY TIMA |
CHAPTERS 91 - 100 |
PREVIOUSLY...
Todd: Are you going to be able to shut up long enough for me to talk this time?
Tea: When have I ever stopped you from talking? I have always been the one trying to get you to open up and discuss your feelings. You're the one who never wanted to talk. You're the one who would...
[Todd stops Tea from continuing to talk by kissing her again.]
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chapter 91:
[Tea and Todd continue to kiss for several minutes, each caught up in the intense feelings they have for the other person.
As they kiss, Tea leans heavily toward Todd until she's pushing him down to the floor, her own body following him down until she's lying on top of him.]
Todd: Tea...
Tea: It's okay. It doesn't have to mean anything. (as she begins unbuttoning his shirt) Just one more final time.
[Tea kisses the top of Todd's bare chest. Todd enjoys the sensation for a moment before placing his arms around Tea and rolling them both over so that he's on top of Tea's body.]
Todd: Tea, we need to talk.
Tea: Since when do you want words?
Todd: Since I need to say some things to you.
[Tea pulls down on the back of Todd's head, wanting to kiss not talk. She already is convinced that Todd doesn't feel for her the way that she feels for him, she doesn't want to hear his words confirming it. She'd rather have sex with him. She wants more but she'll take sex. At least when they're having sex she can convince herself for a few minutes that she can feel love coming from Todd, not just lust. She knows that her heart would break all over again when the sex ended and the reality of Todd not loving her returns but she wants those few minutes of feeling loved by him again, even if it isn't real but something that's only in her own mind.]
Tea: I think we'll enjoy ourselves more without words.
[Tea brings Todd's face down until his mouth is on hers. They both get caught up in kissing each other. Todd knows that he needs to tell Tea how he feels about her but he allows himself to escape into kissing her instead. It's easier. Words are hard...kissing is easy.
They both continue to kiss, each taking from the other more than that person knows. They both have a desperate need for physical contact with each other, a need to feel wanted and desired along with a need to know that they can make the other person feel good.
Only when Tea's hands begin to pull at his clothes until her hands find his bare skin does Todd allow himself to pull back from the pleasure Tea's body gives him.]
Todd (raising his upper body): Tea...
Tea: No talking.
[Tea immediately undoes another button on Todd's shirt. Todd's hand covers hers but she continues on to the next button.]
Todd: Tea...
Tea (looking at his eyes): Just let it happen. Just one more time. (tears coming to her eyes) I'll leave. You'll never have to see me again. Just one more time.
[Todd allows Tea to continue until she's unfastened each button. Her hand reaches into his shirt and caresses his chest. Todd covers her hand with his own and presses it firmly against his chest, stopping her from moving her hand.]
Todd: We need to talk.
Tea: Don't say it. I already know. You don't have to say it.
Todd: I don't?
Tea: No. I know what this is. I know what this will be about. You don't have to worry about me reading more into it this time.
Todd: Tea...
Tea: Todd, please, just wait. Let's have one more time and then you can tell me whatever you want to and I'll leave your life forever. I promise.
chapter 92:
[Todd knows that he needs to make it clear to Tea that he does love her but it's difficult for him to get the words to move from his mind to his mouth.
Todd allows his body to follow as Tea pulls him down onto her again. He returns her kiss as his mind rehearses what to say but finds that none of the words he's thinking of feel right to express what he feels for her.
Tea pushes Todd's open shirt out of the way and caresses his bare back as they kiss. When Todd feels Tea's hands moving down and entering his pants he breaks off their kissing.]
Todd: Tea...
Tea: Don't stop.
Todd: Tea, we can't do this now.
Tea: Why not?
Todd: You're drunk.
Tea: So?
Todd: We can't do this when one of us has been drinking too much. That's the rule, remember?
Tea: That's a stupid rule.
Todd: It's your rule.
Tea: Since when do you follow any rules but your own?
Todd: Tea...
Tea: Todd, I'm not too drunk to know what I want. I want this. I want you. Make love to me.
[Tea instantly regrets her choice of words. She doesn't want to scare him away. She wants to have one final time of feeling Todd inside her, of feeling his flesh pressed against her flesh.]
Tea: I meant...
Todd: I know exactly what you meant, Tea.
Tea (with pleading in her eyes): Just give me this one thing, Todd. Let me have this one last time.
Todd: I can't.
[Tea closes her eyes and turns her head to the side as tears pour out of her eyes. A part of her wants to leave, to end the embarrassment of being with someone that she wants so intensely but who she's certain doesn't want her. Another part of Tea, however, wants to stay where she is, with Todd's body on top of her. She knows that this will be the last time that she'll ever feel his body against hers and she doesn't want it to end yet.
Todd watches Tea's face. The pain she's in is so clear to him. He knows that he has to stop it, that he has to do whatever he can to try to take that pain away.
Todd brings his head down until his face is gently resting on the side of Tea's face, his lips near her ear. As he speaks to her, he whispers in her ear, as if the words will be less painful if spoken at a lower volume.]
Todd: Tea...
[Todd pauses for a moment still uncertain of how to express what he feels for her.]
Todd (still whispering): You make it so hard, Delgado. You always have. Now you're forcing me to do this. You know I hate words. You know that but you're not giving me a choice. I don't have the words, Tea. There are words in my head but none of them are enough. None of them really say what I need to tell you. I can't explain it. I don't know how. I just know that I don't want you to hurt anymore. I thought that if you got away from me you'd be better off. I knew that I would hurt you if you were around me but you hurt when you're not with me too, right? That makes no sense to me, Tea. None at all. You should be happy to get rid of me, just like everyone else has always been happy. Why aren't you? Explain it to me.
chapter 93:
[Todd lifts his head slightly as he feels Tea turning her head toward him.
Tea feels confused by what Todd has said, what his words mean. As she looks into his eyes she tries to determine what his feelings truly are for her.]
Todd: You can't explain it, can you?
Tea: What?
Todd: Why you would hurt when we're not together.
Tea: It's like that when you care about someone.
Todd: But...it's me.
Tea: But...I love you.
[It isn't easy for Tea to express her love for Todd right now but she can sense his need to know. She understands how important it is for Todd to know that he is loved. She wants him to know that she does love him, whether he is able to return those feelings or not.
Todd stares at Tea's eyes, trying to understand, to comprehend, the depth of her feelings for him.]
Tea (placing her hand lightly against his cheek): That's how I feel about you. That's how I've felt for a long time.
Todd: Even when I was gone?
Tea: Even when you were gone.
Todd: Why?
Tea: I don't know. I developed these feelings for you during our first marriage. They kept growing and getting stronger. When you left...even when I wanted to stop those feelings, I couldn't. Honestly, I never really wanted them to stop.
Todd: I hurt you.
Tea: You did.
[Tea stops for a moment to gather her thoughts before continuing to speak.]
Tea: Do you want to know what one of the things that hurt me the most was?
Todd: What?
Tea: It happened in this room.
Todd: What did?
Tea: This is the room I was changing in for our second wedding. Do you remember that?
Todd: Yeah, I guess.
Tea: That day, our wedding day, you told me you weren't sure if you loved me. You had walked out on our wedding, humiliating me in front of a room full of people, most of whom I didn't even want at our wedding but you insisted on having them there. Why? So the humiliation would be greater?
Todd: I wasn't trying to humiliate you.
Tea: Well, you managed it anyway. After you left, I was the joke of this town, did you know that? Everyone already thought I was crazy to marry you again but then you walk out on me as our wedding is beginning and I come back and marry you anyway. If anyone else had been in this room and heard what you said that day they would have really thought I was nuts. I actually married a man who told me minutes before I married him that he wasn't sure if he loved me. I was nuts. I was an idiot. And, I kept right on being an idiot by hoping that you'd return to me, by mistaking sex for love. I am an idiot.
Todd: No, you're not.
[Tea closes her eyes and turns her head away from Todd again. Todd lowers his head and gently kisses the side of her face.]
chapter 94:
Todd (whispering in her ear): You're not an idiot, Tea.
Tea: Yes, I am. I'm a complete idiot.
Todd: Why?
Tea: Because...I believed it.
Todd: What did you believe? (Tea doesn't respond) Come on, tell me what you believed.
Tea: Why are you doing this?
Todd: Why do you think?
Tea: Stop playing games with me.
Todd: This is no game, Tea. This is real. This is very real.
Tea: What is?
Todd: You know.
Tea: No, I don't. Tell me.
Todd: I already told you, I don't have the words.
Tea: What words? What is this about, Todd?
[Todd doesn't respond. He wants to but he doesn't know how. Frustrated, Todd rolls off of Tea and sits at her side, running his hands through his hair, trying desperately to get his brain to make sense.]
Todd: You're confusing me.
Tea: How? I just want to understand. What does any of this mean? Your words, your kissing me, your lying on top of me for so long...what does all of that mean?
Todd: I...I don't know.
Tea: Why did you come here?
Todd: Viki called me.
Tea: She told you to come get your pathetic ex-wife and you came right over?
Todd: No...no. She told me you were drunk and that some guy was sniffing around you. Who was it? Any creep I know?
Tea (sitting up): I've had so many men making so many offers this evening I can't recall them individually.
Todd: Yeah, I bet. I bet you did get some offers. You're totally sloshed. Anyone could see that. A guy could take advantage of you. You should be more careful.
Tea: Hey, I've done just fine taking care of myself so far in my life. I don't need advice from you. You're the one who hurts me the most anyway.
Todd (softly): I never meant to hurt you.
Tea (angrily): That's a lie.
Todd: No. I never wanted that.
Tea (laughing because she doesn't believe him): Right. You didn't think it would hurt me thinking we were making love and then finding out that it was just sex, that it didn't mean anything to you, that I didn't mean anything to you?
Todd: You don't understand.
Tea: I understand fine, Todd. Believe me, you're not the first person to treat me like I didn't belong in the dining room.
Todd (confused): What?
Tea: Servants aren't allowed to eat in the dining room with the people they serve. They do their job and serve other people in the dining room but they know they don't belong there. I could serve you in your bed but I never belonged there.
Todd: You don't believe that, do you?
[Tea tries to control her emotions but she's unable to and starts crying again as she leans her head against the sofa. Todd tries to touch her but she pushes his hands away.]
Todd: I have never thought of you that way and you know it.
Tea (still crying): You bought me, Todd. And, after that fiasco of a wedding, you tried to buy me again.
Todd: But you tore up the check. Besides, I didn't mean it that way.
Tea: Yes, you did.
Todd: No, I didn't.
Tea: Yes...
Todd (interrupting): Shut up, okay? I'm trying to explain. I never meant it that way. I would never think of you that way. You can eat wherever the hell you want to. I don't care.
Tea: Exactly. You don't care.
Todd: Yeah, I do.
Tea: No, you don't. You never did. You never will. I'm not worth it. I'm not your type. I don't appeal to you.
Todd: Yeah, you do. You think we would have been doing the stuff we've been doing if you didn't, you know, have that kind of effect on me? Do you really think I would have done any of that if you didn't mean something to me? Do you really believe that I would have...(Todd is uncomfortable but keeps talking)...taken off my clothes, been...been naked with you, let you get that close to me, if I didn't care about you?
chapter 95:
Tea: You don't have to lie to me.
Todd: Aren't you listening? Don't you get it?
Tea: I get it.
Todd: Do you?
Tea: You're saying what you think I want to hear but it doesn't mean anything.
Todd: Why would I do that?
Tea: I don't know. Why did you do it in the past? So I'd continue being your lawyer. So I wouldn't leave you.
Todd: Well, why exactly do you think I didn't want you to leave?
Tea: So you could keep playing games with me.
Todd: That's it! I give up. (standing up) You're the most frustrating person I know. Here I am trying to tell you something that I'd rather be stranded in an elevator with a herd of Buchanans than have to say out loud and you're not even listening. You used to be able to get stuff without my having to say the words but you've lost that talent, Delgado. I knew coming here was a stupid idea. I should never listen to Viki. She always gives me lousy advice that never works out. I should know better than to take advice about love from someone who's been married so many times. Hell, she even married a Buchanan, how smart could she be.
Tea: Wait. Say that again.
Todd: What?
Tea: What you just said.
Todd: What did I just say?
Tea: I'm serious.
Todd: So am I. I never listen when I talk...that's your job.
[Tea rubs her forehead in frustration. Todd, thinking something is wrong, rushes to her, kneeling in front of her.]
Todd: Are you okay? Do you need to throw up? (taking hold of her) Come on. I'll point you in the direction of a toilet.
[Tea grabs at Todd's still unbuttoned shirt and pulls his face close to hers.]
Tea: Say it again.
Todd (not understanding): What?
Tea: Something about...something about a...a feeling.
Todd: A feeling?
Tea: A feeling you have for me. You were referring to the way you feel about me, right?
Todd: Um...I don't know...tell me...what the hell did I say?
Tea: Something about the advice Viki gave you being in reference to love. Is that your word or hers for what you feel for me?
Todd: Well, she...
[Todd stops himself from following his first instinct and instead decides to try to really tell Tea how he feels about her.]
Todd: Tea, I'm no good at this. It might take me a few minutes, well, maybe a few hours, to get out, you know, the words. I can't just say it easily like you can.
Tea (letting go of his shirt): It's not so easy for me, actually.
Todd: I really want to try. I really do. I want to say it. That's why I came back here. I almost left after hearing all that stuff you were saying to Viki.
Tea: You heard that?
Todd: Yeah, some of it... a lot of it. I didn't leave...I couldn't. I came back and I walked in here and that wasn't easy for me but I did it...for you.
Tea: Me?
Todd: You were hurting. I couldn't let you keep thinking that stuff you were thinking. I had to tell you. I had to let you know. I will, I swear, this time I'm gonna say it and I'll show it. I don't care how loudly my brain tries to scream at me not to do it, to get away, to protect you, to protect myself. I'm not leaving here without you.
Tea: Todd...
Todd: I want to do this Tea but since I think it might take a while to, um, get the words to come out, at least in the right order, and when I actually intend to say them instead of them just coming out on their own, maybe we should do this another time because you really don't look the greatest and I know you're into remembering these kinds of things and looking back on them with a stupid grin on your face and I'm pretty sure you don't want to look back and remember throwing up on me in this moment.
Tea: I won't throw up. I don't want to wait. If it's what I think it is, if it's what I want it to be, then I want you to tell me right now.
Todd: Are you sure?
Tea: Yes. I don't want to leave until I've heard your words.
Todd: Well, then maybe you should lie back down, okay? Get comfortable because we're gonna be in this bathroom for a few days.
chapter 96:
Tea: Todd, it shouldn't be that difficult to say. You already know how I feel about you. You've said the words before. Why is it so difficult now?
Todd: It means so much more.
[Tea lies down on the floor again. Todd picks up a throw pillow from the sofa and gently raises her head and places the pillow beneath her and then slowly lowers her head. Tea watches him carefully.]
Tea: Todd?
Todd: Yeah?
Tea: Get on top of me.
Todd: What?
Tea: I want you to be on top of me like you were before when you tell me.
Todd: Tea...
Tea: What I really want is for you to make love to me while you tell me.
Todd: We can't...you're drunk.
Tea: I know, so, I'm willing to settle for your body on top of mine.
Todd: I don't know.
Tea: I want to feel your body.
Todd (looking down at himself): Oh, you would feel my body, all right.
Tea (smiling): I felt it earlier.
Todd: Why didn't you say anything?
Tea: I was enjoying it.
Todd: You seriously want...
Tea: On top of me, yes.
Todd: Okay.
[Todd cautiously positions himself on top of Tea. They lie together silently as they gaze intently at each other while Todd plays with her hair with one of his hands and Tea caresses his back with both of her hands. Several minutes later, Todd moves his body down Tea's body and gently rests his head on Tea's chest.]
Tea: Todd?
Todd (raising his head to look at her face): Does this bother you?
Tea: No.
[Todd returns his head to her chest.]
Tea: I was just wondering why you're doing it.
Todd: I don't know. I felt like it.
[Tea begins to gently stroke his hair.]
Tea: Maybe we should wait on this, Todd.
Todd: I thought you wanted to stay here until the words came?
Tea: I do but we don't have to. It's probably getting pretty late by now. You could go home to the penthouse and I could get a room here at the country club and we could try this again tomorrow...if you still want to then.
Todd (hurt): You don't want to go home with me?
Tea: I do, but...
Todd (lifting his body up): Forget the but, Tea.
Tea: I can't forget the but.
Todd (standing up): Why does there always have to be a but with you? Why can't you ever just let things be the way they are?
Tea: Because the way things are isn't enough for me.
Todd: I'm not enough for you.
Tea: You are more than enough for me.
Todd: Then why the but? Just come home with me without any buts.
Tea: Todd, stop pacing and come back over here.
Todd: Forget it, Tea. I'll give you what you want and then you'll make some other demand on me. I'll fill that and it'll just be something else. Forget about me and find someone who fills all the buts for you from the start.
Tea: I don't want anyone's butt but yours. Now, get it back over here.
Todd: I never should have come.
Tea (sitting up): Todd, I have certain needs that I need you to fill just like you have certain needs that you expect me to fill, right?
Todd: When have I ever made any demands on you?
Tea: Do you really need me to list the times?
Todd: Seriously, Tea, I don't want you to be anything that you're not. I want you just to be the person that you are but you want me to be this perfect guy that I'll never be.
Tea: That's not true.
Todd: Yeah. You want me to be all open and honest and loving and all that junk that I can't be.
Tea: You can be all those things. You are all those things.
Todd: No, I'm not. You just like to think I am.
chapter 97:
Tea: Todd, I never wanted you to be perfect. All that I want is for you to be honest about how you feel about me, open enough to tell me and loving enough to show me. That's all.
Todd: That's all? That's way more than I can do, Tea. You picked the wrong guy.
Tea: I'm not giving up on this. We could be happy together, Todd, if you would just give it a chance and trust me enough.
Todd: What does trust have to do with this?
Tea: That's what I need from you before I can live with you again.
Todd: Fine. I trust you. Let's go home.
Tea: I need your trust in the bedroom.
Todd: I already proved that I trust you there. I let you touch me places that I only let people I trust touch. I took my clothes off in front of you, isn't that trust?
Tea: It is and I appreciate that but I wasn't referring to sexual trust.
Todd: Just tell me what the hell you're talking about here, Delgado. You're trying to confuse me again.
Tea: I can't continue doing what we've been doing. I can't go into your room every night, make love to you and then immediately go back to my own room and spend the rest of the night alone. I need to be with you completely. I need to be with you from the time we lay down at night until we wake up in the morning. I need you to trust me enough to sleep with me, literally sleep with me.
Todd: I never sleep, you know that.
Tea: Yes, you do and I need it to be beside me.
Todd: Why? What's the big deal about sleeping with me? I don't think you'd enjoy it anyway.
Tea: Yes, I would. I need it, Todd. I don't want to wake up alone anymore. Do you?
Todd: It's not a big deal to me like it is to you.
Tea: Maybe that's because you already know you have that level of trust from me.
Todd: Tea, you don't get it. What we've been doing is the highest level I go.
Tea: No, it's not. It was difficult for you to trust me sexually, I know that. I know it's difficult for you to trust me emotionally, too. I think for you to trust me while you sleep, though, is a greater trust.
Todd: You're wrong.
Tea: When you're asleep you are the most vulnerable that you could possibly be. Your defenses are down. I remember, Todd, what you told me about how your father woke you up when you were a child.
Todd (angrily): Leave my father the hell out of this.
Tea: He's a part of this, Todd. What he did to you is a part of this, it's a part of our relationship, it always has been, along with every other hurt you've been through in your life. It's all there, keeping you at a distance from me. I don't want that, Todd. I want to be closer to you. I want you to be closer to me. I'm willing to try to let you passed all of my defenses. Will you at least try to let me passed yours?
chapter 98:
Todd: Tea...
Tea: You won't have sex with me tonight, right?
Todd: Of course not. You're drunk.
Tea: Then take me home and sleep next to me.
[Todd doesn't respond and breaks eye contact with Tea.]
Tea: Do you remember when you proposed to me?
Todd: I've proposed to you a bunch of times.
Tea: The real one.
Todd: There was more than one real one.
Tea: The first real one. Do you remember it?
Todd: Sure.
Tea: Do you remember how a few minutes later you wandered off without letting me know you were leaving? You had me searching around that hotel like an idiot looking for you. Then I found you at home. You had just left and gone home without me.
Todd: Well, we both had our cars there so I didn't think you were expecting to share a ride.
Tea: Fine. Do you remember when I came downstairs that night...after changing.
Todd (envisioning what Tea looked like on that night): Yeah, I seem to recall that.
Tea: I fell asleep.
Todd: Yeah, you did.
Tea: Did you know what I had wanted to do that night?
Todd: I had a pretty good idea.
Tea: And that scared you?
Todd (lying): Not a bit.
Tea (not believing him): Right. Well, when I woke up on the couch and realized it was light out I felt horrible. I thought that you would be hurt that I had fallen asleep like that.
Todd: I understood why you fell asleep.
Tea: For a moment I thought maybe you wouldn't even be there. I thought maybe everything that had happened would have scared you away and you would have taken off and spent the night at the office or on the docks or wherever. Then, you walked in from the kitchen and I felt so relieved that you were actually there. You had stayed and that made me feel loved.
Todd: So, if I hadn't been there when you woke up you would have thought I didn't care about you?
Tea: I probably would have wondered. I've always wondered.
Todd: Tea, I have to be able to leave the penthouse sometimes without you deciding it means that I don't love you.
Tea: That isn't what I'm saying. You don't understand.
Todd: I definitely don't understand.
Tea: It was that night. It was special to me. I wanted it to be very special. If we had made love that night it would have been great, I know it, but what I really wanted was to finally be able to spend the night in your arms. So many times you wouldn't let me get close to you. You would pull away when I tried to touch you. That night I thought I would finally be able to touch you...to spend the whole night touching you. I wanted to listen to your breathing...to feel your heart beating. It was months before I was able to finally put my hand on your chest and feel your heart and the only reason I was able to do it then was because you were catatonic and couldn't stop me.
Todd: I didn't want to stop you.
Tea (looking at him with surprise): Did you know I was there? Did you hear me? Did you feel me?
Todd: Yeah...sort of. I could tell you were there. I could tell you were hurting but I couldn't get to you. I tried. I just couldn't do it.
Tea: You actually remember that?
Todd: Yeah...unless I dreamed it. Maybe I did. I probably did. Wait. You're sidetracking here and it's making your really long story even longer. Finish what you were saying about that night so we can get out of here.
chapter 99:
Tea: The night you proposed to me...
Todd: You were snoring and then you weren't. Let's move ahead to the next day.
Tea: Why are you in such a hurry all of a sudden?
Todd: All of a sudden? You really think I was planning on spending all night in a bathroom?
Tea: I'm sorry if I'm disturbing you're plans for the evening. You don't have to stay here if you don't want to.
Todd: I want to go home but you won't let me.
Tea: I'm not stopping you.
Todd: Good. Get your stuff together and let's get out of here.
Tea: I'm not going home with you the way things are.
Todd: Why not?
Tea: Have you been listening at all to anything I've said tonight?
Todd: Have you? What the hell does the night I proposed to you have to do with why you won't go home with me right now.
Tea: Wait. I thought we were waiting here for you to finally tell me that you love me.
Todd: Well, if you already know then I don't have to tell you. Let's go.
Tea: The night you proposed to me...
Todd: Come on, Tea. You keep this up and you won't be the only one who's drunk in this bathroom.
Tea: That night relates to where we are right now.
Todd: We're in the john, Tea. Does it relate to that?
Tea: I was referring to where we are in our relationship.
Todd: Well, can't you tell me about it while I drive us home?
Tea: Will you sleep with me tonight?
[Todd doesn't respond. Tea can tell from his body language that he's uncomfortable.]
Todd (plopping himself down in a chair): So, the morning after I proposed to you...
Tea: It felt good when I saw that you were still there, that you hadn't left like I expected you to. Later, I learned that you had left. I fell asleep and you immediately took off and starting wandering around Llanview.
Todd: It wasn't immediately. I stayed there with you for a little while.
Tea: Why did you leave?
Todd: I had work to do.
Tea: Which was more important than spending the night with me?
Todd: You were out, Tea. You were snoring. I didn't think it would matter to you if I was there or not.
Tea: It mattered to me.
Todd: I don't know why.
Tea: Because I thought that would be the night that I would finally be able to share something special with you.
Todd: Sex?
Tea: Love.
Todd: You said yes in front of witnesses when I asked you to get hitched again. That was enough for me. It wasn't for you, though, right?
Tea: I had hoped that we would officially begin sharing a bedroom that night.
Todd: And a bed.
Tea: And a bed, yes. I wanted that, too. We could have waited to have sex but I wanted to finally be able to spend the night next to you...to feel like I finally...really...belonged with you.
Todd: And my leaving to do my job messed that up for you?
Tea: Did your job really require that you leave?
Todd: A big murder case was happening.
Tea: But you didn't know that when you left.
Todd: You're not so drunk that you're going to forget this conversation, are you? Because I'm telling you right now that I am never having this stupid conversation with you again.
Tea: Do you understand the connection between that night and the problem in our relationship now?
Todd: Not a clue.
Tea: You wouldn't spend the night with me then and you won't spend the night with me now.
Todd: Well, why didn't you just say that to begin with?
Tea: You have never allowed me to share your space like that. That's what I need, Todd. I need to feel like I fit...in your life, in your heart, in your arms, in your bed. When you were catatonic...
Todd: Wait. We were getting to the end of your story...I think...don't make it longer.
Tea: When you were catatonic I could be near you physically. I could touch you. I could put my hand in your hair. I could hold your hand. I could rest my head on your chest. It was so painful, Todd.
Todd: For you? I was the one in the hospital bed, remember?
Tea: I left your room feeling so...I don't know...devastated, I guess. (with tears in her eyes) I knew that if you hadn't been catatonic you would never have allowed me that kind of intimacy with you. That hurts, Todd. Can you understand that?
chapter 100:
Todd: Most people don't want to be close to me...to be anywhere near me. I like that. I work hard to make myself as unpleasant as possible so people won't want to be around me, touching me. Why do you have to mess that up for me?
Tea: I want to be near you, Todd. I want to touch you.
Todd: Yeah, well, you're drunk. When you sober up...
Tea (interrupting): When I sober up I want to make love to you.
Todd: Tea...
Tea: For hours.
Todd: Hours, huh?
Tea: Yes.
Todd: That could be...okay.
Tea: Tonight, what I really want is to go home with you, to fall asleep in your arms and wake up in the morning and find myself still in your arms.
Todd: Tea, can't you just take what I can give you without having to push for more?
Tea: Is that something you can't give me? Or, is it something you don't want to give me?
Todd: I'd give you just about anything to end this conversation right about now.
Tea: Will you agree to sleep with me?
Todd: Tea...
Tea: At least try it for one night. Tonight would be a good night.
Todd: I don't know. You might throw up on me and I don't think I'd enjoy that.
Tea (moving toward the chair Todd is sitting in): I won't throw up on you, I promise.
Todd: I don't know if I should trust you.
Tea: I trust you, Todd.
Todd: Yeah, well, I haven't been boozing it tonight like you have. You don't have to worry about me throwing up on you.
Tea: That wasn't what I was referring to. I trust you, Todd.
[Tea seats herself on Todd's lap.]
Todd: Do I look like Santa?
Tea: I do have a wish that only you can fill.
[As Tea settles her body against Todd's she takes advantage of Todd's shirt still being open by placing her hand on his chest.]
Todd (uncomfortable): Um...
Tea: Would you like me to stop talking now?
Todd: Uh...yeah...
Tea: Okay.
[Tea brings her lips to his cheek as her hand moves down to his stomach. As Tea moves her open mouth along his cheek toward his lips she extends her tongue until it makes contact with his flesh.
Todd tries to control himself but finds it difficult as Tea's tongue moves across his lips. When Tea's tongue enters his mouth he can't help but respond. They kiss deeply for several minutes as Tea caresses the flesh of Todd's stomach and chest and Todd's hands move aside her clothing so he can touch her bare skin.
Even though he desperately wants to continue what they're doing, Todd ends their kiss and places Tea on her feet as he stands up and walks slightly away from her.]
Todd: Tea, you have to stop this. You're drunk and we can't do this kind of stuff when you're drunk.
Tea: I'm not asking for sex tonight, Todd.
Todd (not believing her): Sure, Tea.
Tea: I'm not.
Todd: Well, your tongue definitely was.
Tea: It's hard for me to control myself when I'm near you. (moving toward him) I'm so attracted to you right now, Todd. I always have been. You're very sexy.
Todd (moving away from her): You're even drunker than I thought.
Tea: Take me home with you. Sleep with me tonight. Make love to me in the morning.
Todd: You're gonna have a really bad hangover in the morning.
Tea: Have you ever heard that sex can be a great cure for a hangover?
Todd: Who tried to get you into bed with that line?
Tea: You did, remember?
Todd: Well, you can't believe stuff I tell you. You should know that by now.
Tea: We'll test the theory in the morning and find out.
[Tea tries to caress Todd's chest again but he quickly rushes passed her, toward the stall area of the bathroom.]
to be continued...
