Tea: I don't want those barriers. I want you. I want to feel your love no matter how scary it is. And, I want you to feel my love. Even if it's only for the rest of this trip. I want to know that you feel my love.
[Both occupants of the bathtub are quiet for several minutes as they each think about what's been said in the last few minutes.]
Todd: That's enough of that serious junk. Let's do stuff.
Tea: You still haven't explained why you don't want me to give you the same pleasure that you want to give me.
Todd: The same? I don't think it's the same. There's no way that it feels as good for chicks as it does for guys.
Tea: Why do you think that?
Todd: Because, if it did, chicks would want sex all the time, like guys do.
Tea: What makes you think we don't?
Todd: All the times chicks weren't interested.
Tea: Maybe they were interested. Maybe they just needed a little more romancing.
Todd: Exactly. If it felt the same for you, none of that romance garbage would be needed. You'd want to get right to the part that's actually enjoyable.
Tea: You don't think romance is enjoyable?
Todd: I'm a guy, remember?
Tea: You don't like to kiss?
Todd: When there's tongue involved, sure.
Tea: And, when there isn't?
Todd: I'm probably just going through the motions waiting for the tongue part.
Tea: And, soft caresses?
Todd: Waiting for the part where it's okay to openly paw.
Tea: Hugging?
Todd: Hugging is good...if both people are naked, facing each other and in the middle of having sex.
Tea: So, the actual sexual acts are the only part that's enjoyable?
Todd: Yep.
Tea: So, right now?
Todd: I'm waiting for one of those acts.
Tea: You have, on your own, initiated intimate contact that wasn't sexual, in the past.
Todd: Only if I thought it was heading somewhere fun.
Tea: Why do you need to pretend that you don't enjoy more than just the sex?
Todd: I'm a guy. Sex is all there is.
Tea: Is that what your father tried to teach you?
Todd: With him, there was sex and there was pain. And, any chick stupid enough to have sex with him ended up in a hell of a lot of pain.
Tea: Do you believe in that combination?
Todd: Are you scared that I do?
Tea: I don't believe that you do.
Todd: If I did?
Tea: I wouldn't be interested.
Todd: Have guys ever tried anything like that with you?
Tea: Yes.
Todd: Seriously? Are we talking about...
Tea: About rape? No. It wasn't that.
Todd: What was it?
Tea: Do you really want to know?
Todd: No, but tell me anyway.
Tea: Years ago, there was a boy I had a crush on who thought it was a neat trick, while making out with a girl, to push her nipple into her chest so she could see what it felt like.
Todd: That hurts?
Tea: That definitely hurts.
Todd: Did you slug him?
Tea: No.
Todd: You should have slugged him.
Tea: I chose a more appropriate retaliation.
Todd: You mean...
Tea: He ended up needing medical treatment.
Todd: So, I should wear a cup if I'm gonna tick you off?
Tea: I'd prefer that you didn't tick me off.
Todd: Well, I won't right now because I'm unprotected. So, did either of you get in trouble?
Tea: No. I didn't tell anyone. He obviously came up with some sort of excuse for his injuries but, luckily, he didn't implicate me, since he didn't want it known why I had responded that way. I was relieved, because it would have been too embarrassing to have my father know anything about what we had been doing.
Todd: So, your family didn't chat about that kind of thing at the dinner table?
Tea: My family didn't openly acknowledge sex at all. Roseanne was born about six months after Enrique got married. Papi insisted that she was premature. We all knew the truth, but it was never spoken.
[There's a long pause as Todd contemplates his next comments.]
Todd: Seriously, Tea, why aren't you scared to be with me?
Tea: I don't believe that you'll hurt me.
Todd: But, you know that I could.
Tea: I know that any man could. I didn't think when I started making out with that boy that he would actually think I would enjoy that kind of pain.
Todd: Guys have been real jerks to you, huh?
Tea: Some.
Todd: But, you're counting on me not to hurt you?
Tea: You haven't so far.
Todd: I've hurt you...other ways.
Tea: But, not that way.
Todd: I've hurt other women that way.
Tea: You haven't hurt me that way.
Todd: Is that all that you care about?
Tea: No. I don't want you to hurt anyone that way. If it happened and it's in the past, I can accept that. If it's still happening...
Todd: What?
Tea: I don't think I could accept that.
Todd: So, that's where you draw the line?
Tea: I suppose it is. If you are and you admit it right now and seek help, maybe...
Todd: Maybe you'd still be with me?
Tea: Maybe. But, if I find out anytime after this moment...
Todd: You'd never want to see me again?
Tea: When was the last time you hurt a woman?
Todd: When I hit you.
[Tea is stunned silent for a moment. She wasn't expecting Todd to bring up that incident.]
Tea: Okay. When was the last time you...
Todd: Raped a woman? Marty. There was a time with Blair, but I didn't go through with it.
Tea: But, you wanted to?
Todd: I started to. I stopped before...
[They both choose silence again for several minutes.]
Todd: The water's getting cold again.
[Todd sits up and begins the process again of draining some water out of the tub and replacing it with hot water.]
Tea: Maybe we should get out.
Todd: Because you don't want to be this close to me anymore? You probably want to put some clothes on, too.
Tea: I just thought that maybe we've been in here long enough.
Todd: I'd understand if doing stuff with me is too repulsive now.
Tea: I knew that you had a violent past.
Todd: Yeah, you just didn't know how close to the present it was.
Tea: It's still in the past. I've told you before, I know about your past, I accept it. I don't approve of it. I don't like the things that you did. If it's in the past, I still want a future with you.
Todd: It's in the past.
Tea: Are you sure about that?
Todd: I don't know if I can swear that it could never happen again. But, I swear that I don't want it to happen again.
[Todd finally shuts off the water, satisfied that there's enough hot water in the bathtub for them to be comfortable for a while, although he knows neither of them will be comfortable with the conversation they're currently having.]
Todd: It's something that's always been there.
Tea: You've always had that urge?
Todd: No, I meant, it was always a part of my life. My father did whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted, to whoever he wanted.
Tea: Including your mother?
Todd: Yeah, especially her. I didn't tell my shrink everything...just some of it. That's one of the things that I did talk about with him.
Tea: Really? You were able to talk about it?
Todd: Yeah. There aren't that many people who I think could really understand what it's like to grow up like that. He grew up like that, too...or, at least, in a similar situation. Growing up like that, it's not normal. Everything around you, all of the words, all of the actions, they're not normal. You know none of it's normal. But, it's normal to you. It's all that you know, except for the fantasies that you see on television. It can screw up how you view the world, how you view women, how you view yourself...stuff like that.
Tea: You were able to talk, in depth, about all of that with your shrink?
Todd: Yeah, sort of. But, he had the decency to get me drunk first. Doing it this way is like having someone cut into you without the anesthesia.
[Tea sits up next to him and places her hand on his bare back. Todd is glad that he closed the bathroom door earlier. This moment would be even worse if there was enough light in the room for either of them to really see the other person right now.
Tea slowly caresses his back for several moments before speaking again.]
Tea: We don't have to do this, not right now.
Todd: What is it about you, Delgado, that makes me tell you things that I never wanted anyone to know?
Tea: I don't know. But, I'm glad that you do. You had to keep secrets when you were a little boy but you don't have to anymore. You can let them out. You can release their power.
Todd: You think they have power?
Tea: Don't you? You've held on to them so tight, for so long, do you know why?
Todd: When I was a kid, I knew I didn't have a choice.
Tea: You were afraid of what your father's reaction would be if you told?
Todd: I knew what his reaction would be. It would have been the same as his reaction to the ball game being rained out or the neighbor's dog barking.
Tea: His reaction was violence, no matter what?
Todd: Most of the time. Sometimes...he'd just sit there and be really silent. That would scare the hell out of me because I could see the anger building behind his eyes. It's probably weird to you but sometimes, I wanted him to get on with it, do whatever he was going to do. Waiting for it was, in a weird way, worse.
Tea: Because, you were imagining the possibilities?
Todd: I don't want to talk about this anymore.
Tea: Okay. Do you want to go back into the bedroom? You still need to sleep.
Todd: I hate sleeping. I hate closing my eyes. I hate waking up. I hate it.
Tea: I could be next to you. You wouldn't have to sleep alone, unless you want to.
Todd: I know you don't want to stick around here, baby-sitting the pathetic insomniac.
Tea: You are not pathetic. And, there's nowhere else I want to be but next to you.
Todd: You want to go do that tourist thing, don't you?
Tea: We could do that together another day.
Todd: You'd have more fun without me.
Tea: I doubt that. If you think you'd sleep better alone, I'll go, if that's what you want.
Todd: I wanted to touch you and make you feel good. That's what I wanted.
Tea: We could still do that, after you wake up.
Todd: We could do it now, unless you're too repulsed.
Tea: I'm not.
Todd: You're just saying that.
Tea: No, I'm not. We might have to build up to that again, but the building up process is part of the fun.
Todd: For girls, maybe.
Tea: I know you've enjoyed our foreplay, I can tell.
Todd: Whatever.
Tea: Come on, let's snuggle together again for a few minutes before we proceed.
Todd: More chick torture.
Tea: Well it's not torture for this chick.
Todd: No, it's torture for me.
Tea: Why?
Todd: Never mind.
[Todd leans back again and briefly submerges his entire body under the water, including his head, before sitting up with his back leaning against the tub. Tea has stayed in the same position she was in moments earlier so he reaches out for her. His hand lands on her back, close to her side.]
Todd: Delgado...
[There's a vulnerability in his voice that deeply touches Tea. She quickly turns her body and moves into position, snuggling against his body.]
Tea: There's one more thing that I think we should discuss before we stop talking and go back to enjoying each other.
Todd: Why I don't want you to get me off?
Tea: Okay...two things.
Todd: One thing. Hurry up and get it over with so we can go back to getting it on.
[Todd can't see Tea's face but he knows that she's smiling. It makes him feel good.]
Tea: We've discussed enough already. It can wait.
Todd: What can?
Tea: Seriously, it can wait.
Todd: Seriously, what is it? Why are you backing down? Is it something that you think will tick me off?
Tea: I don't know. I would hope not. It might make you uncomfortable, though.
Todd: Does this have anything to do with you having sex with anyone but me?
Tea: No.
Todd: Then, tell me.
Tea: I don't know if I should.
Todd: This is the perfect time. The room is dark. We've already been talking about...all that other stuff. In a few minutes, after you finish screaming in ecstasy, we're getting out of this tub, and when we leave this john none of this will have happened.
Tea: I don't want to forget what happened in here. I don't want to forget the trust you've shown me.
Todd: Fine. Don't forget. Just never mention it again, ever, to anyone.
Tea: I won't betray your trust.
Todd: That's another thing that will disappear when we leave this john.
Tea: What is?
Todd: I think I kind of, almost, sort of, just about, believe you.
Tea (sarcastically): That's quite some confidence you're showing me.
Todd: You have to compare it to how much I trust everyone else.
Tea: You don't trust anyone else
Todd: Exactly.
Tea: Except, maybe Starr...and Viki, right?
Todd: Let's just stick to whatever you wanted to say that will cause me to put an end to this insanity.
Tea: Now, I'm definitely not telling you. I'm not ready for this to end.
Todd: You still want me to do that thing so you can scream in ecstasy?
Tea: I don't know if I'll be screaming but, yes, I want you to touch me. I want you to caress me. I want you to...
Todd: I want you to shut up so we can get on with this.
[There is silence for over a minute.]
Todd: Tea?
[Tea doesn't respond.]
Todd: Did you fall asleep again?
[Tea doesn't want to talk anymore since she can sense that much more talk and Todd may really put an end to their bath together. She doesn't want that. She wants him to give her pleasure, for herself, but also for him. She still doesn't fully understand why he doesn't want her to do the same for him but she knows that it's important to him that he give her pleasure. She's more than willing to receive that pleasure from him.]
[Tea continues her silence, concerned that if any more words are spoken their intimate time spent lying completely naked next to each other in the bathtub, could come to an end.]
Todd: What is it with chicks always falling asleep on me when we're naked? It must be me. Now I'm so depressed. If only, just once, a chick would stay awake and kiss my chest.
[Todd's words have their desired effect as Tea turns her head and kisses his chest.]
Todd: And, my shoulder...
[Tea moves her head and kisses his shoulder.]
Todd: And, shove her tongue in my ear.
[Tea laughs.]
Todd: You think I'm kidding?
[Tea kisses his earlobe.]
Todd: That's not what I said. Are you afraid I haven't washed there in a while?
Tea: Do you really want me to do that?
Todd: I don't know what I want sometimes, when it comes to you. Some of the things I do want, I know that I shouldn't want, but I can't help it.
Tea: Like what?
[Todd lowers his voice as he speaks to her softly.]
Todd: I want you.
Tea: That's not a bad thing.
Todd: It is for you. It would be a big mistake to put you through anymore with me. I never should have brought you into this to begin with.
Tea: Into what?
Todd: My life. You didn't deserve to get stuck with all of my garbage.
Tea: Neither did you.
Todd: Don't.
Tea: Don't what? Don't tell the truth?
Todd: That's not the truth. The truth is that I deserve every last scrap of rotting refuse that festers inside me. You, though...you deserve the best. You deserve whatever it is that normal people have, that a normal person could give you. I can't give you that. I can't give you anything that you really need.
Tea: You can. You have. You do.
Todd: No.
Tea: Can you give me love? Can you give me understanding? Can you give me your shoulder to cry on? Can you listen to me when I need to talk about my past...and about my pain? Can you remember things that I confided in you, years ago? Can I be an important person in your life? Can I be one of the few people you allow into your heart?
Todd: Allow? When have I ever had a choice about that?
Tea: You have probably had as much choice as I have...which is none at all. You got inside of me years ago and I don't think you'll ever leave. I don't want you to ever leave. Even when it hurts, like it did when we were apart, there's a certain comfort in that agony.
Todd: You're talking crazy again.
Tea: Weren't there any times when we were apart that you were glad for the time we had together, even though it caused you pain in the end?
Todd: No.
Tea: Well, I was glad for what we had, for the small amount of time when we were together and reasonably happy.
Todd: Happiness... We only had about three minutes total of that the whole time we were torturing each other.
Tea: Maybe that's all you had, but it was more than three minutes for me. I'll always treasure the times that we've had. This trip, especially, will always have a special place in my heart for how far we've come together.
Todd: Second base and rounding third?
[Tea responds by kissing near his ear. As she extends her tongue and touches the tip against a sensitive area next to his ear, he quickly tries to pull away.]
Tea: Are you ticklish there?
Todd: Ticklish? I'm a big, strong man, I don't do ticklish.
Tea: You are big.
[Tea's hand slides down his chest and stomach, entering the bath water. She caresses near his penis for several moments, allowing him time to know what her intentions are. As her hand moves to his penis, his body jumps slightly at the gentle touch of her fingers against his excited flesh.]
Tea: You are very big.
Todd: Uh...Tea...
Tea: Let's not talk anymore. Let's enjoy each other.
[Tea again flicks her tongue against the area near his ear that she knows is sensitive to her touch. Todd groans as her hand and tongue entice his body into full excitement. For several moments he closes his eyes and allows her actions, despite the sirens going off in his head, warning him not to allow this to continue.
Finally, as his body is nearing it's goal of pleasurable release, his mind is able to take control again.]
Todd: Tea...
[He groans again as her hand pleasurably tightens its grip.]
Todd: You don't want to do this.
Tea: Yes, I do. Tell me you don't want this, Todd, and I'll stop. That's all you have to do, just tell me.
[Todd groans again as Tea notices his breathing has changed. She knows that his body wants the release she's offering but his mind is trying to prevent his body from experiencing the pleasure it seeks.
Tea's hand lets go of his penis, to Todd's mind's relief. However, as she moves her body he starts to panic as he realizes that she intends to position herself on top of him.]
Todd: Oh, hell!
Tea: Hell yes? Or, Hell no?
[Tea positions herself so that she is straddling his leg for her own pleasure and his penis is trapped between their bodies, prepared to enjoy any friction their bodies create. She knows that intercourse is out of the question right now but she has every intention of giving them both as much pleasure as possible within the limitations they currently need to work with.
For several moments, Todd's body wins out in the internal battle he's fighting, as he allows Tea to rock against him several times, sending thrills through both their bodies.
Finally, he grabs on to her and holds her tightly against him so she can't move her body against his anymore.]
Todd: You have to stop.
Tea: Tell me why.
[Todd doesn't respond as he tries to catch his breath and talk his penis out of erupting from just the feeling of having Tea's naked body pressed against him.]
Tea: If we both want this, why do we have to stop?
Todd: I don't want this.
[Todd instantly feels Tea's body weaken against his as her previous determination to make this moment continue, to the end she had thought they both wanted, quickly exits her being. He knows that she won't continue what she was doing so he loosens his grip on her but continues to hold her against his body.]
Tea: What's wrong with me?
Todd: It's not you, Delgado.
Tea: It has to be.
Todd: No, it doesn't. It isn't you.
Tea: Tell me why I shouldn't take this personally.
Todd: Why would you take it personally? If you wanted to wait, I wouldn't take it personally.
Tea: Yes, you would.
Todd: Okay, I would, but you'd try to convince me that it wasn't me, right?
Tea: But, you wouldn't believe it.
Todd: Okay, you're right about that, too. But, just trust me, okay, it's not because of you.
Tea: I need to know why.
Todd: You're the reason that it's so hard...and, I mean that in every way I can mean that right now. It's hard because of you.
Tea: Let me help you to feel good. It's what I want.
Todd: It's what I want, too. But, everything will explode if I...well, if I explode.
Tea: Nothing will change. It isn't something bad, Todd. It's okay for us to share this.
Todd: Just let me do you and then we'll do that sleeping thing.
Tea: Why is it okay for you to do me but not okay for me to do you, or for us to do each other at the same time?
Todd: Because, that's just how it is, okay?
Tea: Do you enjoy the way it feels when I touch you?
Todd: That's pretty damn obvious, isn't it?
Tea: I thought it was. But, I also thought it was obvious that you wanted to have an orgasm just now. Apparently, I was wrong about that.
Todd: No.
Tea: You do want to have an orgasm?
Todd: We need to stop talking about this. You need to give me a few minutes to cool off and then I'll take care of you. We'll both enjoy that. And, don't even try to convince me that you would enjoy doing the same for me.
Tea: I was enjoying it, until you stopped me.
Todd: You just felt obligated.
[Tea relaxes her body even more against his as she rests her head on his shoulder.]
Tea: I just want you to feel good. I want to be the reason that you feel good. I want you to want me.
[Todd continues to hold onto Tea as he gently turns their bodies so that they end up lying on their sides. Tea uses his arm as her pillow as she settles in to the new position.]
Todd: I hate it when you feel like this because of me. This is why we shouldn't even start this kind of stuff.
Tea: I want to be the reason that...
Todd: You are.
Tea: You don't want that with me.
Todd: I do. You can feel how much I do, can't you?
Tea: Why do we have to stop?
Todd: We can do that with you. We can keep going until it happens for you.
Tea: I want it to happen for you, because of me.
[When Todd speaks again, a few moments later, his voice is lower and filled with noticeable emotion.]
Todd: I want that, too. I want so much to be inside you right now, feeling that way. I want to let go, to let it happen. I want it to feel good for you. I want to go slow and feel every sensation. I want to memorize everything about what it feels like to be inside you.
[Tears come to Tea's eyes as her heart releases more emotions than she can handle right now.]
Tea: I want that, too. I want you inside me. Make love to me.
Todd: I can't, if you might be knocked up with another guy's kid. I can't trust myself not to hurt you.
Tea: You don't want to hurt me. I know that you don't. You want to love me. I want you to love me.
Todd: I do.
Tea: Show me.
Todd: If I screw you right now, it won't show you. It won't prove anything, except that you turn me on.
Tea: Do I?
Todd: I've got a body part right now that, if it could, would be disconnecting from me and diving into you. It's not that I don't want this, Tea. I just can't allow it.
Tea: We don't have to have sex. But, why can't I touch you?
Todd: You can touch me. You have touched me. I like that. My guy down there, he loves that. He loves the way you touch him. He loved waking up that morning feeling you holding him. But, that's all that he thinks about. He doesn't care about anything else. I have to care. I have to make sure that this lasts as long as it can. Most of all, I have to make sure that I don't hurt you. So, you need to understand why I can't allow that to happen right now. You can touch me, if you really want to, but you have to stop when I tell you.
Tea: You still haven't told me why.
Todd: I'm saving it.
Tea: For someone special? For someone you really want to be with? That's the real reason, isn't it?
Todd: You're right. I am saving it for someone special. She's an incredible woman. I wish you could meet her sometime. I wish you could see how beautiful she is. She's so incredibly beautiful. It takes my breath away just to look at her. Even just thinking about her sometimes makes it hard for me to breathe. The incredible thing is that she doesn't even know how beautiful she is. That's part of what makes her so beautiful. And, she has these incredible eyes that look at me like she can see through all the layers of garbage that block everyone else's view, and she can see things that no one else has ever seen. She has these incredible hands that know just how to touch me, not just to turn me on, but to make me feel good in ways that I hate feeling good. She has this amazing mouth. Boy, does she have a mouth on her. She tells me off all the time. She's not afraid to say what she thinks. When she tells me that I'm worth something, I almost believe her, because I trust her judgment more than anyone else's. And, she has this smile... You should see her smile when she's sleeping, that's the best. It makes me feel good just watching her. And, when she smiles when she's awake, she has this way of making her eyes shine at the same time. It's almost caught me a few times and forced me to smile, too, just seeing her smile at me like that. And, she's got this way about her that calms me, just by looking at me, or talking to me, or touching me, or sleeping next to me. Everything feels like chaos to me...inside me, but she can calm me. I don't know how she does it, but she knows how to calm all these tornadoes, and hurricanes, and volcanic eruptions that always seem to be going off inside me. There are so many things about her that are so amazing. I really wish I could convince you to meet her and get to know her because I can't describe her right. I don't have the words to really tell you how amazing she is, or how much she means to me. If only you could look in the mirror sometime and see her for yourself.
Tea (touched by his words): Todd...
Todd: So, was that enough bull for you to back off, or do you need more?
[Tea laughs, making him smile. He's glad the room is too dark for her to see how easily she affects him.]
Tea: I think I need a little more.
Todd: Okay. She's got a great ass that I always stare at, and she's got perfect hooters, too. But, I don't want her to know because I want her to think that I'm with her for her mind, not her hot bod.
[Tea laughs again, causing Todd to smile even more and even let out a slight laugh that he tries to cover by turning it into a cough. After several moments of thought, Tea speaks again.]
Tea: Can you tell me why you want me to have an orgasm but you don't want one yourself?
Todd: Is it really important for you to know?
Tea: Yes, but if it's too difficult for you...
Todd: I really do want to wait, Tea. If you're not knocked up, we'll make love, right?
Tea: We could wait until after my period has ended but, yes, we'll make love. At least, I know I want to.
Todd: I want that, too. If you are knocked up and this has to end, maybe on the last day, I'll let you do that, if you want to.
Tea: I want to. But, why wait? I could be doing that for you everyday, numerous times a day, until the end of this trip.
Todd: If you're not knocked up, I want to wait until I'm inside you.
Tea: Todd, that's...
Todd: Stupid, right?
Tea: That's sweet, that's very sweet.
[Todd groans as Tea lifts her head and softly kisses his cheek.]
Tea: I'll wait, too.
Todd: I don't want you to.
Tea: Why not? If you can wait, I can wait. Although, I suppose I should be honest and admit that I haven't been waiting up until this point.
Todd: This is not the time to brag about your past.
Tea: I was referring to our time so far on this trip.
Todd: You cheated on me during this trip?
Tea: Only with myself.
Todd: You mean... You're saying... You...
Tea: Yes, I...
[They both feel awkward about the latest turn in the conversation and each chooses not to use the exact words. They don't need to since they both clearly understand that they're discussing masturbation.]
Todd: Really? When?
Tea: When I was in the shower.
Todd: Every time?
Tea: No.
Todd: Just once?
Tea: No.
Todd: How many times?
Tea: I wasn't counting. Besides, I'm sure you must have...self-satisfied...at least a few times yourself.
Todd: When I said I was waiting, I meant that I was waiting.
Tea: You mean... Not even once during this whole trip?
Todd: When I finally explode, you better be prepared, because I'm really gonna explode.
Tea: You must have...at least once.
Todd: Nope.
Tea: All those times that we both got so excited and then stopped, you never...
Todd: Took matters into my own hands? Nope. I'm not as easy with myself as you are with yourself, apparently.
Tea: I was horny. I can't believe that you weren't.
Todd: I never said that.
Tea: But, you never... Wait! You did touch yourself. I know for a fact that you did.
Todd (angrily): Were you spying on me when you were pretending to be asleep?
Tea: No, of course not. Just last night you touched yourself through the towel you had around your waist after your shower.
Todd: That doesn't count it has to be flesh on flesh.
Tea: That night you got drunk, you exposed yourself to me and you touched yourself then.
Todd: That doesn't count either. I was just trying to get a rise out of you.
Tea: Well, you were doing such a great job, you got a rise out of yourself, too. I saw it. Be honest with me...
Todd (teasing her): Why would I start now?
Tea (ignoring him): Never, not even once, did you touch yourself when you were alone in the shower?
Todd: Well, that doesn't count, either. My guy likes to be clean.
Tea: Yeah, I'm sure it takes several pleasurable minutes to ensure proper cleanliness, doesn't it?
Todd: Sometimes.
Tea: Have you ever touched yourself while I was sleeping?
Todd: This conversation is becoming boring.
Tea (with glee evident in her voice): You have! You've touched yourself, you've pleasured yourself, while I was lying next to you. I never had the guts to do that.
Todd: Neither have I.
Tea: So, it was before we started sharing a bed?
Todd: That doesn't count either.
Tea: Why not?
Todd: Sometimes my guy down there needs to be...adjusted.
Tea: Well, sometimes my gal down there needs to be adjusted, too. Sometimes she really needs to be relieved of certain pressure.
Todd: So, from now on you'll be showering with the door open, right?
Tea: I won't need to. From now on you'll be showering with me.
Todd (laughing): Is that what you think?
Tea: With the lights on.
Todd (still laughing): Oh, really?
Tea: We're naked in this bathtub together and we're surviving just fine.
Todd: And, how many times have you burst into tears so far?
Tea: I want to shower with you.
Todd: Why would you want that?
Tea: Maybe I want to watch while you...wash yourself.
Todd: You're into that, are you?
Tea: You want to watch me, don't you?
Todd: But, I'm a guy, I'm supposed to be into that.
Tea: So because I'm female, I'm not supposed to think it's sexy to watch you...
Todd (interrupting): No, you're not. Nothing about me is sexy.
Tea: I do think you're sexy. I think you're very sexy.
Todd: I think you're nuts...very nuts.
[Tea uses the tip of one of her fingers to caress the side of his body while she whispers to him.]
Tea: The thought of you...touching yourself...while thinking about me, makes me tingle.
Todd: Really? So, right now, you're tingling?
Tea: Were you thinking about me while you touched yourself?
Todd: If it makes you tingle, yeah, sure.
Tea: Seriously, tell me.
Todd: Seriously, if it makes you tingle, think whatever you need to.
[Todd moves his leg so that it comes into intimate contact with Tea's body. Tea lifts her top leg and places it over his, allowing his leg to rub against her in a delectable way.
Todd's arm holds Tea tightly against him as his leg continues to move against her gently. Tea moans at the light pressure of his leg pressing so pleasurably against her.
As Tea speaks, her voice is clearly affected by the pleasure her body is experiencing.]
Tea: I thought about you when I...
Todd: And, then you realized how unappealing that was and started thinking about someone else, right?
Tea: I only thought about you.
Todd: What exactly did you think about?
Tea: Your face. Your body. The way your body feels against mine. The way you kiss me. The way you look at me.
Todd: Did you think about stuff we haven't done yet?
Tea: Yes.
Todd: What?
Tea: Making love.
Todd: You mean...
Tea: Intercourse. I thought about what it would feel like to have you inside me.
[Tea moans as a slight wave of pleasure spreads through her body. She wants Todd to touch her, or to be able to touch herself...anything to increase the pleasure.
Todd sense her need for more and removes his arm from around her body and moves his leg enough so that his hand has room to move into place. Tea keeps his leg trapped between her legs, wanting as much contact with him as possible in this moment. As his hand caresses her pubic hair, she moans and tries to push herself harder into his hand, wanting more contact with him.]
Todd: What do you think it would feel like?
[Tea doesn't respond. Todd smiles as he listen to the sound of her breathing deeply as one of his fingers begins to slowly tease her clitoris.
Tea finally release his leg from between hers as she leans closer to him. She places her arm tightly around his body and holds onto him as she reaches her leg over him and places it on top of the side of the bathtub.]
Tea: Show me what it feels like.
Todd: We can't...
Tea: With your finger, show me.
Todd: Tea...
Tea: I want to feel you inside me.
[Todd removes the finger that had been pleasantly caressing her clitoris, but he keeps his hand pressed against her.]
Tea: You won't hurt me.
Todd: It can happen without that, can't it?
Tea: Yes, but...
Todd: But, you want me to...
Tea: Yes, I want you to...enter me. I want you to be inside me. I want you to feel it.
Todd: That...um...thing...that they write about in magazines?
Tea: Oh...well, sure, if you happen to find any pleasurable areas...
Todd: If that's not what you meant, what did you mean?
Tea: I want you to feel it when... I want you to feel the...
Todd: Just spit it out.
[Tea senses some irritation in his voice and worries that this could end without the intense orgasm she was hoping for, if she doesn't either spell it out for him, or drop the idea.]
Tea: I wanted you to feel my orgasm.
Todd: Oh...
Tea: Is that okay?
Todd: I don't need to feel that. I'm okay feeling what I was feeling.
Tea: I just thought that you might like to feel the reaction my body has to you.
Todd: It's dark in here. I know you have your eyes closed. I know you're probably thinking about some other guy, anyway. You probably want me to shut up right now so you can keep imagining whoever it is that's having this effect on you.
Tea: It's you. You have this effect on me. Your voice is helping me. You're body is helping me. Feeling you against me is helping me.
[Todd knows that she's referring to his penis which has been enjoying it's contact with Tea's naked body, despite the fact that it isn't receiving exactly the type of attention that it is throbbing in demand for, right now.
Just knowing that Tea is thinking about it, and enjoying its presence, causes Todd to try to pull away. Tea continues to hold onto him, not wanting him to pull away from her in this moment.]
Tea: Don't.
Todd: The water is getting cold again.
Tea: No, it isn't.
Todd: It's freezing.
Tea: I don't care.
Todd: So, you agree, it is freezing?
Tea: I don't care if it is or not. Don't stop. Don't run from this.
Todd: Who's running? I was just trying to be a gentleman and make sure the water was comfortable for you. If you don't care, let's just get this over with.
[Todd's finger again targets her clitoris, this time his motions are much faster than moments earlier.
A frustrated Tea pulls her leg back from the edge of the tub. Her hand quickly moves between their bodies and pulls his hand away from her.]
Todd: I thought you wanted...
Tea: Not like this.
Todd: Then, like how?
Tea: I was enjoying it before.
Todd: And, now you're not?
Tea: I don't want you to rush through this. I don't want you to do this when you don't really want to, just so you can get out of this tub and distance yourself from me again. Go ahead and distance yourself now, without finishing what you were doing. At least, this way, I won't feel...
Todd: You won't feel what?
Tea: It doesn't matter. Go ahead. Get out of the tub. Leave the bathroom. Leave our hotel room.
Todd: Are you telling me to get the hell out?
Tea: No.
Todd: Then, I'm not leaving.
Tea: I know you want to.
Todd: You don't know anything.
Tea: Why did it change?
Todd: What?
Tea: Your touch. It was... And, then it was...
[Tea wraps her arm around him again and leans into him. He knows that it's not a sexual embrace, but an emotional one. He holds onto her, too. Neither speaks for several moments as they comfort each other.]
Todd: Let's get out of here.
Tea: Okay.
Todd: We're not done with this, Tea. Not unless you want to be.
Tea: Then, let's finish here.
Todd: We've already been in here a long time. Let's do this where it's dry. And, where I won't be pressed against you like this.
Tea: I like that.
Todd: So do I...too much.
Tea: If we get out and you put something on, can our bodies still be pressed together while we do this?
Todd: Me being pressed against you at all is too much right now.
Tea: If we do this while not pressed together, can we lie in bed together immediately after?
Todd: Sure, if that's what you want.
Tea: I think...no, I know...that I'll want to be held by you after, especially if you can't hold me during.
Todd: This could all lead to disaster. Sex has always screwed everything up for me. Even just doing this will probably screw everything up.
Tea: It doesn't have to.
Todd: It always has.
Tea: Maybe we'll be different.
Todd: Do you really believe that?
Tea: I want to.
Todd: But, do you?
Tea: I believe that I want you to touch me. I want to have an orgasm because of you...because you're touching me, not just because I'm thinking about you while I'm touching myself. And, I believe that you want that, too. Am I right?
