Mood:  cheeky

I'm with him. Haha! Told you. :]

Everything worked out great.
I mean yeah, there are some crazy stuff in my life,
But at least one very good thing came out of it all.

My birthday is coming up!!
Can't wait to see what surprises I'll get. :D

 I love him soooo much! <3
Wilfred is mine.

[06.07.08]

Mood:  a-ok

Yeah so much has happened over the past months.

Im basically writing just to update on my life.
I am still single, yay me.
Still friends with Nestor & Wilfred.

Im growing farther apart from Nestor though.
I don't have the same strong sentimental feelings
that I've had for him before.
Everything has changed now,
and I just think of him as a friend.
I can't thin of anything more for now.

Wilfred I am still close to.
I still do have those strong feelings for him.
And I admit I would still lke to go back with him.
Yes very sad probably, I know.

Whatever I guess.
Im a senior now too!
Geez I don't know how this upcoming year will go.
First I must survive this summer.

What plans do I have? No clue.
Hopefully something unexpected but good will happen to me.
Last summer was good.

I miss having someone with me.
Pretty sad but it's true.

I really don't know how my life is going to be like,
without high school being a major part in my life.
I don't have a clue about college yet.
I really just don't want to be alone.

Alright well I keep blabbing on with no purpose.
So I will stop and continue with my boring life.
Blah, wish me luck on ending this year.

And with him. &hearts;

Mood:  chillin'

Blah, umm...
The reason why I haven't written anything this summer...
Well, let's just say there was a lot of drama.

I actually broke up with Nestor.
Omg! Shocked? =O

Yup, and that's not all.
I started to go out with Wilfred.
Oh my gosh ;; heart attack?!
Yesss.

How you ask?...
Let's just say, a crush can grow into something more.
Near the end of sophmore year, we started getting very close.
Mhm, very good friends. =]

I couldn't handle it anymore with Nestor.
He was too immature and wasn't giving me anything to hold on to.
I needed something more, besides he always leaves.
And of course, Wilfred was there for me.

You know how the story goes after that...

We dated for about a month.
Why?...because I dumped him.
I admit, it was a pretty stupid mistake.
But in a way, it helped us grow more...
To the point of love. &hearts;

The reason why I broke up,
Was because I thought I should try it again with Nestor.
One more time...
Man, that was dumb cause' nothing even changed.

Anywho, so I went out with Nestor again...
And then dumped him about another month later. =P
Yes im crazyy!

But you know what's even crazier than that?
I went back out with Wilfred less than a week later! =O
[crazy bitch]

We spent three happy months together. <3
But then, again!
My dumb brain fucked things up again.
My jealousy and everything got in the way.
And I started talking to him about the minor problems and so fourth.
Then I said I wanted a break...
Then we got together that same night.

The next day, Nestor came over & fucked up with my head.
So as soon as Wilfred called, I told him I needed a break again.
Next day, I didn't go to school & he though things through.
Called me that same night, and dumped me.

How nice is that?...
He said that he thought it was better off that we stay as friends.
This totally fucking sucks for me.
So now, we are right there.

It's been a month that I have been single.
And im still by his side. =]
Maybe there is a chance for us.
And I still want to fight for it.
He is someone very special to me.
There is really no one like him.

He's so different but I like that.
I admire him for so many things.
He is one of the greatest people I have ever met,
Even if he doesn't think that himself.

He cares for me as well,
And I have many sweet memories with him.
Sometimes he's very confusing lol.
But I still love him for everything.

I know this is all unexpected.
But I have to follow my heart, right?...

Im in winter break now,
So hopefully I can talk to him more.
And he still loves me.
That's all that matters to me at this point.

Im just here hopelessly waiting,
holding on to a tiny hope.

Wish me luck. =]

xoxo`&hearts;

Mood:  on fire

Authenticity is

Found in the ironic laugh dripping from Al Gore's patented shoes

Leaking from the diesel tank of David Suzuki's bus

Oozing from Edward Burtynsky's photography equiptment as he snaps shot after shot of our manufactured landscape.

Authenticity is

Found in the salty tear

Dripping from the Chinese worker's eye as she sews together Al Gore's shoes

Leaking from the pores of Bangladesh laborers, shipping off diesel for Suzuki's bus

Oozing from a hungry African girl, crouched in a diamond field

Watching Burtynsky eat a sandwhich and photograph her landscape.

Authenticity is the silence that falls on a casket after the final eulogy has been spoken.

 It's a child's gasp of horror, wonder or surprise as the world unfolds its mysteries, one gasp after another.

It's the two coins donated by a woman on welfare, versus the piles of bills offered by the rich.

It's the quiet heartbeat of humanity being dulled by layer upon layer of fast food & greed.

It's the groan of creation watching itself be stripped bare, unable to be heard.

Authenticity is a word whose definition we no longer understand.

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