-I laugh.-
My self expression in cyberspace has helped me in dealing with issues within, as well as helping me to socialize, date, and love here in my real world.
I must tell you that I am probably as honest a girl as you will ever see in this life and I really value that trait in me. I have lived a wicked life, and I really don't know why I'm still here. I have touched the hand of death many times, some were very violent, others just a matter of wasting away. I am, as a matter of fact, very glad to be here! That may not seem too apparent to you.
Another contradiction to what most see in me is that I am, in most aspects, a positive girl. I have nothing if I don't have hope. I have great respect as well as anxiety for moments to come. I get negative, or really pissed, or feeling hopeless just like everyone else, as you may have seen. But it passes rather quickly. I've seen a lot of shit, and it's amazing how the scheme of things can change so quickly.
I guess it's all in how you look at it.
I really believe that the only time we have is the moment we are living right now. Not the day, or the hour, or the year, but this precise moment. I am not saying that I only live for the moment, it's just that I only live the moment I have. I still have dreams, aspirations, goals, and I believe that I will be socially-acceptably successful in my life. I'm just not sure on what level.
I need to be loved. I have so much to share. It's hard keeping it all to myself. I have a lot to give. Someone is missing out. That may sound vain of me, but I know who and what I am, and what I have to offer. When love comes to me, I will be the happiest girl in the world. It will come, I'm sure, I guess I'm just not ready yet.
End of Part One.
Index
Spooky Thoughts
Field of Dreams
Origin of the Species
What I Want
My Philosphies
More of Me
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