"Why were you out at one last night driving around?" the black guy had a point, but I had a reason that was good no matter how bad it seemed I could left at one "I have my reasons." Here I was at McDonald's when should have left hours ago making excuses to a guy who I didn't know he just saw me driving around. "Here you go," said the guy behind the counter. I could have been on my way somewhere besides my grandmother's house WITH A BOYFRIEND FOR CHRIST SAKES A BACKSTREET BOY! AND I SCREWED UP BIG TIME JAMIE! I had set my food on the table and went to get my drink and ketchup when… "Jamie Hey I thought you were-" he stopped when he saw I had too much food on my tray "Hey whoa! That's enough food you want share it with me and one the other-" when there I saw Brian I said the first thing on my mind "Kev ya'll can have it all I told my grandmother I'd be there at well over an hour Cya." she managed "Wait Jamie we want know-" Nick was interrupted when Kevin kick him in the shin "I mean C'mon just call her on your cell and tell her you'll be running behind." "Besides we want you to stay." AJ had added "Jamie you have a great voice wasn't this what you wanted?" Howie looked at her with concerned, sad eyes "I know Howie but-" "But nothing just sit please," so I sat at the table beside them. Brian came out when Kev was going to tell me to move to there table. Brian sat another table closer to the back and motioned for me to go back there. I went towards him and before I opened my mouth he said "Before you say anything please listen I am sorry I should have listened to you and given you time, But you are the prettiest of all the girls I ever known and met. I-I well want you in my life more then anything. Don't tell me you think I am proposing because do you?" I shook yes then no meaning no I didn't know whether I thought or not but it had felt like one. "Jamie I don't no what you think, but I know you don't in your heart. When I first heard your voice I thought God this girl is beautiful and She has a fantastic voice no a wonderful voice. Last night I dreamt about you. I dreamt you-you y-" I could see it wasn't good I saw tears in his eyes "Brian if you don't want tell me then-" He put his palm up and said "No, I gotta tell you now or-never mind the or, but I'd been walking with the my friends back Kentucky and we saw a car drive by. We had walked up till we saw that same car turned over and I was married to you in the dream. The car was off the side of this and there were about four about people I knew all of them they were your friends three of them I heard Kev say "Oh God no this is not true man she's-" by then Harold had seen Kev did too and all I saw at first was a body then I came closer Kev tried to tell not to but did he didn't argue because he knew I'd see sooner later I look down the body was your there was blood on street I listened for heart beat it didn't you were gone. I said "You know I loved her more than anything not even a month we were married and she's gone why Kevin why?' I just cried the dream wasn't over it had gone on longer-" I looked into his eyes said "Bri please you don't need this I don't want to u to talk about it." he went on "I woke the next morning realized you weren't there called Mom and told her i had to talk to her she heard the me trying to keep the tears away and said come over now and I woke up from dream I had a feeling I was gone lose you I didn't want to and I told myself that made a mistake went to your room opened door you were gone so I got in my rental and went looking for you when I pulled in a gas station and saw you couldn't get out i was scared to then I waited till it was to late u left and I knew there was no point and trying to follow so i went back hotel I was glad I saw u today because I thought I'd never see you again." "Brian, Baby-" he interrupted me "Jamie I know you need your time so I'll give you time." Brian I know listen I don't need you to give time I need you to give love. Can you do that?" he gulped and nodded his head. He had tears in his eyes I pulled him closer and wrapped my arms around him.
That night after the show
Bri came in room that pretending he couldn't sleep and told me he need his mama and I guessed it was me that not because he could sleep but because he wanted more not from his Mom though. We sat and talked about everything kissed and everything you could think of. I couldn't have talked to anyone else about what I talked about with Brian. we talked for hours until we fell asleep (or I did).
the next morning
I woke in Brian's arms. I looked at him his eyes were of a beautiful blue. I could paint his face then hang up my wall and look at and notice anything else. I loved his facial structure his eyes oh God he interrupted me "Hey you better change and get ready to go you hungry this morning we were going down stairs and eat but if you don't want to we can stay up here and do whatever." we together I love him he's perfect everything he has is what I want he was what a girl wants like the song by Christina Aguilera "Bri if you don't-" "OK you want go head and get the shower I'll tell the guys to on down and meet them in the lobby later when we go shopping." Man he gave me chills he together that was what he meant by "we" so I knew he was going to be there beside me no matter what. I didn't want shower but needed one. by the time I got out was thinking but I wasn't aware that there was water on the floor or was it soap and I slipped on it. Thank God I didn't lock the bathroom. Brian ran in "What happen I heard you scream and now you're laughing what's so funny?" "I-just I mean" I giggled "Yeah, I slipped on soap and my legs aren't broken unless I am laugh so hard that I can't feel it a miracle a God but hell WA-oh jeep used those words in the same sentence lord oops." "I doubt it it's okay" he laughed "Brian" "Hmm mmm" "do me a favor and help me up," he helped me his hair smelled good and he had smelled photograph by safari. I use to by pretend he was there in my room and smelled as if it was him I was smelling like a little girl.
Brian never let me spend any money of mine. I used his credit card the whole time except when I bought him a present just for the heck of it I had to get and it was surprise. Every time we got to a corner, he kissed me. What every girl dreams of spending Brian Littrell credit card and getting kisses every time you turn the corner. "Baby what you want do now?" Nick and AJ mocked him and laughed "Guys I thinking we better eat cause we got meet bus at the hotel in hour." Kevin made it point. Brian looked at him and "Man what are you or better who do think you are our itinerary?" Brian looked and did things with his eyes that I love so much I laughed. "No, Brian we got to be there because some of us might need to wash our mouth out or brush there…" Brian started that thing where every time someone tries to open there mouth you interrupted them with a noise. AJ finally got him to stop when he asked, "Guys where do Ya'll want to eat?" Nick made it point to say "OH, I got since this little darling over here opinion is so important everywhere we go why don't we ask Mrs. Litt-" "Nick?" "Yup?" "Stop it and shut up OK?"
lunch
"Jamie?" "Hmm mmm" "Are you OK? You've been staring at that phone, do you want to use it?" Kevin inquired. "No, where's Brian?" "Right here, Sweetie. What do need?" Brian asked. "Nothing now you're here." I was scared Brian had been in there too long. He interrupted me with a kiss making me realize everything was fine. There was nothing to worry about so I finished. We talked and finished lunch, and left in time to meet the bus at hotel. When we got there I had realized that I wasn't told the bus was smaller and looked Brian he shrugged. "OK C'mon guys." The bus driver said and I hung my phone up "Who was that Jamie?" Nick asked concerned "Mr. Wright." then said Kevin 'should have told me and Brian I wasn't going to ride." "Did you tell him he told AJ?" "Yea I did he said that AJ shouldn't be his excuse." I sat there trying to think for while Brian asked me if I needed him to go with me. I said no. By the time they had gotten on, Brian kissed me and said "Baby, are you sure? I really don't want leave and have you say that you needed me." I shook my head he said OK, kissed me, and the bus left. When it was gone, I felt a tap on my shoulder it was Brian I smiled he said he wanted to stay and kissed me again but it lasted a little bit longer and he used his tongue.
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