Chapter 31
"AJ, it's me Jayme." Jayme spoke into the phone as she sat on an airplane awaiting her arrival.
"Hey girl what's up?"
"Funny you should say that."
"What?"
"Nothing, look I land in about half an hour so can you pick me up?"
"You bet."
"Good, and you didn't tell anyone I was coming."
"Nope."
"Thanks AJ, your the greatest."
"I know."
"Shut up." Jayme laughed. "I'll see you soon okay?"
"Okay bye."
"Bye."
Jayme rested her head on the small pillow the flight attendants had provided for her, she had bought a ticket as soon as she had hung up with AJ getting the next flight out to Tampa, Florida. She had to see Nick and right away. She was dying inside being away from him and knowing he loved her, it was what she had dreamed of for so long and something so stupid was not going to keep them apart. She wouldn't let it. She loved him and no matter what it took she would be with him.
She smiled when she remembered what he had said that night, he was in love with her and had been since the first time he laid eyes on her. Why had she stayed with Jake, and manipulated so many people? And why now did she not tell Nick she trusted him, when she did more than anything? Why the fuck was everything so messed up?
Whatever the reason, whatever the cause, she would fix it. She loved Nick, and she couldn't say it enough. She was so relieved to finally have admitted it to herself and to him.
"Soon Nick, soon. I promise." She said to herself as she slipped on her headphones and pulled a magazine out of her bag. She leaned back and tried to concentrate on the magazine, the music, the people around her, but all that flashed through her mind was Nick. The way he smelled, the way his hair stood up in the morning, the way he sang, and his eyes. His love. Everything. She loved everything about him.
She glanced at her watch and sighed, "not too much longer. Just hang in there." It was so hard waiting. She tried to imagine what he would say, what he would do. Would he tell her he loved her and wanted to be with her? She could only hope, if he didn't she didn't know what she would do.
Her worst fear was that he would say he was over her, or never loved her, or didn't wanna be with her. She turned to stare out the window as a tear rolled down her cheek. She felt so much pain just at the mere thought of his rejected.
There was only one solution, Nick HAD to wanna be with her.
Jayme heard the flight attendant announce that were preparing to land and she gathered her belongings. She was so nervous she thought she might throw up, or faint or not have the courage to see Nick, and might board a plane home right away.
She took a deep breathe and exited the plane along with everyone else. She wandered around the airport looking for AJ. She began to worry when she didn't spot him, and had to stop and relax. She rubbed her temples and sighed, everything was gonna be okay she just had to stay calm.
"Jayme!" She turned to see AJ yelling for her.
She smiled and stood up grabbing her bags and running towards him. She laid her luggage down and hugged him immediately. "God I've missed you."
"I've missed you too, and so has Nicky."
"I've missed him too." Jayme said releasing him and looking into his eyes. "AJ?"
"Yeah."
"Take me to him, take me to Nick."
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Jayme wiped away the remaining tears on her cheek as AJ pulled into Nick's driveway. She had been so nervous and excited that she broke down crying on the way to see Nick, thankfully AJ understood and just held her hand the entire time. She turned to see her luggage in AJ's back-seat and sighed not feeling up to carrying it all.
AJ obviously read her mind and said, "I'll bring it to you later okay."
"Thank you. For everything."
"No problem, I love both you and Nick, you both deserve to be happy."
Jayme just nodded and stepped out of his car and watched as he left. She took a deep breathe and smoothed her hair back and turned to look at Nick's home. It was large, and very nice and she giggled as she thought about how messy it probably was.
She gasped when she saw Nick step outside with a basketball and make his way to the side of the house to play ball.
She only began breathing again when she realized Nick had not noticed her standing at the end of his driveway and she walked to where he was.
Her eyes peered over the side of the house and she looked over Nick's body appreciatively. He had taken off his shirt and was only wearing a pair of shorts. He did have a great body and Jayme had to fight the urge to run to him and touch him. She walked up behind him and cleared her throat. She closed her eyes briefly, and opened them to see Nick's body frozen, his back still facing her.
"I realized something today." She spoke softly.
She watched him as he exhaled and slowly turned to face her, gasping softly when he came face to face with her. His face showed no emotion as he stared at her with his mouth closed, not knowing what to say at all.
She lowered her head for a moment and then looked back at him needing to say how she felt, "I lied to you, so many times. I lied to myself and I can't do that any longer."
He still stood still showing no emotion and not speaking. His heart was pounding in his chest and he held the ball tightly needing to hold onto something, he had seen her standing at the end of his driveway but had thought that it was either his imagination or she would come to him if she wanted to. And he'd known for sure it was her when she cleared her throat, he had felt her coming closer, he didn't know how but he had. He didn't know what to say, he didn't know if the right words would come out so he stayed silent. He needed to hear what she said.
She continued trying to read his facial and body expressions. "I have loved you for so long, I didn't want to admit it to myself because I was scared and I didn't admit it to you because I thought you would break my heart. Like Jake did, but I never loved him, I never felt for him what I do for you. Not even close. I just figured he was safe ya know, as long as I didn't love him he couldn't hurt me. With you, with you I loved you so much that it hurt me just to see you, especially with Lindsay, so I knew I couldn't be with you. But I need to be, you know you sing songs about not being able to live without someone else or someone completing you and you never know what it means until you feel it. Now I write those songs from experience. Because as weird as it sounds Nick you complete me. You are apart of my soul that I've needed for so long, and I lied to you for so long. I lied to so many people. And I manipulated you and Jake and everyone and I'm through with that, I love you Nick and I wanna be with you and only you. Tell me you love me Nick, I need to hear it."
"Jayme, I can't..."
"No, Nick. Please don't. I couldn't stand it if you told me that you didn't love me anymore. Please I need to hear it."
"God, Jayme I never stopped loving you. Ever. I told you from the first time I laid eyes on you I loved you and that love only grew. And Lindsay, she wasn't for me. I just needed to take my mind off of you. Besides she was just trying to hook me and you up. Her and AJ were in on it together."
"What?"
"Yeah, but I didn't love her. I didn't. You have to know that."
"I know now. But tell me you love me, I need to know."
"Not until you tell me you trust me. I'll still believe you Jayme. Please."
"That's another thing Nick..."
"Please don't tell me you don't trust me Jayme, I need you to trust me."
"If I tell you I trust you I make myself vulnerable to you and then I open up my heart for pain."
Nick took a step closer to Jayme dropping the basketball and taking her hands in his and rubbing her palm with his thumb. "I love you Jayme, loving you means I would never intentionally hurt you. Jake didn't love you and he hurt you, I DO love you doesn't that tell you anything?"
"I'm scared." She squeaked. And it was true, she WAS scared. She started to shake and was thankful Nick took her into a hug and tried to warm her body. He knew what he was doing to her and she smiled when she knew no matter what she did it was working.
"Don't be scared." He told her, kissing the top of her head and playing with her hair. God how he had wanted to touch her hair for so long, kiss her, love her. He still hadn't kissed her but knew that when they did it would be the most amazing kiss ever. He knew being with her would be amazing, he felt the need for her in the pit of his stomach and shifted his body around hers hoping she wouldn't feel what he was feeling...
"Nick, in my mind that night I wanted to tell you I trusted you so badly but I couldn't get the words out." She began crying again hugging him even tight.
"Shhh...its okay I understand. Jayme," he released her and looked into her eyes, "tell me now."
"Nick," she started fighting back a sob. "I trust you, I trust you with all of my heart. Now please tell me you still love me."
"I love you." Nick barely spoke those beautiful words before his lips crashed into hers needing to be as close to her as possible. Her body was so warm and he needed to feel her, every inch of her, show her how much he loved her and show her she could trust him.
Jayme moaned into his mouth and wrapped her arms around his neck. She felt him wrap his arms around her back and pull her into his chest. Her eyes widened when she felt how excited he was. Good God...
Nick picked up Jayme and carried her to his door never breaking the kiss and trying not to drop her, he knew if he didn't get inside soon both of them would get carried away and the neighborhood would see far too much.
Nick stepped into his house kicking shut the door with his foot and walking up the steps to his room, he broke the kiss with Jayme trying to catch his breathe. "I love you," he gasped.
"God Nick I love you too." Jayme said kissing him even more deeply.
Nick set Jayme down when he reached his door and kicked it open while he pulled her shirt over her head. He smiled when he saw the lost expression on Jayme's face as she stared at her bare chest and then his. "You like?" He asked with an innocent smile on his face.
Jayme only nodded not taking her eyes off his chest, he was so beautiful. She sucked on her breathe when she felt Nick's hands pull on her pants as he pushed her into his room and too the foot of his bed. Jayme's eyes were wide and she began crying at the look in Nick's eyes.
Nick noticed her tears and stopped pulling at her pants, "what's wrong?"
"It's real Nick? Right? This is real, WE are real. Really real?"
"Forever baby, forever."
"Your mine and only mine?"
"And your mine."
Jayme responded by pulling her pants off and watched closely to see Nick's reaction, she so wanted him to love her body. She smiled widely when she saw his mouth hanging open and his eyes so full of love, passion, and desire.
He lifted her up and laid her onto the bed laying on top of her, kissing her neck, face, lips, stomach, arms....everything. He wanted to kiss every inch of her. "Jayme, I wanna make you feel so good."
"Your starting out great." She spoke softly running her hands through his hair. Never in her life had she known such pleasure, and couldn't believe she was with Nick, he was the one making her feel so good.
"Tell me one more time." Nick pleaded finding his way to her belly button and sucking on her skin.
"I trust you Nick, and I love you." She let out a soft moan and pulled on his hair yelling out, "God Nick I love you so much."
Nick only grinned, "I love you too Jayme, forever...."
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