Chapter 2
February 2, 1999
Dear Justin's Diary:
Hey, this is JC. I didn't know that Justin was keeping this diary... I saw
him writing things on a notebook, but that was years ago. Anyway, he asked
me to share my feelings with him, and that's just what I'm about to do.
We met when we were in the Mickey Mouse Club, of course now every teenage
girl (and many boys) in the world know our complete lives, so I won't bother
telling you when did that happen and stuff... I felt something for him
right away, but it wasn't love, I guess I just felt protective... well, I'd like
to think that I didn't feel something for a kid, I'm not like that.
He was so childish... he still is! Ooow, he just hit me for saying that. I
told him to go away while I write this, he can make me dinner, hehe. So,
for many years I was like his mother, someone would make him cry and I would
be there to console him. We were best friends and hung out together, although
I sometimes felt a little embarrassed, he is five years younger than me,
after all.
Suddenly, there was no more MMC and I went back home, thinking that I will
never see again any of the people I met there, including Justin. You know
that saying... something about that you never know what you have until you
loose it? well, that's exactly what happened. The days went by and I couldn't
think of anything but that blonde curly kid and his perky attitude... his
round tight butt... oops!
One day, I was feeling down and he called, he told me that he was in this
new group, that maybe we could make it, and that they were missing a singer.
Of course I said yes, it would mean the chance to be with him again. When
he saw me, he jumped in excitement and I wanted to kiss those sexy lips...
We started with all those rehearsals and sometimes I couldn't help but to
be a complete bitch. I felt that we were too similar to the Fagstreet
Gays... haha, I shouldn't be so mean, but they made me mad when they called us 'N
Suck and 'N Stink... later I had my revenge... but that's another story, and
maybe Justin shouldn't hear from it.
What else? well, when the dancing began, I couldn't believe what my eyes
saw, Justin was so hot... I know that most people sin when they see the video
where he appears in his wifebeater, you know, showing his armpits and
stuff... I was actually mad that our management made him do that just to sell
more records, but I was also enjoying the view. It was even better, because I
had the real thing, even if it was from a distance. He insisted in sharing
rooms with me and I was happy to comply.
He was always under the covers and changed in the bathroom... on few
occasions did I get the chance to see his little butt in his underwear. He didn't
know this... he'll find out now, but when we slept together, and he would
snuggle up with me, I couldn't help but to throw a bone... I rubbed it on his
soft buns and I would caress his body a little. A couple of times I even
had the nerve to feel his balls and dick through his shorts!!! I know, I'm a
pervert, but I couldn't help it. He wasn't that little anymore, like 16
already, and his cock sure wasn't that of a little child, he's well endowed...
here I go again, bad JC!
Since I was so horny, I had to find someone to get off, maybe I'll tell
Justin of those times. But when I was fucking someone, I could only think of
him, squirming under me while I plowed his little hole. And with time, he has
only become hotter, I couldn't help but stare at his ass all the time, just
longing...
So, it was that way until the day before yesterday, it was Justin's
birthday and I bought him some presents, I never know what to get him, it has to
be something expensive though. I was planning on getting a big cake and then
get inside it with just my underwear, you know, and then come out and jump
him, hahaha. Just joking.
At night we went to this club and I don't know what got into me, but I
drank a lot, well, I didn't take so many drinks, but they were strong. Justin
had to bring me home, I wasn't actually that drunk, but I was enjoying the
attention. I felt him getting the room's key and he actually rubbed my crotch!
Then, he took my shoes and socks off, touching my toes. When he was
unzipping my pants, I had to get up, because I didn't want to get a stiffy right
there. He helped me to the bathroom, and well, when we came back I had to
take my chances. I told him how much he meant to me and that he was my whole
world.
I stared at him and saw something in his eyes giving me the go-ahead. I
leaned forward and I kissed his lips softly, barely. He backed off and looked
at me surprised, I was like, fuck! I really did it this time... I
thought that I was wrong and that maybe my imagination had gone too far.
All kind of thoughts raced through my mind at once, what if he hates me now,
maybe I'll have to leave the group and never see him again... fuck! fuck!
fuck!
Something snapped me out of this, he told me he loved me too. I couldn't
believe my ears, what if I was really drunk and making up stuff? I figured
that I could always blame the alcohol for my acts, so I went for it. I started
kissing his lovely face, like I had always dreamed of.
I had to touch his naked body, I could never have imagined the feeling of
taking his shirt off, expose those muscles... I ran my tongue over his
nipples, I wanted to swallow him complete. Then I took off his shoes and socks. I
didn't stop there because I was too horny already. I unbuttoned his pants
and took them off too.
I felt I was going to explode when I had him in his white boxer briefs! I
almost ripped off my clothes, I couldn't get undressed fast enough. We were
both in our underwear and I couldn't keep my hands off his butt.
Finally, the big prize was awaiting for me, my reward after all these
years... I slowly uncovered him. It was like when you get your presents for
Christmas, you kinda know what you'll get, but no one can take away the look of
happiness on your face...
I could feel his heart beating loudly when I began to lick him all over. I
got his balls in my mouth. The smell and the taste were intoxicating. I
licked his shaft, savoring him little by little. When I got to the head, his
eyes were closed and his mouth open, trying to breathe.
I don't know why, but we never talked about our sexual partners, I guess
that I didn't want to find out that he was screwing someone and then it would
be painful for me. And I figure he felt the same way. When we were younger
he used to ask me about stuff, because it's always less embarrassing to ask
your best friend, and I told him what he wanted to know, but it was just
like that.
Anyway, I thought that he was having sex with every girl he could, later
he told me that he was saving himself for me. I was touched and I regret I
didn't do the same, but who could have known?
Back to the good part, I sucked him until he came and I swallowed every
drop of his sweet nectar. I hope he has a good reserve, because I intend to
drink it all.
I still had doubts at that moment, maybe it was all a moment of horniness,
and I couldn't make him do anything else.But I was wrong! he was eager to
experiment, so he made his own trip down my body. I thought I was going to
sprinkle him right there... haha, how gross! but it's true. He licked my chest
and my navel. When he got to my cock, it was like reaching nirvana or
something. I felt just too lucky.
And the best part, he was willing to go further! he asked me to make love
to him and take his virginity. Never in my wildest dreams could I have
thought that this day would arrive.
I was shaking, but I couldn't let him down and besides, I would have sold
my soul for this moment to happen, so I wasn't about to chicken out in this
moment. I kissed him for a long time while I was rubbing his ass. I had him
lay face down on the bed and got a good look at the place where my dick was
going in. I swear that I've never been so horny in my life, I could have
melted ice with my hands...
With my tongue I reached for his virgin unexplored rosebud. I ran it
through every wrinkle, all along that hairless paradise. I worked on him for what
it seemed to me like hours, but actually no more than 15 minutes or so. I
was so anxious... still I didn't want to hurt him, I wanted him to remember
this night his whole life as something beautiful, not just a guy humping him
and getting his nuts off.
I turned him over and asked him one more time if he was sure. When he said
he was, I started the first penetration of his life. It would be hopefully
the first of many times together. He was sweating and grimacing. I couldn't
help but to feel extremely aroused, even if I was somewhat worried.
When I got all of myself inside him, I let him get used to the feeling.
After some more minutes, I started thrusting back and forth. His insides were
like some hot velvety stuff and my dick felt awesome. I knew he
was now experimenting pleasure too, he was smiling at me and moaning. I
kissed him the whole time. I can't get enough of his lips.
Finally I couldn't contain anymore and I came with a force I had never
felt before. He did too. I kept my arms around him and we slowly drifted to
sleep...
When we woke up in the morning, I saw his face, so peaceful and smiling. I
know that this is where I belong, home is wherever Justin is.
We will have a difficult time being together. The world is still not ready
for us to be completely happy, but I sure as hell won't give up. Justin, as
you read this, I want you to know that I will love you forever.
Josh.
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