Mood: incredulous
Topic: Reflections
You know the number of times I've gotten shafted recently has been off the charts. I mean hell, the total number just managed to exceed the combined total for the last decade in just the span of a year. And I keep asking myself the damned questions: how bad can it be? can't get worse than this can it? Good lord I mean how much of a douchebag of a mofo can I be. Oh jeez, I bet that's gonna turn into the next golden question.
So on to better things (or so I think). The list of how to patch up my god damned hurt self. Well, its got to be the goodbyes. I think to myself, if there's one thing that I've got still in me, it's got to be the dramatic factor. That's the only killer ammo left in me. All else has been shot to hell, don't ask why (oh wait, you should know why). Goodbyes without a chance for response from the other party. One that jabs them at the side and they'll continue to bleed at it for quite awhile. I've done this once before to a lovely girl whom I once had feelings for but only did it at a time when my feelings for her had dissipated. So it was done to maximum effect - she still felt the effects years later and it was only through my good graces that I closed that wound up for her. Now ain't that swell - years people, years... So how do I replicate that effect when I've just got shafted or in the midst of being shafted. That means my fragile feelings are still in play and that tends to put a damper on the intended form. You see this one sided goodbye thing needs the most important factor - form. A nonchalant hard hitting arrow right to the side. And when in doubt, can end disatrously. The years have taught me many things and now at the grand old age of ahem... I have nearly mastered the art. So that's what I'm going to do. Rack up a list (well it ain't that big anyway) of these people and then fire away. Imagine poignant and causing massive internal trauma.
Ok in the next post, how I'm coping with workplace douchebags who think I'm a douchebag when they are asswipes and asshats.