Well this would be the first day I write in this thingy…so I better make this one count*rolls eyes*... Anywho today was pretty even, I think I’m always in a grumpy mood. I got pissed at this one girl at school, but I prefer not to talk about that in here cuz it’s kinda personal. Then after that one of the subs. pissed me off becuz she got on to heather for drawing on me….Oh well I suppose.
Yesterday was more exciting, I went to Exxon to watch my sister work, which was pretty amusing, cuz I think I may work there this summer, hopefully, cuz I need a job pretty bad. I’ll need something to do to keep my mind off of wanting a cig. I think if I worked and was busy all the time, then I would never have time to smoke. I’m changing my life around. I may ever start going back to church, but I honestly doubt it cuz I don’t believe in that stuff. Trudy wants me to go with her on Sundays, then after church go to work with her. Sometimes I wish I was somebody else, becuz I know I messed up in this life. I could name all the things I wish I could go back and do all over again, but I know I can’t. I try so hard not to get mad easily, but you just don’t know how hard that is
On to a non-depressing subject. There really isn’t much to say, my head went blank…I really wish I had a cig. Now, people say they don’t see how hard it could be to quit smoking…well whenever they start smoking then they wont have shit to talk about, becuz it is hard to quit…I don’t think its as much as an addiction, but you do it cuz you have nothing else to do…It all comes from boredizom!...Right…or am I just crazy for thinking that…? I don’t know… I don’t know anything anymore… I think I’m going to go insane * falls in floor *… ouch…that actually hurt…
The rest of the night went pretty good. Brandon and Mike came over and we chilled for a while. We were gonna go riding around, but mike had to leave early, so he left and me and brandon just sat around talking about insects and stuff..well i guess i'm gonna get off here becuz i'm tired!!