US FRIENDS - A B T V

Thursday, July 25, 2002

life goes on

im totally all for that.............you go teri!!!!!!!!!!!

u dont need that....u dont need to be treated liike that. u say...u apologized. u are sorry and u told them.....
and if they dont get that. even though u told them over and over again. the ball is in their court and there is nothing you can do about it.
life goes on and u cant wait for them........ especially if they are not helping themsleves.

life is not suppose to be waisted on those little battles and misundertandings that keeps u down. friends arent like that. they should always be there for each other......

im so happy when u wrote that message on my post. it made me feel so nice. thank you. we will get through this......i cant wait to see you holiday snaps!

as for me....im ok......... i will write more....just cant think right now........i like writing...

arvin
:: posted by us friends 11:40 AM [+]

Wednesday, July 24, 2002

my lack of thought, a few revelations and one less "friend" later

I did something wrong. i was intoxicated at the time and i admit it was stupid and i apologised profusely-many-times-over. i was drunk and when youre drunk u just dont think the way you would when u are in a normal unintoxicated state, you dont think about the consequences and what effects there are on the people around you. what i did was not aimed to personally offend anyone.

and before u all condemn me, no i did not go and snog someone elses boyfriend when i was drunk. i simply left a party i was at to go get some money from an atm without telling a certain person who naturally got worried.
so for the past month i have been apologising and calling myself stupid and explaining myself. i did not understand why all this seems to have blown out of proportion. recently i have found out that this person believed i was somehow personally attacking her by leaving the party. again i apoligised and clearly explained that my leaving had nothing to do with her. i did not hatch some plan to sneak away from the party. i was intoxicated! i was not capable of making rational or clever decisions, in fact the only thought thru my mind was that i wanted money to buy more drinks and i needed an atm for that!
I did not expect to be completely forgiven, i mean shit i was thoughtless and this person clearly was worried when i having downed a few drinks suddenly dissapeared. what i did expect though was an acceptance of my story as the truth! i just wanted to get some money for f*cks sake! i did not say to myself "im leaving to spite this person". But as it turns out some people just cant get past the little fantasies they have built for themselves in their little minds. ive run out of apologies and am sick of talking in circles.

i refuse to further debase myself and kiss someones ass when that someone clearly enjoys getting their ass kissed and would hold this mistake of mine over my head for the rest of my life just so their ass can be perpetually kissed! im no glutton for punishment. i dont need or want "friends" who do that sort of shit! my advice to people like that is to get over yourselves.

if people expect me to kowtow and kiss the ground they walk on (for the rest of their lives) as well as kiss their ass (and believe me i can do a hell of a lot of ass kissing) they can just kiss my own ass GOODBYE!

teri

:: posted by us friends 9:03 PM [+]

Friday, July 19, 2002

hey everyone!

thoughts...

"i just realise that life is not just having a PERFECT chiselled face and beautiful sexy body" and "im not just very very GOOD looking, im also....ummmm..." that is so funny and "of course i CARE about what i do. do i know what i am doing? ....NO." § lines from zoolander (not exact lines, but close). it was pretty funny.

now to the subject. some of my friends THINK (maybe believe) i love myself too much or that they think that i think i am so good. yeah. well of course i think im pretty good. i mean i dont think im crap. when i do something that i am proud of accoding to MY † standards. i give myself a compliment. i pat myself on the back for job well done. doesn't anybody?

its just weird that they think im so full of myself and LOVE ♥ myself. actually i have my days where i criticize the stupid things that i do but i also praise the great things that I « DO.

♠ another issue is that i can be PLASTIC and FAKE bcoz → i compliment too much and basically sucking up. i dont. i want the person to know how good they are and the great job that they do and let them know how i feel. its nice being complimented or praised. right? right!

thats the other thing ‡ i can be somewhat too honest. "honesty...is such a lonely word" and its great when u have friends that understand that even though some people have bad points and i tell them, at least they know what they are doing is something that ANNOYS me and can be wrong. didnt say wrong....can be. and u can learn from that. maybe....maybe NOT......but dont we all deserve the truth?

i know somethnig about me. i contradict myself coz once something or another changes my mind and i realize my mistake i CHANGE and coz of that i try not to judge and presume too early. give them a chance. we all NEED a chance.

enough about that..........here is the jist......

¤ enjoying my winter uni break/holidays! freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
¤ my family is all good! we're ALL home.......we can text phils now...its heap too! anytime!!!!!
¤ my aunt is getting so much better and there is good news about her cancer so we're having a thanksgiving prayer/barbeque at their place this weekend.
¤ i cant wait for amali's b-day. its at night though.....anyways. hope everyone turns up (roya, hosai, meb, jos, viv, beenz, amali of course and zeena i doubt)
¤ ness emailed me to do that winter sleep out....thats amali's party.....and i doubt i am allowed.
¤ paulo called and we might go out driving next week with shannon and sarah....cool fun. i asked how everyone was and he said that he has no news...ok....everyone else like john and eddie are at work so.........i have to email john to fix the virus sooooon.....
¤ i cant wait to put up my new layout/design....i love doing it......i could sit and design and stuff all day..which i actually do...lol. i know im not the best but i like the stuff i come out with. I think its cool.
¤ i still cant belive roya called me a few days ago just to talk and catch up....its so nice.....wish her luck in her job thing.
¤ jos emailed me this letter and i emailed her back...somethnig deep..........cant say...she hasnt emailed me back.
¤ meb bought a new lap top......cool!!!!! i want one too!
¤ viv calls me too....i say try and call other people coz i might be too boring and she says what can i say to them and they have jobs and might be busy.....anyways i cant make her call others....but i think she'll call them....coz she doesnt have the net to post or email everyone.
¤ i have not heard from bec, teri, cat, sumrah and carol but i heard we're gonna do something b4 the holidays end.
¤ im so happy i have the net and just doing stuff but i wish i had a job.......anyways..its ok
¤ cant wait for TLC's album to come out on spring!
¤ did u know that toni collete the australian/international actress from muriel's wedding is blacktown girl1
¤ im starting this project on stuff i like..on web....i'll gather some info., pics and stuff and see how i go...something fun to do!
¤ lunch was yummy.....my parents cook nice!

arvin's at the moment!

@ the moment
time:thu 4:15pm - july 18, 2002
feeling:excellent!
wearing:green jumper and dark brown pants...comfy clothes
sitting:at home
thinking:everything is great
wanting:to go clubbing
wishing:get credit for all my subjects and the virus from my pc to go.
weather:sunny day!
drinking:none
eating:none
hearing:angelina - lou vega
watching:the big arvo
chatting/with:no one
surfing for:offline
looking forward to:lotsa stuff....told u above
reminiscing when:swimming in the warm summer sun
how about now:just chillin!

picks.rants.raves
» tv: alais, gilmore girls, malcolm in the middle, friends, CSI, sex and the city, StarGate, friends, smallville, simpsons and day time tv shows
» movies: zoolander=4 | last castle=4
» reading monster - christopher pike:
» obsession: web design
» playlist - music:
→ nelly -hot in here
→ toya - friday party all night (no matta what)
→ default - waisting my time
→ vanessa carlton: thousand miles
→ aaliyah - loose rap
→ p.diddy feat usher - i need a girl
→ kylie - love at first sight
→ destinys child - dangerously in love
→ stupid love - andrew e feat. salbakuta
→ eminem - without me
→ michelle branch - if u want to

ok dokes!
later,
God bless!
arvin
:: posted by us friends 1:47 AM [+]

Monday, July 08, 2002

Im Baaack!

Hello all. it is i, teri. i much enjoyed my holiday wish i could have stayed longer, although i must admit having flushing toilets and running water and finally being able to have a relaxing bath was very good incentive for coming back. ah and to see all my friends again of course!

So people, when are we all getting together? before the holidays end okay?

later mates!
:: posted by us friends 7:02 PM [+]