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Monday, 26 April 2004

i have not written anything good


Topic: Creepy Lesbo

I have not written anything good.
I have not looked at anything with a different eye.
I have not been anywhere and woken from my daydream to notice the world around me.

I have not spoken to someone who made me want, need, laugh, cry, or recoil.
I have not curled into my knees, wishing that something were over.
I have not stood gaping at a half chopped potato, realising something about myself - something simple but true, something that's always been true.

I have not avoided a mirror, not wanting to meet my own eye.
I have not reminisced.

I have sung the same lyric over and over and over and over, trying to make the words hurt enough to stop.
I have not measured my success by this or that or the other.
I have not been your sounding board.

I have not telephoned you.
I have not done that brave thing that still waits for me to catch up to it.
I have not hidden from myself inside a habit that dulls me.
I have not tried something new.

I have not travelled, and if I did, I did not arrive.
I have not blogged for you.

I have a task that will take me twelve hours of each day this week and sixteen of Thursday so the blog, the stories, the tales of piteous woe, and -snif- the mad random dating, will retire until Friday sets me free.

Till then, I advise you to close your eyes, think of something pretty, something you feel obligated to keep or to possess, examine it, turn it, let your mind touch it, hold it slightly too tightly, turn it this way and that, see how it looks back at you, look for fear in its eyes, feel how your touch warms it, wonder if you'll be able to let go.

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Updated: Monday, 26 April 2004 10:44 PM BST
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Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 1:42 AM BST

Name: paul
Home Page: http://noxturne.blogspot.com

Excellent. I love "I have not telephoned you."

Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 3:13 AM BST

Name: chrysalis

I am partial to....."I have sung the same lyric over and over and over and over, trying to make the words hurt enough to stop".

Positive thoughts/prayers/vibes(whichever you hold belief in) headed your way from the States......keep your chin up!!

Catch ya on the flip-side.......=)

Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 4:43 AM BST

Name: Lux
Home Page: http://www.shylux.blogspot.com

"I have not travelled, and if I did, I did not arrive."

Ace.

Hope your week goes as quickly as possible.

Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 10:05 PM BST

Name: Tony
Home Page: http://www.tonymcl.blogspot.com

Vanessa - terrific stuff, I loved it. Regards, Tony

Thursday, 29 April 2004 - 6:34 PM BST

Name: ellie
Home Page: http://pinkadelic.typepad.com/body

This is the kind of writing I hunger for when scanning for new blogs. Delicious. Can't wait to read your archives.

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