blah...starchy...
It's been a semi-productive day today. I emailed my school counselor for information about my transcripts and courses I need to take and she wrote back promptly. I'm glad too, because I really need to figure out what I'm going to do before the end of August. I also trekked over to Music Central to get my flute fixed. It might take up to two weeks, but that's okay because it's been broken much much longer than that. ^.^;; I also went online and searched for scholarships that I'm eligible for and I found about 20. That's not bad, and I plan to apply for every single one. Financial aid is a big thing for me because I'd like to mostly support myself. Well, a lot of those essays are really easy so I'll just crank something out that reeks of good Sophie quality ^.^;

I bought a really pretty skirt, some jeans, and uh.. a wallet yesterday. I'm content with all ..er...three. The skirt is so pretty! Eric says it shows off my figure. I say it makes me look like a creme puff. Then again, we typically differ in opinion when it comes to my appearance. Ah, well, if it attracts the opposite sex (or the same ^.~) I don't mind. Just don't ask me out. ^.^;

The plants on our patio are dying. Poor little ferns. Stupid heat wave.

Ooh! I found a game store not too far from here! I am SO going to apply! Now if only I could find the stupid phone number... I mean, hello? Hasn't anyone ever heard of the YELLOW PAGES?? Wait..wait..no, they're gamers. They never leave the house. Hmm... ^.^

Aww..I wish I had another frosty...I need something cool until sunset : \ The pool outside is looking mighty tempting but I'd die of heat stroke before I'd let anyone see me in a swimsuit again. CASE CLOSED.

Hi ho, Hi ho, It's off to work I go...
*whine whine whine whine whine whine whine*
Hi ho! Hi ho, Hi ho, Hi ho!

Yours Dehydratedly,
Ph0s!e

Current Read: Yellow Pages
Current Mood: dizzy/headachy but still kickin'!
Current Music: "Blitzkrieg Bop" by the Ramones

Been a looong time...
Wowza, I really need to update this more frequently. I completely forgot I had a blog for a week until somebody mentioned it. My bad.

I finally updated Ph0s!e.tk. What a waste of an afternoon. Then again, it's better than battling my black hole of a room. And these nasty bees keep entering through my screen (there are no holes! they're magical death bees!) and dying all over the place. It's quite the sick.

I got a package from Neil a couple days ago that totally rocked. The dude lives in LA so he sent me some fliers for things in Hollywood and whatnot. Oh, I want to go see old 3d movies!! wahhh!!! Damn this stupid murderous community! He's a vegetarian like I am so he also sent this menu for a Chinese cuisine that serves no meat, and only soy/tofu/veggie products. *drools* And man, can Neil dance. I'm so envious!!

I haven't played DDR in a couple days because of the scorching weather and lack of AC. I'm not about to pass out playing a video game. I'll leave that to "the guys." ^.^;;

Grr...I haven't watched any anime in ages. It's annoying not to know how .hack//sign ends!!! It got soooo exciting! GRAAAAH!!! Stupid suspense!

All I ate today was frosted flakes. It's amazing what I can survive on when pushed to the edge. Oh, and lemonade (calorie-free, I might add).

I wish I wasn't so stupidly clingy. Two days go by after talking to Eric, and I start getting fidgety. It's a wonder our friends put up with us... we're the naive/cutesy/annoyingly-obsessive couple. I wouldn't have it any other way : D

ooohhhh...it's 4am....i gotta go (eep!)
~Ph0s!e
to eric: *muah!* sleep well!

*burp*
Excusez-moi! : )

I just had a tasty Rubio's meal (cheese enchilada with hot sauce, sour cream, guacamole, and salsa plopped on top..mmm... and a fish taco), so you can't really blame me. ^.^;;

Humm..it's been a couple days since my last entry. Basically all I've done is go check out the Art Institute of California in SD (niiice place..I drooled when I saw the art tables and computer labs), go to Ikea and pick up nifty picchur frames to frame my posters, and do all my laundry/clean my room up a bit. I found the remote to my stereo and my vcr-- they both amazingly work-- so I'm happy. I'm not happy that the stereo doesn't read cds..I think I broke it -.-;; When I find time, I'll take it over to a repair shop and see what they can do about it. In the meantime I'll just listen to the Little Mermaid soundtrack on tape : D

My art style has done another leap/bound (as both my mom and Bob put it). I've been doing this slightly gothic angular Death fanarts that look...very, very cool. Even the guy at the AI of SD was impressed. I just might have a chance.. But hopefully after I finish CCC I'll have time to update Phosie.tk (SERIOUS UPDATES NEEDED...I'm going to clear out all my old stuff).

I love the new detergent my mom bought at Costco..it smells so fresh, and the scent lingers on my clothes even after a day of wearing. It makes me smell doubley good (ha! as if I didn't stink nicely to begin with!).

I am loving this haircolor. The dark dark black faded a bit, so now it looks more natural than it did before, and some could argue that this IS my natural haircolor. It looks exactly like my mom's except not curly. And ever since I started wearing contacts, you can't separate me and my dark shades. Those come with me wherever I go, whether I'm wearing them or they're doubling as a headband.

I'm going back into my "stunning eye-makeup" phase. I love mixing this emerald green eyeshadow with fresh blue eyeliner...I get this look of mermaid that totally makes my eyes stand out. Daaaayum. ^.~;;

I think I've also finished my addiction to red. It's still my favorite color, but green seems to look nicer on me right now. Oh I'm such a slave to comfiness.. I'm about ready to leave the house in my jammies : D Strrrriiike a pose!!

I miss Eric. He called yesterday but I couldn't call back cuz it was too late. And now it's too late anyways. Oy vey. Hopefully he'll call tomorrow. I miss the boy more than anyone knows.. -.-;

Speaking of, I'm getting a little nervous. This year has seriously flown by. I've never stayed with anyone this long and this far apart. Is that why we're successful? Because we don't have to see each other all the time? Will things change for the worse if we're together constantly? What's going to happen? I'm worried...

It's also hard to prove you're sweet and loving when your boyfriend is straight out of romance novel. I mean honestly, in comparison to Eric, I'm a cold boulder. *sigh* If only I could show him.

*ruffles her hair tiredly* Ahhh..nuff of dis talk. I needz be finishing CCC. Meesa add mo' lata. I gotz werk termerrow.

Ah-dee-oze!
~Ph0s!e

Vortex...
I think some black hole is devouring all my time because it doesn't seem like I can get anything done in the time I have. I need to finish CCC so I can finish schoolwork. I have to complete the drawing I promised Mandy... I have to email a bunch of people from the Con and even some who aren't.. Have to write a letter to Maggie because she probably thinks I've dropped off the planet. I have to update Ph0s!e.tk because I have soooo much new art (well, not new to my friends, but to everyone else). Gotta clean my room, clean the catbox, clean the bathtub, do the dishes, clean the bike, do my laundry.... rraaaah... and I'm so very tired. I think I'm going to eat an energy bar.. ^.^;;

*returns five minutes later*

Mmm...satisfaction... *nearly breaks teeth on refridgerated peanut butter bar*

Heh..my mom got this variety pack of goldfish crackers, and this one bag has multi-colored fishies (the joy of food coloring). It's a joke though: no blue or green fishies >:(

My acne is clearing up! W00t W00t W00t.. Nothing like a random wolf whistle to make you feel good about yourself ^.~ But honestly, people, what is so sexy about a tshirt and jeans? I left my shades at home so I was practically blinded by the sunlight.

And to Eric: no...! no....!! noooo!!!!!! no no no no no no nooooooooooooooooooo!!! nope. nope.. no. nuh uh. no. etc. etc. ^.^

I guess the consensus at my work is that black hair and contacts do well for me ^.^ Then again, Miguel would think I was beautiful if I rubbed my face in tar. Silly boys. Beauty is for models!

Felipe is so nice. He let me have a free margarita today... Muchos gracias!! But..BWA HA HA HA HA!!!!! I don't have to work until Sunday : D Joy to my exhausted boh-day.

Alrighty....time to finish CCC.
Yours Cheerily,
Ph0s!e

Current Music: "Dreamer" by Ozzy
Current Mood: Tired but happy
Current Read: r34d? w0t !5 7h!5 r34d j00 5p33k 0f?

I knew it ^.^

Which Sandman Character Are You?

3Y3 N33D H20!!
*chugs a bottle of water..and then some*
Whew..it is hot today. I'm glad I didn't have to work late today because I'm still really tired and sore from Comic-Con. No complaints though : D Apparently a bunch of the guests today went and I even talked to a guy who had the same .hack shirt as me. Preeettty nifty.

After work I biked down to the post office to send Bob's package (his was the only one ready at the time) and tomorrow I'll be sending off Mah's and Joe's. Ahh...crap.. I forgot to get something for Mandy.. well, I'll just do an extra good job on the drawing I promised her. I'm not sure if Eric's package is done yet..there are still a couple things I want to collect.

Today I'm going to finish CCC (Comic-Con Chick) and get all the pictures up and happy. I'm also going to re-scan some of the drawings and add those too. Then I'm going to write a very detailed story of what happened ^.^;; Phew!

Hopefully when it's done, I'll have links up and whatnot, and I'll submit it to the comic-con website so that I'll get more hits ^.^

Maybe CCC will do as well as Acen Guys?? We'll see >: D..

Yours Productively,
Ph0s!e

Current Music: "Party Up in Here" by DMX
Current Mood: almost dancey, cheery, toastier than she'd like to be *wipes forehead*
Current Read: Angel's Wings by Tetsuya Aiko (His art is absolutely beautiful!)

It stings!!
Wee.. I just got home from my last day of work until next week. I have the whole weekend free.. and I have cash to buy stuff at Comic-Con! (heh.. I cleared out half my account... *sheepish*) But since I might miss it next year, I want to get all I can this year. My Death outfit is jusssst about complete. I found the needed makeup, shades, and....I'm dyeing my hair black! Yes, you heard me...BLACK! Hehe, it's only semi-permanent because I want my old hair color...but still! Black!! I love it : D The formula is still on my hair right now and it stings my scalp (ah!! ah!!) but I know it's gonna look so cool when it's done. If only I had found dark lipstick..oh well. I'll borrow some of my mummy's. Hehe, I look all funny, wearing a pseudo-kimono, no pants (eep!), and my hair all piled up. Hope nobody rings the doorbell ^.~

For the third day in a row, I sold more large cups than anyone else. I got a free meal too. Not bad ^.^

I charged the camera, and I'll be deleting unneccessary pictures and whatnot so I have more room ^.^ I plan to take LOTS of pictures...and well, be in them too if my outfit turns out right. I look a lot more like Death than I thought I did...O.o;; (cool ^.^)

YAHHH!!!! TIS ITCHY AND STINGY!!!! *squirms*

If only my acne had cleared up : P Oh well, I'll just use coverup and maybe find some pale face powder ^.^ Mwa ha ha! Hmm...oops can't forget.. I need to make her smiley button.

I wonder, should I wear my 4in heel vinyl boots? Or should I wear my sketchers? Or my skater shoes? I want the first because 1) I'll look taller...it'll balance my weight out, considering I'm wearing skin-tight clothes and 2) It'll look better with the black faded jeans. Hmm..decisions decisions... I hope nobody mistakes me for Trinity.. : P

Yada yada yada.. I'm happy/excited. Screw being alone... I can have fun! LA LA LA!

I think I'm going to bring some of my art with me too... maybe get it reviewed? ?? That would be nifty. Any criticism is good for me.

(ITCHY ITCHY STING STING!! WAHHH!!! When can I wash it out?!) Oops.... went over the limit *sheepish*

*20 Minutes Later*

Whoa...this...is black. This is REAL black. If it were any blacker it would be blue. Hehe... now if only I can tousle my hair... I look like Amelie right now...same style and everything. It makes my eyes look piercingly green/blue/aqua/gray/silver. Hazel? Sheesh.. I wish I was born with this... my mom got it *pouts*. I have a funny feeling everyone I know is gonna be shocked : D Well, it'll wash out in about a half of a month (20-28 shampoos). This is like..luxurious black...wooo... if my hair was waist-length I'd look stunning... or I'd look like Cher ^.^;;

I put in my contacts (ouch...) and now I just have to see how the eyeliner will look, and if i can get the curly line on Death's right eye to come out clear. Well... a new entry after I'm done : D

(I'm gonna look so -bleep!-ing cool with the shades >: D)

Yours Confidently,
Ph0s!e

Current Music: "Foxy Lady" by Jimi Hendrix
Current Mood: hehe.. dramatic : D
Current Read: "Death: The High Cost of Living" (I needed to review some of the pictures ^.^)

the sun rises...
Oy..I'm so tired. It's 6am right now and I woke up at 5:30. My mom was supposed to wake me up before she went to bed so I could get my laundry, but she didn't. I woke up early (and on my own) thankfully, because if I hadn't, I might be late for getting ready for work. That would've been VERY BAD consider the events lately..

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. One minute I'm super happy hyper planning things for comic-con, the next minute I feel isolated, unwanted, unloved.. You could easily tell me that it's just hormones, and it'll pass, but it's hard to believe that when you feel so low. I almost feel sorry for how I've been acting, but at the same time, I feel very annoyed and hurt. Part of me says I should forget my past (Illinois..) and move on with my life. Part of me says I should struggle to keep friendships this far away, because they're worth it. I'm confused, I've had a headache for three days now, and I want some @$%^ing sleep.

Everything makes me so tired..
I'm always so tired..
*sigh*

Yours Lost in Thoughts,
Ph0s!e

Current Music: "Lorelei" by Eagle Eye Cherry
Current Mood: Indecicive and exhausted
Current Read: ....too tired....

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---EDIT!--- Ignore this entry, I was being melodramatic.

Current Music: "Paint it Black" by the Rolling Stones
Current Mood: Annoyed and distanced
Current Read: the back of my hand...need to remember to do things

home sweet home
Ahh..I'm so glad I didn't have to work very long today. Short, busy shifts are my thing anyways. Today was a mixed feelings day. Blanca avoided me most of the time because she was still angry about the night before. I don't blame her, though I don't know what to say. I'm sorry? It won't happen again because I'm not closing again. It's too difficult to get things arranged and please everyone. Sergio had this thing going where if you sell 50 large drinks, you get a free meal. So yesterday, I sold about 52(?) and he was surprised and said I could have one, but I turned it down. I don't want any more ties to the company than I already have, but I did appreciate the offer. Then today, he told us that whoever sells 40 gets a meal and if you sell another 50 you get a free desert. And I sold 40 (heh...) and he was all "Wow." I turned down the desert though. I didn't feel I deserved it after what I did with Blanca. Not that she cares... sometimes I wonder if the store would be better off without me. But then I realize I should be thankful to have a job as a teenager, what with the unemployment rate for teens going up to a steep 22%. Mixed feelings.

For some reason, I really like cleaning the glass doors and windows... I can't STAND seeing smudgy, grubby fingerprints all over it. Sergio laughs at me and says it's my "favorite thing to do." Heh, it probably is! So it's kind of dubbed my duty. How interesting ^.^

Ack! I had to dig through the trash today looking for baskets/trays. The first time I did that... hoo boy. I'll never whine again when my mom asks me to take the trash out... O.o;;;

I just watched episode 16 of .hack//sign and I keep loving this anime more and more. I think Subaru and Tsukasa have a little "thing" going on...which is really sweet, except that now I know Tsukasa is actually a girl IRL and so is Subaru. But they're so sweet to each other ^.^ Poor Mimiru... the angel girl is stealing her man! er...girl...er...wooooo... lol

Ho hum.. maybe I'll draw something. After all, gotta get some stuff together for my mini-portfolio review when I go to the AI of S.D. for my appointment. Oh crap...I have to remember to email that guy.

I'm so tired.. so tired... and I still have laundry to do. I have to find some black jeans/pants to complete my Death outfit, find a button and make a smiley face for it...and find a hat somewhere. OH CRAP! Forgot to buy black eyeliner... and mascara.. I'm gonna be such a cheery goth lady : D Well, that's the best part about Death. She has my style, my personality, and she wears an ankh. Woot! I wonder if she has black fingernails...hmm.... I'm gonna get to the comic-con really early and head over to the Megatokyo booth first so I can ask Mr. Gallagher for an example of his artistic talent (before anyone else!! : D). Ooh.must remember to bring digital camera!!! Maybe on sunday I'll work on a website to show all the picchas I take : D And must remember to get some caaash before I go. My poor little savings account is going to be squandered on comic shtuff...

Alrighty.
I'm bored.
Where the hell is everyone?
Feh.. I'll go get laundry ready. Gotta change anyways cuz eet eez brooooiling in here.

Yours Semi-Productively,
Ph0s!e

*mumbles something about stupid boys and eyes ZeroSyte screenname on her buddy list...*

Current Music: "Girls" by Beastie Boys
Current Mood: amused, tired, still going...
Current Read: um....nothing. does my mail count?