It's been awhile!
Yup, it had been awhile. Nothing much is going on. Just been bored. I have 105 days left till I'm 18 and get to come back to Virginia for good!! :) Anyways, here's a sad story that I found on Myspace!

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said: "Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

Woo..long entry!
First of all...I have a new layout!! Secondly, this is going to be a looong entry!

Ok, I have been doing alot of thinking from the time before we moved to now, and I've realized how wrong I was about the whole thing. I mean, no, I don't like being here in Oklahoma, away from my friends, and the people who've helped me out ALOT like several teachers, my Guidance Counselor, and my out of school Counselor. It's really not as bad as I thought it was going to be. Infact, I actually like my room. I'll eventually post the pictures I took of my room.

But, I am hoping to get the chance to go home during Spring Break (In April) instead of waiting till my birthday. I have been good and haven't been pissy, so I think I deserve to go home a month before my bithday. The only thing I'm worried about is the way we're going home...on a plane. I haven't been on one since I was 5 years old and ever since the September 11th thing, I've been paranoid about it.

On to other things. I talked to my best friend last night on the phone and she came up with the most brilliant plan ever!!! Whenever I come back to Woodbridge she and I will both apply for jobs during the Summer, continue working after school hours (when school starts for our Senior year) aswell, and after we graduate high school we'll combined our money together and if we have enough we'll get an apartment together, then we'll be like sisters haha. And we'll still work after highschool and go to college and stuff, and then whatever our major is, hopefully we'll make more money...I just hope we have enough money to get a house instead, but if not, we'll stick to the apartment.

I found out yesterday, from Sarah that our school's former Superintendant died on thursday night. They said it was due to a fall in his home along with a lengthy illness which I believe was some type of cancer. At first, I didn't recognize who he was until I went to our county's website and it showed a picture of him and I thought to myself "oooohhhh! That's him!" He retired from being the Superintendant last year, but will still be remembered since he served our county's schools since 1987...that's a year before I was born!

Well, That's all for now. This was a long one, huh? Oh, and I only have 129 more days left till I got back home!!! :) Well, I'm outta here. I'm kind of sick.

Busy..Busy..Busy
I have been soooooo busy! I think my room is the cleanest room in the house! I'm actually happy about it. And I was right about when I said that when I get the computer in my room, this is where I'd spend most of my time....well, this is where I spend most of my time. lol. I either clean, write, get on the computer like I am now, or listen to music. I love my room...but I don't love it enough to miss it when I go back home.

I officially have 138 more days till I leave! I'm kind of nervous to get on a plane. But, it is all worth it to go back home! I recently talked to Mykel (one of my friends/ex bf) and I told him that I still liked him, and he told me that he was waiting for me...so I'm hoping that when I get back to Virginia he and I could go out again and this time hopefully we'll last for more than a week...better yet, I hope we last longer than a month....I want us to be together for as long as we can! I really think I love him.

Tomorrow starts a whole new week, which means I'll only have 18 more weeks till I come back to Virginia! Can't wait! Well, I'm gonna go. I'll write more later!

Busy Day!!
Mood:  lazy
I spent basically the entire day, cleaning my room! Whooooo! I am soooo tired right now. Here, in Oklahoma (where I'm currently at), it was actually nice outside. It was nice enough to where we didn't need a jacket. How odd is that?! But, it was good to feel. I have 143 days left till I go back to Virginia!!! Yay!! It's still awhile, but at least it's not as long as it was before. That's also how many days till my 18th birthday too.

This weekend seemed to have gone by fast! I kept thinking today was Sunday for some odd reason. I usually watch my shows on abc family, but today I didn't because I thought it was Sunday lol. So, I ended up watching the Disney Channel for most of the day. Today went by fast aswell.

Anyways, my brother ran a fever last night, so I was trying to get him away from me, since I'm trying my hardest to stay healthy and not get sick. I'm suppose to be moving my computer and desk into my room sometime today, but I'm not sure when. When we do, I'll be spending most of my time in my room on the computer, doing my homeschool work, writing songs and poems, listening to music...you know things to keep me busy while I'm stuck in Oklahoma.

Well, I'm gonna go. I guess I wrote enough for one entry. I'll try writing more tomorrow!

First Entry!!
Mood:  not sure
Merry Christmas everybody!!

There's really nothing much to write..there's really never anything to write when your writing your first entry in something. I got a 100 dollar bill, 2 CD's, a video game, and a dvd vocal coach thing for Christmas...not the best things...but hey it's something.

Well, I'm gonna go. Tootles.

~*Stephanie*~