Hi guys, i'm back to blog again.. went to paya lebar methodist church for prayer meeting. had prata for lunch and it was very nice..

God is really good cos when i am bothered by "tat" issue, He bring frens in my life to bring me thru.. He truly lives forever in my life and i will never let Him go..
Anyway, i have placed everything onto e altar of God, i'm trustin Him in tis cos i knw it's no use striving hard for it when all u need is God to come thru.. i believe wat i value is wat God value too..

i talked to a fren abt it, told me i'm showing signs that i love and value her but i feel time will tell, no use me feeling it.. wat e sermon is said is true, actions cannot replace words and words cannot replace actions as well.. i can do so much but if i dun express wif words, it's nothing at all.. it's like e story of mary and martha..

Anyway, i juz gonna let go and let God but tat doesn't mean i will be passive, juz tat i will be there always.. tat's wat love is, be there always and not asking for any return..

will be planning some outing for SOT students so tat we can get together before all e foreign students leave s'pore..

i tink i need to start my cartoon drawing and photography again cos very "rusty" oredi, not being doin it for a while oredi.. might wan to look for some photography contest to gain experience so if u guys see any ads abt photography contest pls let me knw..

gonna end here.. share wif u guys more again.. have a great week ahead..

hi all, juz woke up cos yesterday went to bbq and reached home late.. not serving todae cos asked my fren to take over me so i can rest more.. Really enjoyed myself yest in e bbq..

Actually oso did alot of my "first time" stuff before e bbq but it's good.. gonna rush off for svc soon but juz wanna blog cos something have being bothering me for a while oredi and i really dunno wat will happen..

the actual thing is i have had feeling for someone for sometime oredi, i oso pluck up my courage to let my cgl knw but i didn't need to mention and she knw oredi.. my cgl tink it's ok but wan me to get to knw her better..
tink i'm confused nw becos i dunno, i dun wanna be disappointed cos i scare it's juz one-sided..

anyway, i knw God knw everything.. Two months to graduation, i tink nw e best thing to do is put this mindset aside first and concentrate on SOT.. let's consider it next year then..

tink i tink too much oredi but tat's me.. tink i oso share too much of my feeling here but juz feel like sharing.. gonna go, share my thoughts again..

A real testing week for me..
Frens, tink tis few days have being e most difficult days i have went thru.. i knw many will say that we have had a great time wif Dr John Avanzini.. i had too but in e midst of it, i have to go thru something that i thought it won't happen to me..

Since that day, i have being asking myself alot of questions.. a lot of ppl oso talked to me but i really didn't mean it, why won't someone understand and knw that i went back e second time for that purpose.. it really affects me alot, in my studies, in my serving and my strength to go thru all tis.. it is not e physical strength i'm talkin abt but e mental stress and strength to go thru everything and come out strong and not tink abt it..

Last few days, i'm really askin myself if i wanna be out of all tis but i always tell myself i wanna be here cos i love God and i won't be affected by tis.. i kept on telling myself i can go thru and i won't be affected but how many or u knw that e mental part is so hard to bear.. i'm really tired, God.. how can i be happy when everyday i'm goin thru meetin after meetin and to serve or attend svc as if nothing happen.. God i really pray u allow me to go thru tis stronger.. My heart will trust in u..

Frens, i really feel tired and wear-out from all tis so really do encourage me if u can cos i dun wanna throw in e towel and quit cos i really love God so much to let go..

i knw i won't let go of God and leave even if everything had being removed from me cos nothing will separate Him from me..
Pls do pray for me, i knw i will go thru it..

Hi Frens,
Tis whole week is exam for all SOT student but thank God I tink I?m able to pass.. A real stretching week for us cos other than exam, we have to attend Dr John Avanzini nite conference so will feel quite tired at e end of e day but I thank God He gimme strength to go thru all tis..

Yesterday was a day i feel really sad abt and oso for e first time, feel such a heaviness in my heart.. dunno how to share wif u guys but along e way back home cos i didn?t manage to catch e church bus, i was tinkin abt it and can?t bring myself at ease cos it?s too sudden.. But i knw God knw me well.. thks for Zac?s encouragement, i went home to pray and tis morning prayed again and felt much better..

i knw it?s a private personal lesson for me to learn but i thank God i went thru it without any hardness of heart..

Thank you, Jesus..

Hi all, never really blog for a long time and tis is my second time i post something here for tis month. tink i'm really busy wif preparing for preaching test, work and ministry. wanna post but always get home too late so too tired to even surf net..

Thank God todae i dun have to work cos tis evening have IPPT, physical fitness test.. never really do any preparation, dun have time to run or even go to gym.. juz gonna go there and see how i fare.. tink would have to go again next time for a re-test..

juz share abt wat i did for e last few weeks, never really did much except for school, work and ministry.. my life has now being surrounded by all tis. My Cg juz got multiplied last weekend, it was great cos it's onli my second multiplication i experienced in my 5 years in CHC.. Pst Kong shared wif us a great msg last week abt e Jerusalem church, really convicted to bring my frens to know God..
During Cg testimony, i shared abt how God bring me thru my preachin test. My cgl asked me to share wif my cgm which sermon i prepared touched me e most. i said faith msg cos it's faith that brought me closer to Him and i have faith in Him that He will see me thru all things i am goin thru.. Without personal faith conviction, u can't preached a msg to convict ppl to have faith..

I really thank God for wat He had done in my life.. He is the same yesterday, today and forever so i believed He has greater things for me..

As SOT is comin to a close although there are still 3 more months, i tink wat i really received most from SOT is my faith in Him to bring me thru, there are times where i dun have much but i trust Him in His provision, times where i am weak but i lean on Him, times i dun knw wat to do but i received wisdom from Him..
Frens, all of us must always thank God and i will never fail to thank Him cos i knw without Him, i can never go tis far.. God dun need u to thank Him but He need to knw that u appreciate Him for all He had done..

It's really good to be able to sit down and relax and reflect on wat God has done..

Walking wif Him is really e greatest adventure i had put myself in. Never look back when i have placed my life into His hands..
Frens, i hope u will not look back too when u have read all tis cos losing earthly possession is nothing at all compared to losing someone that loves u so much, Jesus love us too much..

I Love u, Jesus..

Hi everyone, it's really being a long long time since i update my blog.. really sorry for not updating u guys..
Really busy nowadays cos preaching test is on oredi, gonna work and serve more in ministry..
I got alot to share wif everyone of u but let's hope i can remember all..

Firstly, i thank God for openin doors for me to serve more in my ministry. Thru God's grace, i am helping out in e editing of e "Book of Zechariah" video.. On last sat, i went in to church office to do my first editing and bro Adrian was oso in office that dae. He came and chatted wif me and asked me again abt wat's my plan after SOT.. Tis time round, not like the last time he asked me, i told him abt my desire to serve full-time. He asked me some questions and i told him wat i really felt, from the bottom of my heart. He told me he would ask Pst if it is possible to employ another staff. If possible, i will be on for part-time first for 4 months or so to see if i like the working culture anot.
So guys, pls pray for me abt it.. Really wan to be able to serve God with all e time i have..

i oso tink my attitude and my walk wif God changed after Pst Ulf came and speaked to us in e conference.. i am nw more focused in doing things that God has given in my life.. i knw God is rising our church up and i will do everything God has placed in my hands to e best i can knw of.. i feel my attitude towards alot of things have changed, i feel i am nw more serious when it come to my walk wif God. It does not mean i am not serious last time, juz that i can sense i am telling God, "God, u can use me in any place and country, i wanna live a life for u". My walk wif Him no longer juz dwell on "Him wif me" but on "God using me to impact life"..
Last Cg, i shared a testimony that i feel i shld share over here as well.. it is abt wat Pst Kong shared when Dr edwin louis cole told Pst before he died that we can take the world for Jesus. Although i have heard it many time but at that moment when Pst say it, i was like how shld i say i was or shld i say i am captivated by that few words cos i really tink we can take e world for Jesus. Even before Dr edwin died, he shared tis words to Pst, it makes me feel how much more ppl like us nw must take e world for Jesus when we are still living on tis earth. it cause me to treasure every time i have so that i knw that every minute i live, i am impacting life and taking e world for Jesus..
It oso relive my vision in me.. i knw i can use e media as a tool to impact many people who watch it. Preacher use God's word to impact and i feel i can use e footage and pictures which is like God's word to impact and touch life.. i am all so excited abt it..

i knw God will truly indeed be the God of all.. i thank God for everything and i pray that He will see me thru all tis cos i knw i am nothing without Him..He's my everything.. Thank You Jesus..

Hi guys, it's so wonderful to be able to rest again for another two days.. tink it's best i start going back to gym and swimming again.. not being doing that for some time oredi cos too busy.. Tink will do that tml since tml i got nothin on in the morning..

Will go library to get a book for a fren before my fren comes to my hse, need to teach my fren how to use some software. i oso not so sure abt it but tink wif e book i can be able to teach lah..

Yesterday was indeed a rush day for me but it's fun.. i reach church office @ 1 plus, once i reached there heard that some people are coming over to tour e place so was clearing up stuffs in tv room and oso set up e projector in e conference for them to view e video of our church building. After everything was set up, Edwin(one of e tv church staff) asked me to help him out, i was supposed to help him out next time every tue. Was so excited abt tis cos always wanted to serve full-time in church, tis maybe e first step(i oso dunno) but happy lah.. haha.. was doin some archiving for tis whole year videos that we have. Really get to see how e whole media department work when i'm there, e work juz come in & deadline is so tight but everyone took it as a challenge. Happy to be able to work wif them so closely..
We went down church @ 6.30pm, rushing cos haven't had my dinner yet. In the end, had to settle wif juz two hamburgers.

e conference was good, even though i didn't get to hear everything cos i was in e tv room doing iris and can't concentrate to hear pst Ulf's preaching.. but hear from pst Kong that will produce a cd for everyone abt yest msg cos we must need to knw that we dun live a life of lawlessness..

so much of sharing my day, hope u guys share wif me ur day oso.. gonna leave soon to e library..
see ya guys tonite.. c" )

A very good morning to everyone.. tink all SOT students must be very happy that at least they can rest for todae cos no school.. for myself, i am very happy cos never sleep until so late for such a long time..
Actually shld be helpin out a fren wif some computer stuff but cos need to rush to church office later so can't help her.. told her oredi so helping her tml.. Later going church office to help out in tv stuff, need to do archive for e videos.. will go down wif tv staffs for conference later and i have to reach church @ 5pm to help out wif e overflow thingy..

Yesterday conference was good even though i have to serve ministry and was sitting in the overflow room.. Pst Ulf preached abt impartation thru relationship.. wat he say is so true, to have frens is to be a fren urself. Frenship is so special and we can really learned alot from each and every one of them. i really thank God for all my frens that crossed my paths, all the Cg leaders that impacted me and inspired me to go all out for God.
Tink todae will serve again and shld be sitting in overflow room to help out cos nw doing more of technical stuff in tv.. but i thank God that He can use me in any area as long as i can serve Him..

Frens, we must have a servanthood life, to our frens as well as to God..

StEpPiNg oUt
hi everyone.. wake up so early cos need to work in the morning.. goin to work soon.. Pst Tan preach a very good message yest on progressive commitment.. letting go of something when u walk deeper wif God.. tink after tis message i decided to let go of my comfort zone.. too comfortable in the sense that i always stick wif my own group and not talkin to other new frens in the Cg.. will break that comfort zone cos i believe i must be a people person.. Be there for the people..

Anyway, i dun tink i will tink abt wat e "bothering" stuff oredi.. decided to not tink abt it anymore.. gonna have a freed up mind and lifestyle to serve God wholeheartedly in His kingdom..
Yest was membership day, being reflecting abt myself there and then.. tink i too into my comfort zone oredi..
It's time to step out for me..

hi guys, it's really being some time since i update my blog.. always seem like giving a weekly review then a daily one.. juz too busy tis week lah, school and work.. Gonna work lesser so that i can help more in Cg and rest more oso..

Tis week was nothing special, usual rountine(studying and working).. Really no time to go out cos always too tired after my work.. BUt at least i went out juz nw, saturday i mean. Went out wif Lewis for dinner and chit chattin @ orchard, didn't meet up and spend time together for a long long time.. Had a great time chatting and shared wif him some of my things and problems i faced.. we then went on to play guitar somewhere near his house.. came home ard 1am and i still awake nw even that tml have to serve in morning 10am svc, gonna sleep soon after posting tis blog.. He's really my good bro, thanks Lewis..

Actually, being "bothered" by some stuffs recently but it's quite hard to say over here.. tink many things have changed since that thing happen
(can't say much).. was tinking abt it last few days that wat can i do so in the end, i tink the best thing for me to do nw is to let it rest for the moment.. maybe it's good that i focused more in my ministry and Cg, considered abt it when i finish my SOT studies lah.. juz pray and hope that it will be normal again.. haha dun tink anyone knw wat i talking abt, it's ok..

Recently, was helpin out more in my ministry.. will have to go back church office every tue to do some tv archives stuff.. My Cg is really muliplying soon, praise the Lord.. i will spend more time wif my members when it multiplied, build up each other life and to see the "zoe" life of God in them..

Read something nice, abt a boy asking his dad how much he earn an hour.. when his dad told e boy he earned $20 an hour, he asked his dad for $10.. in the first place, he didn't give his son tinking that he must have need it to buy toys but afterwhile, he give it to him.. The boy took out e money that he have wif the $10 his dad juz give him, his dad was angry cos he dun need to ask for more if he still has money.. But the kid give the money to his dad($20) in return for an hour so that his dad can come back early to have dinner wif him.. tink it's an important lesson to u guys and oso to me cos i tink i have neglected some of my frens, CG members and family members ever since i started workin.. sometimes, all people need is ur time for them.. spendin time wif them will really meet the needs in the hearts of people.. promise myself not to overlook any frens in my life anymore.. will try to meet up wif them more and spend quality time together.. Thank God for all tis frens in my life..
i always feel it takes two hands to clap.. similarily in frenship, it oso take two to make the frenship go far..

have say alot oredi tonite, gonna rest nw if not tml or shld i say tis mornin i will have no energy to serve in ministry.. see ya guys.. nitez..