I've been in love before,
Three time actually.

Three loves that will never go through.

***

The first could care less.
Ignored by him.
Known forever.

He used to care,
He used to understand.
He used to want to see me happy.

Now all he wants is
To forget.

I won't let him.

He hates me,
I love him.

He won't even talk to me.
I long for his attention,
And affection.

I'll never change him.

It'll never happen.
But I'm still in love.

***

The second loved me.
He seemed perfect,
We were in love.

He listened to me,
He understood me,
Let me, be me.

But he changed,
Changed so much.

I can't love him anymore.

I love who he was,
Not who he is.

He only thinks of himself,
I call out for him,
He won't listen.

I'll never love the change.

It'll never happen again,
But I'm still in love.

***

The third is in love,
They're so happy,
That won't change.

He knows me as I am,
He'll let me cry on his shoulder,
Will stay with me until I become happy.

But his love doesn't belong to me,
It belongs to her.

I would never change that.

She's my best friend,
I wouldn't harm her.

He makes her smile,
Makes her laugh,
She feels safe.

I'll never change that.

I can never make that happen,
But I'm still in love with him.

***

You love me.
I love you.

But I'm not in love.

I don't see me with you for the rest of my life.

I'm not the person for you.

I don't even know you,
and you don't know me.

I still love you though.

I'll stay with you,
for now.

But I can't lie to you,
I can't be with you forever.

Love is too complicated,
but again, it is so simple.

I love you,

But I'm in love with someone else.

Don't be sad,
I'm still with you.