These foolish games are tearing me apart...
My heart has been broken so many times that the pieces never seem to mend themselves back together, they just seem to multiply and get smaller and smaller until finally, they will turn into dust and disappears...

I don't really know if I ever will find true love... it's not that I have never loved before but no one has ever loved me in return and I don't think anyone has ever loved me period.

It sounds really pathetic to say such a thing but it's the truth. I always tried to have faith and believe in love. I've tried to go after it, let it find me, but all it does is runaway from me.

I'm now more certain than ever that I'm not worthy of it. That I do not deserve to be loved or to know what it's like to have someone care about me. I've always been alone, and whenever I try to open myself up to others they reject me.

I guess I just have to give up. I mean it's me, it's who I am on the inside. I'm young, attractive, intelligent, friendly, and yet somehow I am not good enough for anyone.