~~Almost two weeks later~~
~~Jenna~~
Me and Brian talked about telling the group that we were in love, but I still wasn't ready and insisted on waiting for the right time. I was affraid of loosing all our friends and I think Brian was worried too. Just not as much as me. I hadn't seen Brian that much as they were preparing for the tour. Him climbing through my window at night became a routene. We didn't always make love though. Someone times we would just hold each other and talk all night. I was surprised Jenna never heard me laughing as Brian would goof around and make me laugh. The guys were staying in NY thier last two free nights befor the concert. That's where Fatima was and they had to practice thier dancing. Me and Calie went along with them knowing after these two nights, it would be a while befor we saw them again.
~~First day in NY~~
~~Calie~~
I couldn't believe Nick was leaving in two days. I felt hurt, but I felt more like I was loosing a best friend than a boyfriend. We had never even said I love you and I wondered why. I guess neither of us were sure if that's realy what we felt for each other.
Me and Jenna spent most of the day wandering around NY and shopping. We were looking through some cd's in a store and I mentioned something about the guys leaving. I saw Jenna's eyes began to fog as if she wanted to cry and she slipped her sunglasses on. "Jenna, are you ok?" I asked her. "Yeah, I'm ok." I saw a tear escape and roll down her cheek. She quickly turned away. I knew then that she had deep feelings for someone in the group. Who though. "Nick!" I thought to myself.
After a couple more hours of silent shopping we went back to the hotel. Jenna said she was going for a walk and I went to Nick's room to play mario cart and wait for him to come back.
~~Jenna~~
I told Calie I was going for a walk, but I went to Brian's room. I told him I would be there when he got back. We wanted to spend as much time together as possable. I curled up on his bed and fell asleep. An hour later I woke up to Brian's sweet kiss on my for head. He layed down beside me and wrapped his arms around me. "How was dance practice?" I asked him. "Hard. My whole body achs." He whinned. I got up and rolled him over onto his stomach. I sat on top of him and rubbed his back and shoulders. "That feels sooo good. You are deffanently going to be coming to see me on the road." "Realy Bri?" "Of course! Jenna we have to tell them." "I know...tomorrow!" "Ok."
~~Calie~~
When Nick got back he joined in a game of mario cart. I kept thinking about Jenna when we were looking at the cd's and I saw her tear. We were both pretty quiet while we played. A little while later we went downstairs to the resteraunt to meet everyone for dinner. When we got there it was just Jenna, Brian and Howie. "Where's Kevin and AJ?" I asked sitting down next to Jenna. "Kevin wanted some time alone with his girl and AJ is sleeping...I think." Howie answered. As we all ate I felt so much tention at the table. I didn't know why, but it was deffanently there. After we ate we all decided to go swimming. The guys had been dancing all day and didn't feel like clubbing. Me and Jenna went to our room to change and I had to ask her about the tear.
~~Jenna~~
I was changing into my swim suit fast. I knew Calie could tell something was wrong and I didn't want her to ask. I couldn't stand lying to her again. I felt worse every time I did. "Jenna..." "Oh no here it comes." I thought to myself. "What Cal?" "Do you have feelings for Nick?" "For Nick?!" I asked shocked. "Yeah." "No. I care for him deeply, but only as a friend." I noticed a little smile on her face, but decided to ignore it and get down to the pool.
When we got to the pool Brian, Nick and Howie were already in the water goofing around. We jumped in and after an hour of swimming went upstairs. The guys were tired and had to get up early for another dance practice. Calie said she was going to Nick's room to play mario cart and I went to Brian's room.
All we wanted to do was hold each other. We wrapped our arms around each other tightly and watched a movie. After the movie it was pretty late and we were both half asleep. "I better go to my room befor I fall asleep." I told him and sat up. He pulled me back down to him. "No, stay." "Brian I would, but I would hate for someone to come in and see us together befor we tell them, I think that would be worse." He held me tight for a minute, gave me a kiss and let me up. I walked to the door and left.
When I was walking to my room I saw AJ stumbling through the hallway. "AJ?" He slowly turned around and leaned on the wall. "Hey Jenna!" "AJ, are you drunk?" "Well, maybe just a little. Come have a drink with me." "AJ, what's going on with you?" "Come have a drink with me...please?" He looked as if he realy needed a friend so I agreed to have one drink with him. Little did I know at that time, it was the biggest mistake of my life. I went in his room and sat on his bed. He handed me some scotch and sat down next to me. "AJ what's going on with you?" "Nothing." He said forcing a smile. "AJ why do you have so many secrets? No one ever knows what's going on with you. It's not good for you. You need to talk to people once in a while." He stood up and paced back and forth a few times befor responding. "I'm in love." I couldn't believe it. I had never heard him say anything about loving a girl befor. "With who?!" I asked and he paused again. "A girl I met at the end of our last tour. And we can't be together." "Why?" "Cause her parents hate me. They judge me by my looks, not my personality." "AJ...I'm so sorry." A tear fell from his eye and he quickly wiped it away. Knowing he was realy hurting and needed a friend. I decided to have one more drink. I was so tired I fell asleep next to AJ on his bed.
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