CHAPTER 1:LIFE ISN'T FAIR
IT WAS MY FIRST DAY AT A NEW SCHOOL. I WAS SO NERVOUS! IT WAS WEIRD, IM NOT USUALLY SO SCARED TO START SCHOOL, BUT I WAS ACCEPTED INTO THE PROFESSIONAL PERFORMING ARTS SCHOOL (PPAS) IN NEW YORK! I MEAN..COME ON?!? WOULDN'T YOU BE NERVOUS? SOME OF THE BEST SINGERS, DANCERS, AND ACTORS IN THE STATE GO THERE! I WAS A LITTLE INTIMIDATED BECAUSE I KNEW THERE WOULD BE SOME FAMOUS PEOPLE THERE, AND EVERYONE WAS SO GOOD. ALSO, I WASN'T THAT CONFIDENT AS A DANCER. YEA! IM A DANCER! MY NAME IS KRYSTAL IM 16 AND I'VE BEEN A DANCER SINCE I WAS 3. MY PARENTS JUST SPLIT UP, AND MY MOM WANTED TO MOVE TO NEW YORK TO GET A "fRESH START" AT LEAST, THATS WHAT SHE SAID, BUT I KNOW IT WAS JUST A WAY TO GET AWAY FROM MY DAD. I DIDN'T WANT TO MOVE, BECAUSE OF ALL MY FRIENDS IN NEW JERSEY (THATS WHERE I'M FROM..OBVIOUSLY) LIKE MY BEST FRIENDS BELLE AND CHLOE, AND I WAS ESPECIALLY GOING TO MISS MY BOYFRIEND, MATT. WE WERE TOGETHER FOR 3 YEARS, VOTED "BEST COUPLE" IN 8TH GRADE, HOMECOMING FRESHMAN PRINCE AND PRINCESS, AND HOMECOMING SOPHOMORE PRINCE AND PRINCESS. AND NOW, MY JUNIOR YEAR, I HAD TO MOVE! IT WASN'T FAIR! BUT WE DECIDED TO STAY TOGETHER. IT WAS THE SADDEST DAY OF MY LIFE WHEN I HAD TO LEAVE. IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD EVER SEEN MATT CRY. I PROMISED HIM THAT I WOULDN'T MEET ANY OTHER GUYS, AND THAT I WOULD CALL HIM EVERYDAY! WELL ANYWAYS. BACK TO PPAS. WHEN I GOT TO NEW YORK, I TOLD MY MOM THAT THATS WHERE I WANTED TO GO TO SCHOOL. SO I AUDITIONED, AND GOT ACCEPTED. I MEAN, I KNOW MOST OF THE PEOPLE THAT WENT THERE WERE SINGERS, BUT I CAN'T REALLY SING, AT LEAST THATS WHAT I THINK. WELL THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL WASN'T THAT BAD. I DIDN'T GET TO GO TO MY 1ST PERIOD CLASS, BECAUSE I WAS IN THE OFFICE GETTING REGISTERED..BUT THE DAY WENT GREAT, I EVEN MET SOME NEW FRIENDS. THERE NAMES WERE ANDI AND BRITTANY. THEY WERE BOTH DANCERS TOO, SO IT SET SOME COMMON GROUND. THEY SEEMED REALLY NICE, BUT I STILL REALLY MISSED MY FRIENDS BACK AT HOME. AND I COULDN'T STOP MISSING MATT. IM SURE THERE WERE A MILLION CUTE GUYS IN THE SCHOOL, BUT I DIDN'T ACKNOWLEDGE ONE OF THEM. RIGHT AFTER SCHOOL, I GOT HOME AND CALLED MATT. "HEY MATT!" "HEY BABE! I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH! HOW WAS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL?" "IT WAS FINE. I MET A COUPLE NEW FRIENDS" "ANY GUYS?" "NO! OF COURSE NOT" "OKAY JUST MAKING SURE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO IF YOU FOUND SOME OTHER GUY, BETTER THEN ME" "MATT... THERE ISN'T A GUY BETTER THEN YOU" "YEA SURE" "IM SERIOUS. BUT HEY, I GOTTA GO. YA KNOW? LONG DISTANCE?" "YEA I KNOW. I LOVE YOU" "I LOVE YOU 2. BYE." "BYE BABE" AS SOON AS WE GOT OFF THE PHONE, I STARTED WRITING MATT A LETTER. IT WAS ONLY ABOUT A PAGE LONG. WHEN I WAS FINISHED, I KISSED THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE (LIKE I ALWAYS DO WHEN I WRITE HIM A LETTER) ADDRESSED THE ENVELOPE, AND SET IT BY THE COUNTER SO I WOULDN'T FORGET TO MAIL IT THE NEXT DAY. THEN, I FINISHED MY HOMEWORK, TOOK A SHOWER, AND WENT TO BED.
CHAPTER 2: CAN LIFE GET WORSE?
SINCE ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, I WAS IN THE OFFICE GETTING ALL MY CLASSES SETTLED, THE SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL WAS THE FIRST DAY I GOT TO SEE MY 1ST PERIOD. I THINK IT WAS PERHAPS MY FAVORITE CLASS. IT WAS SCIENCE, WHICH HAPPENED TO BE MY FAVORITE SUBJECT. I WAS THINKING ABOUT MY SCIENCE CLASS BACK HOME, AND HOW IT WAS THE BEST CLASS OF THE DAY CUZ I HAD MY BEST FRIENDS IN THAT CLASS AND MATT..DURING MY TRAIN OF THOUGH, THIS GUY INTERRUPTED ME..."HI, IM CHRIS" "OH HEY"..(SILENCE)..."UH..DO YOU HAVE A NAME?" "OH SORRY, WHAT? I WAS THINKING." "UM..I WAS ASKING WHAT YOUR NAME WAS?" "OH! ITS KRYSTAL" "COOL. YOU MUST HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT, TO BE THAT DISTRACTED." "OH I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE BACK HOME" "A BOYFRIEND?" "ACTUALLY YES" "OH THATS COOL. HOW LONG HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN TOGETHER?" "3 YEARS" "WOW. THATS A LONG TIME. YOU MUST HAVE A REALLY STRONG RELATIONSHIP" "YEA, I THINK THAT WE DO" "THATS COOL" I TOOK MY SEAT, AND HE TOOK HIS SEAT, RIGHT NEXT TO ME. HE SEEMED NICE. THE REST OF THE DAY WENT BY SO SLOW. WHEN I GOT HOME, THE PHONE RANG. "HELLO?" "HEY KRYSTAL!" "BELLE?!? AHHH! HEY!!" "HEY GIRL, HOWS NEW YORK?" "ITS FINE, BUT I REALLY WISH I WAS BACK HOME, I REALLY MISS EVERYONE" "AWW. EVERYONE HERE MISSES YOU TO. BUT NEWAYZ, ON TO THE GOOD STUFF. WHAT ARE THE GUYS LIKE?" "OH PLEEZ BELLE, YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE MATT, I'M NOT EVEN LOOKING AT THE GUYS" "OH, THAT REMINDS ME. I HAVE SOME BAD NEWS" "BAD NEWS? ABOUT WHAT?" "WELL IT HAS TO DO WITH MATT" "MATT?? OMG! HE ISN'T HURT IS HE?" "NO, HE ISN'T HURT" "THEN WHAT IS IT?" "WELL LAST WEEKEND, THERE WAS A PARTY AT THIS SENIORS HOUSE, AND ME AND CHLOE DECIDED TO GO" "YEA...SO WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH MATT?" "WELL..WE SAW HIM THERE. ONLY HE WASN'T ALONE" "OH REALLY? WHO WAS HE WITH? ANDREW?"(ANDREW WAS MATTS BEST FRIEND) "NO. NOT EXACTLY" "THEN WHO?" "LISTEN HUNN..THIS ISN'T EASY. SO IM JUST GONNA SAY IT. HE WAS WITH MEGAN" "MEGAN? THE SOPHOMORE MEGAN?" "YEA.." "WELL WHAT WAS HE DOING THERE WITH HER?! WHAT WERE THEY DOING?!" "WHEN ME AND CHLOE SAW THEM, HE HAD HIS ARM AROUND HER, AND THEY WERE HEADING UPSTAIRS TO THE BEDROOMS. WHEN WE GOT BACK TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY, IT WAS ALL AROUND THAT THEY DID SOMETHING IN THAT ROOM. IM NOT SURE WHAT THOUGH" "WAIT..MATT? MY MATT? ARE YOU SURE?" "YES IM SURE..IM REALLY SORRY. BUT I THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW.." "NO! NO! IT ISN'T TRUE! I WON'T BELIEVE IT!" I SLAMMED DOWN THE PHONE. I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT! WOULD MATT REALLY CHEAT ON ME? JUST THE THOUGHT OF IT MADE ME BURST INTO TEARS. I DIDN'T WANT TO BELIEVE IT..BUT BELLE WOULDN'T LIE TO ME. I WAS UP ALL NIGHT CRYING. MY MOM CAME IN A COUPLE TIMES TO CHECK ON ME, AND ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG. I DECIDED TO TELL HER WHAT BELLE TOLD ME. SHE WAS SURPRISED TOO, AND SHE TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD CALL MATT AND TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT. BUT THEN WE BOTH DECIDED THAT HE WOULD DENY IT AND I WOULD JUST END UP BELIEVING HIM, OR FORGIVING HIM. SO INSTEAD I WROTE HIM A LETTER. THIS IS WHAT I WROTE...
DEAR MATT,
TODAY I GOT A CALL FROM BELLE. I WAS SO SURPRISED WITH WHAT SHE TOLD ME. I KNOW ABOUT THE PARTY AND MEGAN! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! 3 YEARS WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER AND ALL THAT TIME I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU! NOW I KNOW OUR RELATIONSHIP WAS A LIE! AND IT BREAKS MY HEART MORE THEN WORDS CAN SAY TO TELL YOU THAT ITS OVER..BUT IT HAS TO BE! PLEASE DON'T WRITE BACK, OR CALL ME. I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU. IM SORRY..DON'T EVEN ASK ME TO FORGIVE YOU OR TRY TO EXPLAIN...YOU KNOW I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. BYE. *YOURS TRULY- KRYSTAL*
I PUT IT IN AN ENVELOP, ADDRESSED IT AND ASKED MY MOM IF SHE WOULD SEND IT FOR ME, CAUSE I WASN'T SURE IF I COULD. SHE SAID OKAY. I WENT BACK TO MY ROOM AND PUT ON MINE AND MATT'S SONG, "HELPLESSLY, HOPELESSLY, RECKLESSLY" BY JESSICA ANDREWS. THAT SONG DESCRIBED THE WAY I FELT ABOUT MATT PERFECTLY. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT WE WERE REALLY BREAKING UP. I LAID IN MY BED, AND BROKE DOWN AND CRIED. I COULDN'T HOLD BACK THE TEARS EVEN IF I WANTED TO. IT WAS JUST SUCH A SURPRISE, I SPENT 3 YEARS WITH MATT, AND OUT OF NOWHERE..HE DOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS! I GUESS A PART OF ME EXPECTED IT THOUGH. I MEAN, I NEVER EXPECTED HIM TO CHEAT ON ME! BUT I KNEW THAT IT WOULDN'T LAST...LONG DISTANCE REALATIONSHIPS WERE IMPOSSIBLE..I KNEW THAT. BUT I STILL COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH IT HURT.
CHAPTER 3: A SUDDEN ATTRACTION
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL. I WAS A MESS. I HAD BEEN CRYING EARLIER, AND WAS EVEN CRYING A LITTLE BIT IN FIRST PERIOD. CHRIS ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG. I TOLD HIM THAT I HAD A PROBLEM WITH MY BOYFRIEND, BUT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. HE SAID THAT HE UNDERSTOOD, AND AT THE END OF THE PERIOD, HE PASSED ME A NOTE. IT SAID...
I'M SORRY ABOUT THE PROBLEM YOUR HAVING WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, AND I I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING, BUT IF YOU EVER DO..IM HERE. JUST CALL ME. 555-7895 -CHRIS.
I APPRECIATED HIS CONCERN, BUT THE LAST THING I WANTED TO DO, WAS TALK ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED WITH MATT. I DECIDED TO KEEP HIS NUMBER THOUGH, JUST INCASE I EVER DID WANT TO TALK. AT LUNCH, I MET UP WITH ANDI AND BRITTANY, AND THEY INSTANTLY KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. I DECIDED TO TELL THEM EVERYTHING. I NEEDED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT IT. THEY WERE BOTH REALLY UNDERSTANDING. "...AND YOU WERE WITH THIS GUY FOR 3 YEARS?" ANDI ASKED. "YEA" "WHAT A JERK! YOUR SO BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM" BRITTANY SAID. "THANX GUYS, I APPRECIATE IT" THEY BOTH SMILED. THEN I TOLD THEM ABOUT THE GUY IN FIRST PERIOD, THAT GAVE ME HIS NUMBER AND STUFF. "WHO IS HE?" BRITTANY ASKED. "HE SAID HIS NAME WAS CHRIS...OH THERE HE IS" I POINTED TO HIM, HE WAS IN A GROUP WITH A BUNCH OF OTHER GUYS. "THAT CHRIS?!?!" ANDI SAID "CHRIS TROUSDALE?!?!" "YEA I GUESS, WHY?" "HE'S ONLY LIKE THE MOST POPULAR, CUTEST, NICEST GUY AT THIS SCHOOL!!" BRITTANY SAID. NOW THAT I LOOKED AT HIM, HE WAS REALLY REALLY CUTE. "HE IS CUTE" I SAID "YEA HE IS! HE'S IN A BAND TOO!" ANDI TOLD ME "A BAND? REALLY? WHATS IT CALLED?" "DREAMSTREET" THEY BOTH ANSWERED. "OH COOL" I FELT A SUDDEN ATTRACTION. IT WAS DEFINITELY WEIRD. BUT I WASN'T OVER MATT, AND I DIDN'T FEEL READY TO MOVE ON TO SOMEONE ELSE. ESPECIALLY SOMEONE THAT PROBABLY HAD AN EGO THE SIZE OF TEXAS! I MEAN, I DON'T WANT TO BE JUDGMENTAL OR ANYTHING, BUT MOST GUYS THAT ARE FAMOUS OR HAVE SOME KINDOF TALENT, ARE CONCEITED. MAYBE HE WASN'T, BUT I'M NOT EXACTLY IN THE MOOD TO FIND OUT RIGHT NOW.
CHAPTER 4: DEPRESSED
(ABOUT A WEEK LATER) I WOKE UP LATE THIS MORNING. I WAS IN SUCH A HURRY TO GET TO SCHOOL, I JUST WORE MY PAJAMAS, THREW MY HAIR UP, AND PUT ON A LITTLE BIT OF MAKE UP ON IN THE CAR. I WAS ALMOST EMBARRASSED TO GO INTO 1ST PERIOD, BUT I WAS SO DEPRESSED THAT WEEK THAT I DIDN'T EVEN CARE WHAT I LOOKED LIKE. DURING 1ST PERIOD, CHRIS PASSED ME A NOTE. IT SAID, "U LOOK VERY SEXY TODAY :)" IT MADE ME LAUGH, CUZ I KNEW HOW BAD I LOOKED. BUT I TOOK MY PENCIL AND WROTE BACK "THANX. ::COUGH::COUGH::LIAR" THEN HE WROTE BACK "I'M ACTUALLY BEING SERIOUS...OH YEA. IM A LIL DISAPPOINTED THAT YOU NEVER CALLED ME! :( " I READ IT, AND KINDOF FELT BAD. I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY. I MEAN, I REALLY WAS STILL THINKING ABOUT MATT ALOT, THAT NO OTHER GUY REALLY CROSSED MY MIND. SO I JUST WROTE BACK AND SAID "IM SORRY, I HAVEN'T REALLY FELT UP TO TALKING LATELY. IF YOU WANT, I'LL CALL YOU TONIGHT" I PASSED HIM THE NOTE, AND JUST AS HE WAS ABOUT TO READ IT, THE TEACHER CAUGHT US. "YOU WANNA BRING THAT UP HERE MR. TROUSDALE?" "UM..NOT REALLY" (EVERYONE LAUGHED) "IT WASN'T A REQUEST. BRING ME THE NOTE" CHRIS GAVE HIM THE NOTE, AND HE THREW IT AWAY "THATS THE LAST TIME I WANT TO SEE THAT, YOU UNDERSTAND?" "YEA" WE BOTH SAID, AND GIGGLED A LITTLE BIT. ON THE WAY TO SECOND PERIOD, HE CAUGHT UP TO ME IN THE HALL WAY. "HEY, WHAT DID YOU WRITE IN THE NOTE?" "OH I JUST SAID THAT I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN FEELING UP TO TALKING THIS WEEK" "OH I SEE, YOU THINK YOU'LL BE UP TO TALKING TO ME AT ALL?" "OH..I DIDN'T MEAN THAT I WASN'T UP TO TALKIG TO YOU! I JUS HAVEN'T BEEN UP TO TALKING TO ANYONE..I'VE BEEN KINDOF, IDUNNO..DEPRESSED LATELY." "OH IM SORRY, YOU THINK YOU'LL BE UP TO TALKING TONIGHT? I DON'T HAVE ANY REHEARSALS WITH THE GUYS..SO I SHOULD BE HOME" "YEA, I MIGHT BE. BUT I THINK I LOST THAT LETTER WITH YOUR NUMBER ON IT" HE TOOK OUT A PEN, AND WROTE THE NUMBER ON MY HAND. "THANX, I'LL TRY AND CALL YOU TONIGHT K?" "OKAY" WHEN I GOT HOME THAT NIGHT, I WENT TO THE PHONE TO CALL CHRIS. BUT IT RANG BEFORE I COULD PICK IT UP TO DIAL HIS NUMBER. "HELLO?" "HEY BABE" I HEARD A FAMILIAR VOICE ON THE OTHER END OF THE PHONE "MATT?" "YEA" "WHAT DO YOU WANT? I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU NOT TO CALL ME?" "I KNOW..BUT I HAD TO. I REALLY MISS YOU" "I BET YOU DO..LISTEN, I HAVE TO GO" "NO PLEASE, I NEED TO TALK TO YOU" "THERE ISN'T ANYTHING TO TALK ABOUT, ITS OVER!" I HUNG UP THE PHONE. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE CALLED ME. I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET OVER SOMEONE THAT REFUSES TO LET ME? I DECIDED THAT RIGHT NOW WAS THE PERFECT TIME TO CALL CHRIS. I PICKED UP THE PHONE AND DIAL HIS NUMBER. ::RING RING::RING RING:: "HELLO?" "IS CHRIS THERE?" "THIS IS HIM" "HEY, ITS KRYSTAL" "OH HEY, WHATS UP?" "NOT TOO MUCH..YOU?" "NOTHIN REALLY" "KEWL" "SO WHY HAVE YOU BEEN SO DOWN LATELY?" "ITS KINDOF ALONG STORY" "WELL I'VE GOT TIME" SO I TOLD HIM ABOUT ME AND MATT, AND HOW WE WENT OUT FOR SO LONG, AND THEN HOW HE CHEATED ON ME AND HOW HE JUST CALLED ME. "HE HAS GOT TO BE THE DUMBEST PERSON I'VE EVER MET?" CHRIS SAID. "WHY DO YOU SAY THAT?" "WELL, ANYONE WHO WOULD CHEAT ON YOU, HAS GOT TO BE AN IDIOT! HE OBVIOUSLY DIDN'T KNOW A WHAT A WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND HE HAD" "AWWW. THATS SWEET OF YOU TO SAY" "WELL IM ONLY BEING HONEST, I WOULD FEEL REALLY LUCKY TO BE WITH A GIRL LIKE YOU..." I SUDDENLY GOT QUIET. WAS HE TRYING TO HINT TO ME THAT HE LIKED ME OR SOMETHING? NO! IT COULDN'T BE, COULD IT? I MEAN, HE WAS LIKE ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR, CUTEST, NICEST GUYS AT OUR SCHOOL (ACCORDING TO BRITTANY) COULD HE REALLY BE THE SLIGHTEST INTERESTED IN ME?? I DOUBT IT! BESIDES, WHO'S TO SAY IM INTERESTED IN HIM? HE MAY BE THE MOST POPULAR, CUTEST, SWEETEST GUY IN THE WHOLE SCHOOL, BUT HE'S PROBABLY THE MOST EGOTISTICAL TOO! THATS ONE THING I CAN'T STAND..A PERFECT GUY THAT KNOWS HES PERFECT! GRRRRR! COULD THERE BE ANYTHING MORE ANNOYING?!?! "KRYSTAL? YOU THERE" CHRIS SAID INTERRUPTING MY THOUGHTS. "OH YEAH, SORRY. I WAS THINKING" "YOU DO AN AWFUL LOT OF THAT, DON'T YOU?" "HA HA. YEA, I GUESS. OH CAN YOU HOLD ON, THERES ANOTHER CALL" "YEA SURE" "OK, I'LL BE RIGHT BACK" I CLICKED OVER. "HELLO?" "BABE, PLEASE DON'T HANG UP" "MATT! WHAT DO YOU WANT!? STOP CALLING ME!" "PLEASE, I REALLY HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. I MISS YOU!" "LEAVE ME ALONE ..ITS OVER!!" I CLICKED BACK OVER WHERE CHRIS WAS WAITING, I TRIED NOT TO START CRYING..BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT. "SORRY ABOUT THAT" I SAID. "ARE YOU OKAY?" "YEA I'M FINE" I WIPED MY TEARS, BUT IT DIDN'T HELP, THEY JUST KEPT COMING. "WHO WAS THAT?" CHRIS ASKED "NOBODY" "NOBODY? IT SURE DOESN'T SOUND LIKE NOBODY." "IT WAS MATT" "OH I SEE.YOU WANNA TALK TO HIM? I WILL UNDERSTAND IF YOU DO" "NO, I DON'T WANNA TALK TO HIM" ::MIMICING CHRIS IN MY HEAD:: DO YOU WANT TO TALK TO HIM? I WILL UNDERSTAND IF YOU DO?? GOD DOES HE HAVE TO SAY ALL THE RIGHT THINGS!!?! "OH OK ARE U GONNA BE OKAY?" ::MIMIKING HIM IN MY HEAD AGAIN:: ARE YOU GONNA BE OKAY!?! GRRRR! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE SOOO NICE!!?? "YEA..I'LL BE FINE..." I WIPE THE TEARS AWAY..THIS TIME FOR GOOD. "...SO, HOW DO YOU LIKE BEING IN A BAND? I STILL HAVEN'T HEARD HOW YOU GUYS SOUND, I BET YOUR GOOD THOUGH, YOU WANNA SING FOR ME NOW?" "RIGHT NOW!?" "COME ON..YOUR BIG FAMOUS SINGER..DON'T TELL ME YOUR SCARED?" "I'M NOT SCARED...UM..WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SING?" "IDUNNO..SOMETHING OFF YOUR CD PERHAPS" "OK. SURE, WHY NOT?..." WE WERE BOTH QUIET FOR A SECOND, AND THEN CHRIS STARTED SINGING "...'I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME TONIGHT.OOH OOH. YEA YEA. SOMEBODY WHO'S HOLDING ME TIGHT. OOH OOH. WELL WELL. ALRIGHT. I WANNA GET TOGETHER WITH YOU OOH WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART, IM ON FIRE WHAT CAN I DO'.." WOW HE HAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL VOICE. AND THAT SONG! WOW! "THAT WAS REALLY GOOD." I TOLD HIM..I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY. "THANKS..I GUESS" "LISTEN, IM REALLY SORRY. BUT I GOTTA GET IN THE SHOWER" "OH GREAT, LEAVE ME WITH THAT PICTURE IN MY HEAD" WE BOTH LAUGHED. "WELL I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW" HE SAID "OKAY, THANKS FOR THE TALK. CIAO" "YOUR WELCOME. BYE" WHEN I GOT OUT OF THE SHOWER, I STARTED MY HOMEWORK. I COULDN'T CONCINTRATE. ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS CHRIS...THAT SONG...HIS VOICE. WHY COULDN'T I GET IT OFF MY MIND? I DID MY BEST TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK. I GOT DONE WITH MATH, HISTORY, AND FRENCH..BUT WHEN I GOT TO SCIENCE.. MY MIND WAS COMPLETELY BLANK. I DIDN'T KNOW EXACTLY WHY CHRIS WAS TOTALLY MONOPOLIZING MY THOUGHTS, BUT I DECIDED TO SET MY ALARM CLOCK A LITTLE BIT EARLIER, AND TRY TO FINISH MY SCIENCE HOMEWORK IN THE MORNING. SO I LAID IN BED..AND TRIED TO SLEEP..
CHAPTER 5: THE QUESTION
SO MUCH FOR MY PLAN TO GET UP EARLY AND FINISH MY HOMEWORK. I WOKE UP AT 7:30! LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER DAY OF WEARING MY PAJAMAS TO SCHOOL! OH WELL..LAST TIME CHRIS THOUGHT I LOOKED SEXY... WAIT! WHY DO I CARE?? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! WHY AM I EVEN THINKING ABOUT HOW CHRIS THINKS OF THE WAY I LOOK? THIS IS REALLY STARTING TO FREAK ME OUT...AM I STARTING 2 LIKE CHRIS? ANYWAY..I WASN'T LATE FOR SCHOOL. THAT WAS A GOOD THING..BUT I DIDN'T HAVE MY HOMEWORK DONE! OH WELL..I THOUGHT. ONE DAY WON'T COMPLETELY KILL MY GRADE. I WAS SITTING IN MY SEAT, WAITING FOR CLASS TO START, WHEN I SAW CHRIS WALK IN. SUDDENLY EVERYONE ELSE IN THE ROOM DISAPPEARED. MY MIND WAS BLANK. I GUESS I WAS COMPLETELY STARING AT HIM, BECAUSE HE CAME UP TO ME AND ASKED ME IF THERE WAS SOMETHING HANGING OUT OF HIS NOSE. "WHAT? WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT"I LAUGHED AT HIS QUESTION "IS THERE SOMETHING HANGING OUT OF MY NOSE?" "NO WHY WOULD U ASK A SILLY QUESTION LIKE THAT?" "WELL U WERE LOOKING AT ME FOR AWHILE..I THOUGHT THAT I MIGHT HAVE SOMETHING ON MY FACE OR SOMETHING." "OH NO, YOU DON'T" OMG! WAS I REALLY THAT OBVIOUS? AHH! THIS IS GETTING A LIL OUT OF HAND! ALL PERIOD I TRIED TO CONCENTRATE ON WHAT THE TEACHER WAS SAYING..I JUST KEPT CATCHING MYSELF LOOKING AT CHRIS..EVEN HE CAUGHT ME A COUPLE TIMES! IM STARTING TO EMBARRASS MYSELF! I NEED TO STOP THIS. AFTER CLASS..I HURRIED OUT OF THE DOOR TO GO TO MY LOCKER. BUT CHRIS STOPPED ME. "HEY ARE U OKAY? YOUR NOT REALLY TALKING TO ME" "YEA IM FINE." "OKAY COOL....WELL LISTEN, I WAS WONDERING IF THIS WEEKEND YOU WOULD MAYBE WANNA GO SEE A MOVIE OR SOMETHING." OH WOW! DID HE JUST ASK ME OUT?! "LIKE A DATE..?" I ASKED HIM..FOR SOME REASSURANCE. "YEA LIKE A DATE...SO..WHAT DO YOU SAY?" OK! HE IS ASKING ME OUT! AHH! WAT SHOULD I SAY? AM I REALLY READY TO JUST GO OUT ON A DATE..WHEN I HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN SEPARATED FROM MATT FOR A MONTH!! "LISTEN..I KNOW YOU JUST HAD THOSE PROBLEMS WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, AND I UNDERSTAND THAT ITS A LITTLE SUDDEN FOR YOU TO MOVE ON TO ANOTHER GUY..BUT I'M REALLY INTERESTED IN YOU..SO IF YOU WANT WE CAN JUST GO AS FRIENDS OR SOMETHING, I JUST REALLY WANT TO SPEND SOME MORE TIME WITH YOU AND GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER" "OK. OF COURSE I'LL GO WITH YOU. AND THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ABOUT MATT..." "YOUR WELCOME..SO I'LL SEE U SATURDAY?" "YEA SATURDAY" OMG! I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GONNA GO ON A DATE WITH HIM. DOES THIS MEAN I LIKE HIM? DOES IT MEAN THAT WE'RE GONNA BECOME BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND? DOES THIS MEAN I'M COMPLETELY OVER MATT? NO! I KNOW IM NOT COMPLETELY OVER MATT. BUT WHO KNOWS? MAYBE THIS IS THE KEY TO FINDING SOMEONE BETTER. ITS WEIRD THAT LESS THEN 2 MONTHS AGO..I WAS TELLING MATT THAT THERE WAS NO OTHER GUY BETTER THEN HIM, AND A PART OF ME STILL THINKS THAT.... THAT PART OF ME IS DEBATING ON WHETHER OR NOT I SHOULD OF SAID YES TO CHRIS...
CHAPTER 6:THE DATE
-SATURDAY NIGHT- I COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TO GET READY. AFTER I GOT OUT OF THE SHOWER, I BLOW DRIED AND STRAIGHTENED MY HAIR, AND DID MY MAKE-UP. BUT WHEN IT CAME TO DECIDING WHAT TO WEAR..I WAS STUCK! I MUST HAVE TRIED ON 20 DIFFERENT OUTFITS! AFTER ABOUT AN HOUR..I FINALLY DECIDED TO WEAR MY WHITE CAPRIS, A RED SHIRT THAT WAS LOW CUT AND EXPOSED MY MY STOMACH,(ALWAYS HAVE TO SHOW SKIN ON THE FIRST DATE..MINE, BELLE'S AND CLHOE'S #1 RULE)AND MY RED SANDALS(ITS FUNNY..THATS THE FIRST OUTFIT I TRIED ON TOO!) I LOOKED OVER MYSELF IN THE MIRROR OVER AND OVER. I DIDN'T WANT THE SLIGHTEST HAIR TO BE OUT OF PLACE..DON'T ASK ME WHY.
I WAS supposed TO MEET CHRIS IN FRONT OF THE MOVIE THEATER AT 7:00. I WAS ABOUT 10-15 MINUTES LATE..BUT LIKE MATT USED TO TELL ME "ALWAYS LATE..BUT WORTH THE WAIT" GOOD THOUGHT TO STICK IN YOUR BACK POCKET EH? I APPROACHED CHRIS AND APOLOGIZED FOR BEING LATE. "DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. YOU LOOK AMAZING" "THANK YOU" "SO DO YOU WANNA SEE A MOVIE? OR GET SOMETHING TO EAT? OR BOTH?" "UM..IT DOESN'T MATTER" "WELL LETS SEE..I'VE BEEN REALLY WANTING TO SEE '13TH GHOST' YOU UP FOR IT?" "A SCARY MOVIE?" "YOU DON'T LIKE SCARY MOVIES?" "NO I DO..I GUESS..I JUST GET A LITTLE UM..SCARED?" I WAS A LITTLE EMBARRASSED, I FELT LIKE I WAS IN 7TH GRADE! "WELL DON'T WORRY..THATS WHAT I'M HERE FOR" I SMILED AT HIM AND SAID OKAY. WE SAT IN THE BACK OF THE MOVIE THEATER, WE WERE THE ONLY 2 PEOPLE IN THE ROW. I LIKED IT THAT WAY. THE MOVIE STARTED..AND AS I EXPECTED, NOT EVEN 15 MINUTES PAST AND I WAS ALREADY CLINGING TO CHRIS'S JACKET. HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME AND I LEANED IN CLOSER TO HIM. THERE SOMETHING ABOUT THAT MOMENT THAT FELT SO RIGHT. SUDDENLY MATT POPPED INTO MY HEAD AND AN ICY CHILL RAN DOWN MY BACK! NO MATT! LEAVE! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! I'M NOT GONNA LET YOU RUIN THIS MOMENT! GO AWAY! I GIGGLED AT MY THOUGHTS, ON HOW RIDICULOUS THEY WERE. CHRIS MUST OF THOUGHT I WAS LAUGHING AT HIM BECAUSE HE TOOK HIS ARM OFF MY SHOULDERS AND LOOKED AT ME CONFUSED. "DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG?" HE WHISPERED "OH NO, OF COURSE NOT. I WAS ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE MOMENT" HE SMILED AT ME, AND PUT HIS ARM BACK AROUND ME. WE REMAINED THAT WAY FOR THE REST OF THE MOVIE. AFTER THE MOVIE, HE ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT. I TOLD HIM THAT I WASN'T THAT HUNGRY, SO HE SUGGESTED ICE CREAM. I AGREED TO THAT. THERE WAS A SMALL ICE CREAM SHOP, RIGHT NEXT TO THE MOVIE THEATER. I ORDERED A STRAWBERRY BANANA SMOOTHY, AND CHRIS ORDERED A BANANA SPLIT. WE SAT AND TALKED WHILE EATING OUR ICE CREAM. I WAS REALLY HAVING A GREAT TIME. HE WAS LIKE THE PERFECT GENTLEMEN. HE OPENED DOORS FOR ME, PAID FOR EVERYTHING (WHICH WAS WAY DIFFERENT THEN MATT..HE NEVER PAID) THERE WAS SOME TIMES THAT IT WAS QUIET, BUT IT WASN'T AN AWKWARD SILENCE. AFTER WE WERE DONE,IT WAS STILL KINDOF EARLY (ONLY AROUND 9:30) AND MY MOM WASN'T EXPECTING ME HOME FOR ANOTHER COUPLE HOURS. SO WE DECIDED TO WALK AROUND A LITTLE BIT. I COMMENTED THAT IT WAS COLD, AND CHRIS TOOK HIS JACKET OFF AND PUT IT AROUND ME (ANOTHER THING THAT MATT NEVER DID) "ARE YOU COLD? CUZ I CAN LIVE WITH IT IF YOU ARE, YOU CAN KEEP YOUR JACKET." I SAID "OH NO, I'M FINE" HE RESPONDED. HE TOOK MY HAND AND LEAD ME TO A SMALL PARK BEHIND THE MOVIE THEATER WHERE WE WALKED AROUND AND TALKED."SO HOW DO YOU LIKE NEW YORK SO FAR?" HE SAID "ITS OK, I GUESS. BUT I REALLY MISS EVERYONE BACK HOME, AND I MISS MY DAD" "OH I SEE. I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT" "YEA..YOU MUST LIKE IT HERE ALOT RIGHT?" "YEA..IT JUST GETS BETTER.." HE SMILED AT ME. HE HAD A BEAUTIFUL SMILE, AND HIS EYES..THEY WERE AMAZING. I KNOW IT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING OUT OF A TRASHY ROMANCE NOVEL, BUT THERE ISN'T ANY OTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN IT. I COULD'VE STAYED THERE ALL NIGHT LOOKING INTO HIS EYES. "YOUR SO BEAUTIFUL" CHRIS SAID. I SUDDENLY GOT A LITTLE EMBARASSED..I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO RESPOND.."THANX...YOU TOO" I CHUCKLED AT MY RESPONSE. THAT MUST OF SOUNDED SO STUPID. HE LAUGHED TOO. "I'M SORRY. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY" I TOLD HIM. "OH, I SEE. ITS OKAY" WE WALKED AROUND AND TALKED FOR A LITTLE WHILE LONGER, AND I DECIDED THAT IT WAS TIME TO GO HOME. HE TOLD ME HE WOULD WALK ME, BECAUSE MY HOUSE WAS ONLY A FEW BLOCKS FROM THE THEATER. SO WE HEADED OFF IN THAT DIRECTION. WHEN WE GOT TO MY HOUSE..I KINDOF REGRETTED MY DECISION. "SO HERE WE ARE" HE SAID "I HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME TONIGHT" I RESPONDED "ME TOO, MAYBE WE CAN DO IT AGAIN" "YEA. BYE" AS I STARTED WALKING TOWARDS THE DOOR..HE STOPPED ME. "YEA?" I SAID. HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING, HE JUST PUT HIS ARMS AROUND My WAIST AND GENTLY KISSED MY LIPS. HE PAUSED FOR A MINUTE TO SEE IF I WAS ENJOYING THE MOMENT. AS HE SAW THAT I WAS..HE KISSED ME AGAIN. THIS TIME WITH TONGUE...PULLING ME CLOSER TO HIM. WE BACKED AWAY FROM EACH OTHER AND SMILED "GOOD NIGHT" HE SAID AND WALKED AWAY.
CHAPTER 7: WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?
I OPENED THE DOOR AND SHUT IT BEHIND ME. AS I ACKNOWLEDGED WHO WAS IN THE ROOM..MY MOUTH DROPPED. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE?!" I SAID TO MATT. "WHO WAS THAT GUY?" HE ASKED THROUGH JEALOUSY "NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS!!" I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT HE WAS REALLY HERE. "HOW DID YOU GET HERE?" "I CAME WITH YOUR DAD..ME AND MY DAD RAN INTO HIM AT A FOOTBALL GAME AND HE SAID HE WAS PLANNING TO COME SEE YOU. I TOLD HIM THAT WE WERE HAVING SOME PROBLEMS, AND SO HE AGREED THAT I COULD COME WITH HIM TO SEE YOU..IF MY DAD SAID IT WAS OK. AND HE DID, SO HERE I AM" JUST THEN MY DAD APPEARED IN THE ROOM. I RAN UP TO HIM AND GAVE HIM A BIG HUG. "DADDY!!" "OH PRINCESS, I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH" HE SAID "I'VE MISSED YOU TOO" "HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR NEW SCHOOL?" "IT'S FINE..I'VE MET SOME REALLY NICE PEOPLE" "I CAN SEE THAT.." MATT SAID, LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW, WATCHING CHRIS WALK AWAY "..SO MATT...HOWS MEGAN?" I SAID SARCASTICALLY. HE LOOKED AT ME WITH GUILT. ITS FUNNY..HE NEVER EVEN TRIED TO DENY IT..THAT SURPRISED ME. I WAS SURE HE WOULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT 'I DIDN'T DO IT BABE' BY THIS TIME MY DAD WAS ON THE PHONE..PROBABLY BUSINESS OR SOMETHING. "I'M NOT GOING TO DISCUSS THIS WITH YOU HERE" I TOLD HIM AND LEAD THE WAY TO MY ROOM. I SHUT THE DOOR AND LOCKED IT..I DIDN'T WANT ANYONE INTERRUPTING US. I WAS REALLY ANGRY WITH HIM FOR SHOWING UP LIKE THIS, AND THEN QUESTIONING WHO I WAS GOING OUT WITH?! "ARE YOU HAPPY TO SEE ME BABE?" HE SAID, COMPLETELY CONFIDENT. "HAPPY?? TO SEE YOU?? YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME!!" I SAID LAUGHING."DID YOU HONESTLY THINK THAT YOU WERE GOING TO SHOW UP HERE AND I WAS JUST GOING TO FORGIVE YOU?!?" "WELL I WAS HOPING WE COULD TALK THINGS THROUGH A LIL..3 YEARS IS ALOT TO GIVE UP JUST LIKE THAT" "YEA..AND WHO'S FAULT IS IT THAT ITS OVER?" "MINE. LOOK I KNOW THAT I MESSED UP, BUT I'M SORRY. I'LL DO ANYTHING TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU BABE" "YOU CAN'T JUST MAKE IT UP TO ME MATT! ITS NOT LIKE I CAN FORGET ABOUT IT! I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO TRUST YOU AGAIN!" "YEA YOU CAN. I LOVE YOU BABE.." I LOOKED AT HIM SILENTLY..SO MANY WONDERFUL MEMORIES RAN THROUGH MY HEAD. HE LOOKED AT ME WITH SOO MUCH SORROW AND LOVE IN HIS EYES. MY MOOD SUDDENLY CHANGED...I WAS SO CONFUSED. "YOU DO BELIEVE THAT I LOVE YOU..DON'T YOU BABE?" I WASN'T SURE HOW TO RESPOND. "IDUNNO.." I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. WE JUST STOOD THERE, LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. HE TOOK HIS HAND AND BRUSHED MY HAIR OFF MY FACE..HIS FINGERS FELT SO GENTLE. I GOT BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH, SOMETHING I WAS USED TO GETTING WHEN I WAS WITH MATT. HE MOVED CLOSER TO ME, AND BEFORE I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON..WE WERE KISSING! I KNOW YOUR PROBABLY THINKING WHAT AN IDIOT I AM...BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT. I WRAPPED MY ARMS AROUND HIM AND RETURNED THE KISS..I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING. DID THIS MEAN I WAS FORGIVING HIM? FORGIVING HIM FOR BETRAYING ME? FOR TAKING THE FIRST AVAILABLE CHANCE TO SATISFY MINI MATT? I WASN'T SURE WHERE THIS KISS WAS GOING TO LEAD TO, BUT I KNEW THAT I WANTED MATT. I WANTED HIM..NO..I NEEDED HIM CLOSE TO ME.
CHAPTER 8
MATT LEAD ME TO THE BED. "I'M SO SORRY BABE.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH" HE SAID, KISSING ME AGAIN. "I LOVE YOU TOO MATT" I RESPONDED, SAYING ANYTHING TO MAKE SURE WE CONTINUED KISSING. I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH I MISSED MATT, AND HOW MUCH I NEEDED HIM..BUT THAT MOMENT EVERTHING LEFT MY MIND..CHRIS, MEGAN..ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT WAS HOW WONDERFUL THIS FELT, AND HOW MUCH I NEVER WANTED IT TO STOP. BY THIS TIME WE WERE BOTH LAYING DOWN ON THE BED AND MATT WAS PRACTICALLY ON TOP OF ME, KISSING MY LIPS, AND MOVING DOWN MY NECK. JUST THEN THE PHONE RANG. I IGNORED IT. LESS THEN A MINUTE LATER MY MOM CALLED TO ME "KRYSTAL THE PHONES FOR YOU" AHH! GREAT! PERFECT TIMING! I THOUGHT BEFORE I PICKED UP THE PHONE ON MY BEDSIDE TABLE. IT WAS CHRIS. I TOLD HIM THAT MY DAD WAS VISITING SO I COULDN'T REALLY TALK. I DIDN'T WANT TO EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT MATT WAS HERE OR ANYTHING, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN TO HARD. HE SAID THAT HE UNDERSTOOD, REMINDED ME ON WHAT A GREAT TIME HE HAD AND THAT HE WOULD SEE ME ON MONDAY AT SCHOOL. I SAID OKAY AND HUNG UP. I FELT KINDOF BAD FOR JUS BLOWING HIM OFF FOR MY DAD..BUT I HONESTLY COULDN'T TALK TO HIM. BESIDES, WHAT WOULD I HAVE SAID.."SORRY CHIRS, ME AND MATT ARE GETTING BACK TOGETHER AT THE MOMENT..I'LL CALL YOU BACK" I DON'T THINK SO! MATT ASKED WHO IT WAS. TO SAVE TIME EXPLAINING I JUST SAID THAT IT WAS BRITTANY. "NOW WHERE WERE WE.." HE ASKED. SMILING...HE PULLED ME CLOSER TO HIM AND WE STARTED KISSING AGAIN. JUST THEN MY MOM KNOCKED ON THE DOOR. I WENT AND OPENED IT FOR HER "YOUR DAD WANTS TO KNOW IF YOU WANT TO COME VISIT WITH HIM FOR A COUPLE DAYS?" I THOUGHT FOR A SECOND ABOUT CHRIS AND SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING..BUT THIS WAS PROBABLY THE FIRST CHANCE I WAS GOING TO GET TO SEE MY DAD IN AWHILE..SO I SAID YEA. (LATER THAT NIGHT)MATT SLEPT IN ONE OF THE GUEST BEDROOMS AND MY DAD SLEPT IN THE OTHER. I WAS SORTA RELIEVED I WAS ALONE IN MY ROOM..IT GAVE ME TIME TO THINK. WAS THIS WHAT I REALLY WANTED?? AND THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT CHRIS..HE WAS SUCH A GREAT GUY. AND I HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME WITH HIM...BUT THE FEELINGS I HAD FOR CHRIS WERE WAY DIFFERENT THEN THE FEELINGS I HAD FOR MATT. I LOVED MATT. AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME TOO. I MEAN, EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES, RITE? AT THAT MOMENT I KNEW I WAS MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE. AT LEAST I HOPED I WAS...
CHAPTER 9:OMG! I'VE MISSED YOU
WE LEFT FOR NEW JERSEY ON SUNDAY AFTERNOON. I WAS SO EXCITED..I COULDN'T WAIT TO SEE EVERYONE. MATT SEEMED PRETTY EXCITED TO. AT THE AIRPORT I HUGGED MY MOM GOODBYE..AND TOLD HER THAT I LOVED HER. THE PLANE RIDE WAS SO BORING. BUT WHEN WE FINALLY GOT THERE..IT WAS WORTH IT. WE TOOK A TAXI HOME, AND STOPED AT MATT'S ON THE WAY TO DROP HIM OFF. "BYE BABE. I'LL CALL YOU TONIGHT..WE'LL DO SOMETHING ALRIGHT?" "OKAY. BYE" HE KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK AND WALKED TO HIS FRONT DOOR. WHEN I GOT HOME IT WAS ABOUT 5:30. I IMMEDIATELY WENT UPSTAIRS TO MY OLD ROOM..IT WAS EXACTLY HOW I LEFT IT..I UNPACKED ALL MY STUFF, AND PUT A PICTURE OF ME, CHLOE AND BELLE ON MY NIGHT STAND. AFTER ABOUT 30 MIN I GOT MY ROOM LOOKIN SOMEWAT OKAY..THERE WAS NO POINT ON SPENDING ALOT OF TIME ON IT..I WAS JUST GONNA UNDO IT ALL IN 4 DAYS. WHEN I WAS DONE..I CALLED CHLOE. "HEY GIRL!" SHE SAID. "HEY HUNN..GUESS WHO JUST ARRIVED IN NEW JERSEY?" "UM..I GIVE UP" "MEEH! SILLY! "OH MY GOD! ARE YOU SERIOUS? I'M CALLING BELLE! WE'RE COMING OVER!!" I LAUGHED "OKAY..THEN I'LL SEE YOU GUYS WHEN YOU GET HERE" ABOUT 15 MINUTES LATER I HEARD A KNOCK AT THE DOOR. I RAN TO ANSWER IT. IT WAS BELLE AND CHLOE..I ALMOST CRIED WHEN I SAW THEM! I GAVE THEM BOTH A BIG HUG..AND WE WENT UP STAIRS TO MY ROOM, WHERE WE JUST LISTENED TO MUSIC AND TALKED. I TOLD THEM ABOUT CHRIS AND MATT. THEY BOTH COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT HE SHOWED UP IN NEW YORK AND THAT I FORGAVE HIM! "HOW COULD YOU FORGIVE HIM?! AFTER WHAT HE DID?!" BELLE ASKED "YOU GUYS DON'T UNDERSTAND..HE REALLY LOVES ME!!" I TOLD THEM..THEN REALIZED HOW STUPID IT SOUNDED. WHY AM I EVEN TRYING TO DEFEND OUR RELATIONSHIP TO MY BEST FRIENDS?? "LOOK HUNN..IF YOU WANT TO GIVE HIM ANOTHER CHANCE..THEN I UNDERSTAND. I JUST HOPE YOU DON'T GET HURT AGAIN" CHLOE SAID "YEA ME TOO" BELLE AGREED. "THANX GUYS, I APPRECIATE YOUR CONCERN. BUT I KNOW MATT..I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING" AT LEAST I HOPE I DO..I THOUGHT TO MYSELF. AFTER ABOUT 20 MINUTES OF JUST TALKING AND CATCHING UP..THEY TOLD ME ABOUT A PARTY THAT THEY WERE GOING TO AND THEY WANTED ME TO GO WITH THEM. I TOLD THEM I WOULD..I REALLY WANTED TO SEE EVERYONE FROM MY OLD SCHOOL AND STUFF. THEY WERE ALREADY READY..SO I JUS JUMPED IN THE SHOWER, PUT MY DARK BLUE JEANS ON WITH MY LIGHT BLUE TANK TOP. CHLOE DID MY HAIR IN PIG TAIL FRENCH BRAIDS WHILE I DID MY MAKEUP. WHEN I WAS ALL READY IT WAS ABOUT 8:00. I CALLED MATT TO TELL HIM WHERE I WAS GOING..BUT NO ONE ANSWERED HIS PHONE. "OH WELL..HE'S PROBABLY AT THE PARTY" BELLE SUGGESTED "YEA PROBABLY" I SAID. SO I SLIPPED ON MY WHITE SHOES GRABBED MY PURSE AND CHLOE DROVE US TO THE PARTY.
