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Disclaimer: Gravi's not mine...and you know what should go
here.Infatuation
Chapter 12 - Asking god for
advice.
For the rest of the day, I had looked at Tatsuha's smiling face
as we tried to make dinner together. I acted as if nothing had happened and went
back to making lyrics as he did his meditations in the bedroom while studying
his school books.
The next day, I came into the concert stage early and
put on the mic in the middle of the stage. I stood there singing along to the
song I had just made. It took a whole two months, but I was finally
done.
When I had finished, I closed my eyes and sighed.
Clap,
clap, clap!
"Shuichi-kun~!" the voice in the crowd said. "That was a cool
song!"
I looked down the stage to find Ryuichi-san waving like crazy to
me.
He ran up to me and we both greeted each other with much genkiness
while jumping up and down with Kumagorou sitting on his head.
"Ohayou!"
"Ohayou!"
But then, Ryuichi patted Kumagorou's paw on my
cheek. "Daijoubu desu ka?"
I looked at him and shook my head.
"Ryuichi-san, can I talk to you?"
"Sure, what?" He just sat there on the
floor.
And I followed.
Hey, what better person to ask than god
himself, right?
(Insert Author's victory sign here along with a happy
smirk.)
"Ryuichi, I have to ask you a serious question."
He nodded
his head and took down Kumagorou from his head and threw it to my lap. "For
courage, of course. If you feel like it's hard to say something, say it to
him."
I nodded my head. I took a deep breath. "Well...how do I put
this?"
He just listened attentively.
"I've been giving this much
thought, but I'm still confused. At first it came as a question as to if Yuki
loved me and then it switched to if I really love him. Then, I answered my own
question with another one of, 'Can't he need me?' I went to Tatsuha and it made
things more complicated. All these emotions and thoughts came crashing
allthemore inside of me. And it didn't help that Yuki shouted at me how much he
loved me and he didn't look like himself." I sighed and continued, "And all I
really know by now are: 1) I just want to be happy and 2) I'm going out of my
mind if I don't find an answer soon."
Ryuichi got up and looked out to
the empty seats below us. "When I sing, I'm trying to find that emotion that I
want to find in life. I can't find it anywhere else, but when I sing. I can't
describe it, but it's there."
Then, he sat back down. Ryuichi placed one
hand on his chin and the other on his knee. "But what do you really want,
Shuichi-kun?"
Silence.
"I want to be needed." I finally said with
my eyes lowered to the ground.
Then, I clenched my hands and stood up
with my tears dropping onto the stage.
I knew the answer all
along...
Hidden so far away in my heart.
"By Yuki..." I whispered.
"Yuki dake da..."
Ryuichi got up and placed his hands on my shoulders.
Then, he picked up my chin and smiled. "If you already knew, why did you ask me,
Shuichi-san?"
He laughed to himself as he nervously stood up once more.
Without looking at me, he said, "It's just like the way I feel for
Tatsuha-kun..."
"Ryuichi-san..." I mumbled
quietly.
Dokidokidoki...
Ryuichi then turned around and smiled.
"What are you waiting around for? We've got to practice for tonight."
And
off he went...
With Kumagorou still in my lap.
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Author's
note: Oh...I know I'm awful now... ^_~
Yuki dake da. - (by) only
Yuki.
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