What Are Friends
I know that i haven't writen in the last couple of weeks but there was and still is just to much stuff on my mind. My so called friend and her boyfriend broke up and he called me after they did. I was trying to make him feel better. I don't how she found out but she did and they both go into it. Than she called me saying all kinds of bullshit. I told her that just because your my friend doesn't mean that he can't be my friend too. She got mad and ask if were together while he was with her. I said no but that seem to make her mad so she hung up on me. Then he called and I'm telling my sister whats going on. Hes yelling in my ear telling that she don't like the fact that we hang up with each ohter. Than he puts both us on the phone together and she yelling and scraming at me. Than my sister starts yelling so i hung up the phone. Now when I get back to school she telling any one whos would listen that I'm scared of her. So i had to get her right. I made sho to that she was around a group of poeple during lunch. I went up to her and ask if she had anthing to say to my face say cuz no respectful woman would say it behind my back and plus if she had an issue with the fact that I hung out with her x she should have said something. And if hear from one more person that you say that i was a scared of you. Than you will have a big problem on your hands. Now say what you have to say so i don't have to put up with you in my presents again. She couldn't say nothing after that. As the weeks went on her x now her boyfriend called and asked if I want to go with him to the tattoo shop down the street. I told him to ask his girl cuz I don't want anything to with her or you so forget this number before I block it. I just found out today who told that i was on the phone with the girls boyfriend and come to find out it was suppose to be good friend of both me and the boy. Man right now I really don't beleive there is a such thing as friends but I can tell you this one thing the only good ture friend I have goes by the name lee-lee. Look let me go before I start to get anger again. And all this comes from the mind of a depress teen.

Not so Good Not so Bad
Well as i said in the last time we talked my mom would find some way to make me go to school.My morning was going good until she said that we were going to see my grandmother on her side until i had to go to the doctor. I mean I love my grandmother but that is just to long of a ride puls St. James is borading. So i end up at school at thrid hour (that's the class that everyone that i know hates). But you know what really kills me is that I was only in school for four hours which was still good. Thats why my day has been not so good not so bad. Taht there is the fact that I have a really cute doctor(which i would mind giving him a check up). The only bad thing that happen today was the fact whats-his-face(that guy that i told you about who wanted to talk to me, well not any more) well he was me today huged up with this new guy that just came to our school about a day ago. So he saw me and well you know how bots are, they throw there fits. But any way he came up to us and ask if we were together. I told him no but we're friends. Well he didn't beleive and well i really don't care but it was funny and sad at the same time because he can't have me but someone who I hardly know can. But boys will be boys. My doctor just has me in a good mood (god that man is fine) but when ever i see my doctor he always but me in a good mood. Cause he's just so fine and sweet like a candy apple. But I guess that just the mind of a happy depress teen. Talk to later.

Better Day
I have to say that today was one of my better days. First there is the fact that that guy that I told you about before hasn't spoken to me for the last two days(lol). Come you have to be happy for me. I mean I could let the boy think that I had feelings for him when I don't. I mean I have more feelings for my dog than I do him (relation wise). But the way i did it was the best way with out getting my feelings caught up in it cause I'll end up staying in it cause I don't want to hurt him. Why do i have to put other people feelings first. So i wrote the guy a letter tell him how i felt in the most nices way I could. That didn't help cause he called me and ask why I wrote the letter when I put why I wrote in the letter, but I told him any way. I had to mean I told my sister to pick up the other line an listen. That didn't stop her from holding her hand on the mouth piece and(bad speller) turn to me and make comments about the boy. Knowing that I'm trying to tell the boy why again and holding in my laugher but you can't help but love my sister when she is like that. Now the second reason why I'm happy you see I just finish making this web design for a friend of mine but you really can't count her one of my friends. Any way i finish it and i want my money tomorrow. You really don't think that I would do it for free. The only way i'll do it for free if her name was lee-lee, nay-nay, nee-nee, ken, jess, dee or bryan ( all girls but bryan). The thrid reason why my day is better than an other day is because I don't have to go to school tomorrow. I get to stay my stuip ass at home until 2:30 than i have to go to the doctor. Wwhen I came home and my mo thold me that I was so happy but that is all good until she finds some reason to make me go. I really should be to happy about that. Look let me go. Talk to you when I can until than. Welcome to a live of a depress teen.

A New Day
A new day my ass. Just the same old bullshit. Just the same as yesterday the only difference is that i had to but up with sven teachers and two of them are with child. That really doesn't help when all you can do is dream about anime. The day isn't going to get any better if this guy that I don't like keep calling here. Come on,you would have thougth that the fact I don't pay you any attention and I don't want you touching me, you get that I don't want to talk to you. I don't mine being your friend but nothing more. I really the way things are. I mean come on what do I need with a boyfirend when I have a good friend who does very thing a boyfriend does but does want to be my bofriend and me his girlfriend, plus he has a girl. It isn't like he is cheating on the girl but the fact that their relationship isn't real. It's just a show. I guess today isn't my day but every day isn't my day. Maybe it's the days in the life of a teenager who has depression. Most peolpe say young kids like me don't get depression but what do they know they didn't grow up or grown up in this time. They don't go through what teenagers now of days have to deal with but than again who wants to. I show in the hell don't want to I mean i have enouch to deal with. That's inculding school, home, work, love life, and social life. I really don't need more. Tahn is the fact I'm in a house hold feel with people who are the same in every way. I feel this the outsider of the outsider's family. They don't try to think of my feeling but I have to thiunk of theirs. Thats really bullshit. When I say this beleive it. You don't want to live my life. Let me go before my mother gets mad about the fact that i'm on the internet while she's at home.

Frist Entry
So how should the frist entry to my blog should go. Should I tell you what goes on in my head or show I make it a dairy for all to read. I don't know, how about I just type what I feel. Maybe from that you'll get a feel of what goes on in my house hold, better yet my head.