September 2002
September 2002 – Folding Oaks
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30 September 2002 – this is not the end
- thirty days has september let me hope its more than that.
29 September 2002 – the storm
- i should have been born with green eyes. i'm a monsterous hive...
28 September 2002 – vibes and groove
- that was a FUN tournament. despite the fact that i was sick as a dog on friday, and nearly passed out walking to third round, i had a REALLY good time. i love rebecca, one of our new novices. everyone got along, i got the sleep i needed friday night, crack and nikki broke, harrison and tirrell broke, and BRAGIN AND I DEBATED SOOOO WELL! we pretty much waltzed into the 2-0 bracket it was so easy. we hit nico and ben schwartz third round friday night (crappy draw) and they ran this unenjoyable case about incorporation to avoid US taxes. blah. so we lost that one, picked up fourth round, and who do we hit fifth round? nico's other half - marty - debating with his current flame - elaine. yeeha. our fourth gov of the tournament, which i was glad for, cause bragin and i have good cases, but i didn't like what they did to the AA case. whatever, either way, we did our best. we didn't stay long enough to get ballots back so we don't know if we were 4-1 or 3-2 but either way i'm going to be happy. my minimum goal for the tourney was a winning record, and we at the least got that. we also spoke decently which is good. i mean really, its the first tourney of the year for us, and thats not bad. yay.
27 September 2002 – blah
- yes i know blah is not a paul oakenfold song, but i just feel blah right now. i really really want to go to smith and debate this weekend, but i feel like absolute crap. i don't know what to do. i do feel slightly better today with the throat, but now i've got this pounding headache that won't go away. i feel badly because if i go and i don't fully put my heart into it, bragin and i won't do well, and thats unfair to him, but if i don't go at all, then i'm definitely letting him down. arg, what to do.
- also, to a certain person: thanks so much for the phonecall, it was nice to hear from you. when my voice supports me enough to have a decent conversation, i'll definitely be returning it. miss you.
26 September 2002 – liquid love
- argggg. still madd sick. throat feels like someone is pricking it with needles every time i try to swallow. luckily tea and gargling with saltwater and soup bring temporary relief. anyhoo, on other fronts i'm quasi-reassured about certain things, but not enough. hope for saturday for me.
25 September 2002 – exploding
- well i'm definitely sick. the question is just HOW sick. the infamous health center says that i don't have strep (even though they didn't take a throat culture.) their solution? if you still can't swallow a few days from now after pumping your body with tylenol cold and ibueprofen - come back. gee thanks. not like i have a debate tournament this weekend i have to have a voice for or anything. it would really suck to get sick for this tournament, especially considering i got cut and didn't get to go to williams last week. bah-humbug. i just want some soup. oh yeah, and if tomorrow would just COME ALREADY, that'd be great too. ummmmmm, yeeeeeah.
24 September 2002 – flight 643
- steve yuhan needs to start blogging again. i always enjoy the links on his page - there are so few others that do that consistently. pretty much him and amy is it. so start!! [[note: i find it kind of funny that i read someones page so consistently who has NO IDEA who the hell i am. fyi.]]
- on another note - i went to class today. yay me.
23 September 2002 – mantra
- wow. i actually caught up on some reading today. maybe beth is back on the efficiency track, inspired by dear to her heart debate coach of yesteryear, dr. wilson... that debate round today was much fun. really good case: "if you were starting a new society and you had to chose between prevalent racial discrimination and no gender discrimination, or prevalent gender discrimination and no racial discrimination, which would you chose?" crack and i chose to supress the women. fun times.
- i need to stop eating again. yah - good call. i'm having a fat night tonight. theres a lot of other things i need to stop doing too. like smoking, and other stuff. i'll work on that. or something. i also think i might be getting sick - i have SUCH a sore throat. anyhoo, the talking, i can't believe it causes cancer, thats totally going to throw a wrench in my plans. (not smoking - obviously smoking causes cancer). jesus i hope.
22 September 2002 – on your back
- what to do what to do what to do...{{sigh}} just keep on truckin.
- alright. no more crap. i'm really going to start going to class again. tomorrow. oh wait - i've got two demo rounds at BU tomorrow. so much for that plan. tuesday!!! i promise myself!!!
- what a nice way to spend the day - in boston with alan, charlotte, and andy. i love having friends. they truly are a great blessing. and i got my copy of the vagina monologues to study up for vday preperations and tryouts. yee-ha vaginas.
21 September 2002 – storm
- i wrote a new poem this morning. i'm pretty proud of it. i think i spent longer working on it than i've ever done before for a poem. i'm still gonna call it a work in progress tho, cause i'm sure it will change even more. either way, check it out.
- what is up with my mind today? so much garbage just floating around dirtying the place...
- wow. what a sweet selfless thing to do.
20 September 2002 – composure
- so i think last night i had one of the most fun college experiences EVER, to date. i stayed up all night long drawing a mural, and getting to know two really cool people a little better. theres nothing like staying up all night and doing something fun to put one in a great mood. now all i've gotta do is get some sleep at some point today. oh, and there is that little matter of classes...
19 September 2002 – enervate
- life is good. despite some small chemical imbalances :-) life is pretty good. and thats all for now. because really, what else matters?
17 September 2002 – 3 drives on vinyl
- so andy and i cased last night, and i think we've got some really good cases developing. thanks all to bragin though, since NONE of the ideas were mine. its such a terrible thing to be a PM and to not think of your own cases. i just have a real hard time with thinking of them for some reason. i'm great at fleshing out ideas for cases, but actually coming up with the ideas? not my thing generally. depressing. but whatever. i'm excited for this year, i think it could go really well for us, and either way i think its going to be fun. also, "dr. wilson" and harrison would say, is now teaching at BU as some of you may know. he's teaching rhetoric courses and hes doing a demo round for his kids and wants me to be in it. i was really happy that he asked me. its nice to know that your coach (well, old coach) has faith in your debating abilities enough to ask you to demonstrate them to others. crack, jon marcus, and mike specian are also going to be in it. fun times.
- so i didn't go to this class, paradigms of biological investigation, at all between september 4th and today. i was REAL concerned i was missing important stuff by not going. i was WRONG. i didn't miss anything. its depressing that there are classes that exist like that. but i mean, with no final, and one paper due on the last day of class - what on earth is your incentive to attend? i mean REaLLY...
- why do i bother? sometimes i really really wonder...
16 September 2002 – over the horizon
- the more i think about it, the more i think that the "disappear-from-the-rest-of-the-world-for-a-few-days" plan is a REALLY good idea. REALLY good. i just fear for the consequences my mind and i might suffer, though somehow i doubt its worse than the way i feel right now. i wish most things were something else than what they are.
15 September 2002 – fearing
- stupid fights with parents. i don't understand why they can't just let me go sometimes. i mean i do understand. its not easy to let go of the last out of four. thats a tough goodbye - not just to the kid, but to a large part of parenting in general, and to a certain part of purpose in some sense. but to throw random excuses at me about bad weather and stabbing them in the heart, is ridiculous. i've got to get out of this house and back to brandeis.
14 September 2002 – no way out
- some days i look at myself and i don't understand how ANYONE could find me attractive. ever.
- at least the tourney today had some very redeeming qualities. i really hope all the novii who came will stick wtih it.
- my readership seems to decline SIGNIFICANTLY when i'm not online. do you people still not know my page address?? i mean really...
- i love my friends from home, they are the absolute best. i hope that things always stay the way they are now - that everyones sort of always around, and we can continue to be a part of each others lives.
13 September 2002 – paint a picture
- what the FUCK does that mean??
12 September 2002 – dreamtime
- i love this. if everything could stay just as it is right now - great talks great times no stress - it would be perfect...
- "with fingernails that shine like justice and a voice that is dark like tinted glass. she is fast and thourough and sharp as a tack. she is touring the facility and picking up slack."
- well the drive down was a lot better than i anticipated. now i remember why i love my crazy aunts.
11 September 2002 – this is not a breakdown
- hey, thanks for the belated birthday wishes. you were correct on the date. it was nice of you to remember. i hope everything is going as well as it pretty much sounds for you out there. with the start of the season impending you are greatly missed on this end. take care of yourself...
- sleeping naked when its hot? nice. sleeping naked when its hot and you live in north with steps to rabb about 10 feet from your window? just stupid.
10 September 2002 – maas attacks
- i am SOOOO excited for our novices. some of them are quite good already, and they've only been through a demo round and one training session. i think they might just kick some totally legitimate ass at columbia novice this weekend. fun fun times.
- shocking the shit out of ali proved to be a highly entertaining evening.
- and on another note, i at least went to class today. go me.
9 September 2002 – elysian fields
- what wonderful times these days. though i'm still a little concerned and confused, things are good.
- this never going to class thing?? bad precedent to set.
- i love mel. shes so cool and i'm so glad we're friends. i just hope now she doesn't get in an accident with my car. :-) j/k mel. no worries, i trust her, pretty much...ha. but in all seriousness thanks go out to her for being such a good friend. she just made me feel so much better and was there for me when i needed her. its nice to have people like that in your life.
- it is soooo hot i just want to live in the shower sometimes.
8 September 2002 – helter skelter
- jesus christ. i think i'll leave today for the real journal.
7 September 2002 – starry eyed surprise
- "A good traveler has no fixed plans and is not intent on arriving." - Tao Te Ching *** Just enjoy the journey, thats where you will discover lifes mysteries...
- gotta love birthday phone calls.
- hey to you from william and mary, whoever you are. i'm kinda wondering...
- its inevitable. i feel it. but its not what you think it is.
6 September 2002 – gamemaster
- well despite accidentally sleeping through finance this morning, its been a good day so far. i was so tired last night i fell asleep at like one thirty and forgot to turn on my alarm. oh well. either way, its the weekend now, and i have lots of fun stuff coming up - including a birthday! fun times. ps - almost happy birthday goes out to ALI!!! have fun at penn state, darlin...
5 September 2002 – ecstacy
- all i've got for you today is a smile. :D
- took an interesting little quiz today - which revolution are you. here's what i got...
What revolution are You?
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- we had such a great debate meeting tonight. theres a lot of talent opportunity there, and i'm really excited for the year i think we could have. my debate year on the other hand, is still the subject of a little worry for me. but we'll see...
4 September 2002 – el nino
- so i've been thinking about something. it seems really crazy to me that we as people can look back on certain times in our lives and not recognize ourselves. we can just isolate a whole period, be it a month, or a year, or whatever - and be like "i don't even know who i was then." sometimes lately when i look back at the past year of my life i feel like that. kind of "who was that person who was moving through the actions of my life? cause it certainly wasn't me." or least not me as i know myself today. and i feel like that happens to us a lot as people. but saying that we have a continuously changing personality i think kind of goes against what biology says about us. cause i mean, if so much of what we do is because of who we are biologically, than how is it that we could have such a broad range of qualities and actions? cause i really have times where i can look back and say, "geez, why was i like THAT? where did that thing come from that just took over my mind and spirit as i normally know it?" but then i guess i realize there is not exactly a state of normality for us. because as we go through life we are going to constantly be changing our opinions of some things, and discovering new things that make us different. i guess its just that i never thought i'd look back after a change and not be comfortable with who came before me...
3 September 2002 – rendezvous
- so for my politics simulation class i've been assigned the role of chairwoman of china. i can deal with that i guess. too bad i didn't get russia as my country. i could have been a veritable anastasia. the lost princess - doesn't sound so bad...
- so basic instinct is quite a fucked up movie. clever, but fucked up nonetheless. i watched it off the network tonight cause i was bored, and now i am a little to freaked out to go to sleep. not that i think i'm going to fuck sharon stone and she's going to stab me in the neck, but the whole movie keeps you teetering and tingling on the edge of the cliff of fear. {{{shiver}}} nite kids...
- on the chance that one specific person still reads this --- why does she die?? i couldn't believe it when i got to the end and she just dies. right when i thought the flaming ends were going to meet, one fizzed out and the other one exploded... it was so sad. though i suppose that thats how life goes sometimes. in general though, i really liked it. a lot. sometime when i get a chance i'll email you more specifics if you want. hope stuff is going well out there for you...
2 September 2002 – life into mind
- sleep. i must sleep.
- it seems like my stomach hates everything i put in it these days. that sucks.
1 September 2002 – into the dawn
- so this month's titles come from the god of techno - paul oakenfold (hence the actual TITLE of the month.) he's amazing, and there's no one else who can take me to that other world quite the way he does. so this month is his.
- and tonites title comes from the night i had - it lasted into the dawn, and for that i am quite happy...
