August 2002
August 2002 – Are You From My Tribe?
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31 August 2002 – bust it up
- wow. with the exception of getting sick i had a really fun time last night. good to visit with old friends, and especially good to make a new one or two. with my A.T.A.S. its not often i meet genuinely nice guys, so when i do mett one its great. especially when they seem to also be really fucking cool. i'm glad things worked out the way they did too, because i would hate for anyone to get wrong ideas about me. in any case, it was nice to relax and chill and party last night - though i do wish i hadn't gotten sick. its my fault. i probably shouldn't have drank while my stomach is in its present volatile condition. but thats a whole different can of worms. i'm gonna take a nap...
30 August 2002 – destinies
- i'm really glad i decided to take this finance class. somewhat of a random decision, its turning out to be a great idea. the material seems interesting (to me at least) and also shit that's just good to know (i.e. the stock market, functions w/i a business, the national reserve, inflation, etc.) and the effects they have.
- ah, good old crackstar - of course he's throwing a party the first weekend we're back. its nice to have a friend you can always count on for a good time - which i'm sure this will be...
29 August 2002 – brainiac
- only one class today. so the copout science is just as much of a copout as i thought it would be, but it at least looks as though it might be interesting. paradigms of biological investigation. hm. the professor, farber, seems scatterbrained but as though he has quite a lot to share with us. i think i found that to be a pattern among my science teachers in high school too. i can't even imagine what its like inside the head of a science person sometimes. all these thoughts about the way things work - numbers flying everywhere - theories, ideas for experiments, formulas. i'm jealous of that occasionally. because when you have a gift for something like that - math or science (or music too) - its something you can really see, and not argue with. but with literary or historical things, even if you have genious ideas there will always be someone who disagrees with you. the are no "laws of literature" as there are newtons laws and pythagoras' laws. i kind of wish i had more than just an interest in those things sometimes, that i had perhaps the brain to go with it.
28 August 2002 – jazz
- still no classes yet, though i've changed my schedule probably 3 times already. every once in a while i get the feeling i should stick w/ my original instincts but they're probably wrong anyway.
- its good to see people again. alan, bragin, toby - its so nice to have friends you have things in common with and feel comfortable around.
27 August 2002 – vibes and stuff
- wow. what a great day and a great way to be starting off the school year. seeing lots of old friends, touring rooms, fun dinners, chess, classical music, decorating my room, computer games, and designing the perfect schedule. its almost too much to handle. :-) no but really, i'm happy, and thats good enough for me.
26 August 2002 – what
- WHAT?!?!?!?! I'm not supposed to move in till tomorrow? My head is certainly in the clouds. Oh well, at least they let me move in today, it was quite nice of them.
- WHAT?!?!?!?! This is my room? It freaking rocks!!! Its huge! What a change from last year. This is going to be a great year, I can feel it in my damn bones...
25 August 2002 – lyrics to go
- after a personal worst time up to waltham (five hours, 24 minutes) i am tired as shit. i'll be glad when i'm moved in and relaxing.
24 August 2002 – midnight
- well last night with the group was a great ending to things that have been nothing but great. i know thats a lot of great, but really, if it weren't for my friends at home this summer wouldn't have been the summer. i did everything i had to for me and my friends were my whipped cream and cherry, and after all, what is a sundae without those essentials?? and tonight with the girls was good, despite the disaster that was nikkis hair for a few hours. though i am actually quite pleased with the end results (after three dye jobs i should hope so.) funny quote of the evening - "hey stick, you wanna hit this shit?" "nah man i can't i'm blonde." ---- did i call that one or what??? so its after midnight, and tomorrows the day. back i go. peace out...
23 August 2002 – skypager
- only 2 nights left. lets hope i feel better today. i hate that i've been wasting away this time before i leave. what a horrible note to end the best summer of my life on.
- oh no. computer dying is NOT a good thing. not at all. thanks to wu and amar, however, i now have a better almost everything than i did before.
22 August 2002 – pad and pen
- the idea of not being in good health really scares me when i'm forced to think about it so much like this.
21 August 2002 – scenario
- extreme physical pain is a sensation unlike anything else in the world. it blows my mind.
20 August 2002 – like it like that
- soda pop shop, smash brothers, and friends. gotta love it.
- days are flying by so quickly. its so soon that i'll be back at brandeis and back into classes, and i'm not 100 percent sure how i feel about that fact.
18 August 2002 – everything is fair
- alright, so once, just once, i am going to break my rule about editing entries. anger gives us interesting voices. in any case, if you read this, i'm sorry. it was all worth it. thanks for everything. you're a good guy. have fun at school, and take care of yourself, friend.
16 August 2002 – electric relaxation
- just the group and a movie – sounds good to me.
15 August 2002 – I left my wallet in el sugundo
- I’m getting over my summer occupations. Both of them. I’m ready for next week. They were interesting experiences but soon the book will close. Time to write some more chapters.
14 August 2002 – butter
- bowling. Fun fun times.
13 August 2002 – jam
- I LOVE MUSIC. And "afterglow." And Tuesdays. And Robert. He is so amazing, I just can’t even believe it. If you want more, look here , or at the 6th of august.
- took val to a bar in NYC tonite. I’m sure her friends from bumblefuck pennsylvania will think shes cool after she tells them THAT.
12 August 2002 – we can get down
- Valerie’s here. (my 16 y/o cousin). She’s really matured a lot. Its exciting for me to be getting to know her all over again. I hope she didn’t feel too unincluded by me and Desiree in those early years but sometimes I wonder…
- took her out to the diner till 2. She says shes feels like a “rebel” being that her curfew is usually 11PM. Just wait till what I have planned for tomorrow. Hopefully it will work out…
11 August 2002 – stressed out
- Sometimes they both get a little too stressed out with our family. In any case, today was the reunion, and as always it was as much of a success as it could be. Someday its my destiny that it will be my responsibility. Kind of makes me wonder about where I’ll be in my life when that happens.
10 August 2002 – the hop
- random parties abound this evening.
9 August 2002 – award tour
- this is a call…. Coldplay is coming to our beloved Boston on Tuesday, September 17th at 8 o’clock. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go, as coldplay has become one of my favorite bands in the past year or so. So if ANY of my fellow bostonians or brandeisians who read this would like to attend with me, PLEEEEASE let me know. Its only thirty bucks, and I guarantee you it will be a good show. Pleeeeeease?
- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarg. damn oblivious boys...
8 August 2002 – bonita applebum
- buncha bums, that’s certainly what we girls are – and I LOVE it – smashin and bondin it up all night with the cube…
7 August 2002 – buggin out
- gotta love my girls. they’re always a good time.
- UNLIKE GODDAMN BOYS!!!! mos def I am buggin out. He didn’t want to stay out last night, he doesn’t want to go out tonight, I’m not gonna see him tomorrow night…. WHAT IS THE DAMN DEAL!?!?! Why does he never want to hang out when Iwant to hang out???? Whatever…..
6 August 2002 – oh my god
- speaking of the title, can I please tell you again how AMAZING robert matarazzo is?? Tonight was only the third time I saw him, but man oh man, I could go a thousand more. There’s something about his music that just kind of destroys me inside. And I don’t mean that in the bad sense, its more just like, it touches someplace so deep inside of me that its almost painful to feel it, cause I’m so not used to it. I feel a thousand emotions come spilling into my brain and I simultaneously want to experience them all. Its like this collective personification of life. He sings so beautifully, and he sings about REAL THINGS. Shit we’ve all had to deal with at one point or another, or will have to. And that he can take it out of the unreachable emotional realm, and make it all accessible, its just an incredible thing. Because it really makes you think. After the show tonite I couldn’t even fathom going home. My hands were shaking, and I just had five thousand things in my head to think about. Everything that’s bounced through there in like the past year, just peacefully came floating back to the surface, and eventually there were so many thoughts it caused a tumultuous storm of introspection. But I love it. I love that music can do that. There are so few things in the world that can cause awareness of such a pure, genuine emotion that’s locked inside all of us. Music is art, and art really is the highest form of expression. I know it’s a cheesy cliché but its definitely true, because I can’t remember the last time I felt quite like this…
- ps, i wrote two poems tonite as well as this and some more, which you can find here.
5 August 2002 – verses from the abstract
- today was the day of the exes. All different kinds, but nonetheless exes. In particular, talked to chicago boys – one of whom was colder than the other, and definitely not the one I expected to be… maybe he realized I had dropped the ball long ago. Guess I’ll see in a few short weeks…
- glad we all got together tonight, that was fun. Even if I did have to pay to play pool…
- wow…what a perfectly constructed and applied reply…go me…
4 August 2002 – excursions
- bowled tonight, with ali and nikki and loughlin, though I wish more of the group could have come. it seems like a month ago, everyone was always up for hanging out – but these days people are getting a little more tired and a little less enthusiastic…
3 August 2002 – can I kick it?
- thanks to ro for throwing a ridiculously good but small and intimate party. and thanks to someone else for quite a fun nite…I’d forgotten how nice it is to sleep next to someone who cares about you…
2 August 2002 – once again
- once again a tiny let down. Whatever, I’m over it – plus I got to chill with my dad and learn how to be more of a pool shark – watch out bri!!!!
1 August 2002 – show business
- so the new one for this month is a tribe called quest. Just some darn good old school hip hop. And if their song titles are as good as their lyrics then ya’ll will be mightily pleased.
- saw office space today. Was as funny as everyone foretold. Glad I got to chill with anne and travis (and bri of course – though I see her much more often.) annie is someone I definitely want in my life long term, shes just good people.
