Valentines Day will soon be here
Valentines is the National Day to bring the "Heart Awareness" for heart defects there are 1000's of children born daily around the us with heart problems.


I have everything I could buy with hearts on them or in them. I just love this day not pun intended.
I am going to be staying with some kids while their dad travels for work.

Then I plan to travel 2/20/05 to San Francisco then Seattle and return home on the 2/27/05. I will speaking at a conference as a parent who has lost a child and how the support from the hospital helped me daily even today.

My last update was on my little buddy Landon- recently the TV did a story on him on KTUU and then newspaper wrote an article about the red tape that is holding him back from the treatment he could be receiving. Lift this family and many others up in prayer.
As you can see I really do not type as much as I used to with me helping me and others I try to post something every couple of weeks or so. I plan to post next on "The Day of Hearts" Valentine's Day.

My love and prayers goes out to all of you,
GOD BLESS your daily life.
Ruth

Update on Landon
We had a bake sale for Landon to help raise funds for he and his mother to go to UCLA this could be months upon months of a long stay.
The hearts of the people opened up and the funds that were raise in a two day notice was just over $1000 dollars.
Channel 2 KTUU finally did an updated story on the news covering Landon's story.

Landon is still in the hospital here in Anchorage this is going on 2 months. Please keep this family in your prayers to help them during this time.
Landon is now 15 pounds at the age of 2 he is starting to crawl and holding himself up to stand by himself. What an amazing site after all the ups and downs he goes through.

As for me I have been praying hard to help my heart with Christmas ending I do not know if I am able to take in a foster child and give them up or allow them to go back into the system with no emotions I could not do this like a job and let them go. I want to give my whole to taking care of the children but I want more then anything to give 100%.
My prayers at this time are to help other families and patience at the hospital I can understand that works and know how it feels to stay long visits.

The house is coming along I have finished painting the upstairs bathroom and working on putting up pictures. I love being at home the house is the heart of me.

With all my love,
Ruth

Happy New Year 2005
What a beginning of a new year for us all from the words of my pastor may this year be better and no repeats of 2004.

Its been a while since I have posted. Things are going good today Christmas Eve was very hard and emotional for the memories I have of Destiny was very overwhelming I went to church service and cryed most of the service. The comfort and love I was given know how many of you care was more then words could say.

Christmas day the family came over to my new house which was a big HUGE blessing. Then the tears flow was able to stop. As many of you know I often say "Today is a new day" The celebration Destiny had with Jesus this year is beyond words.

For New Year's Eve I invited some friends over for super the company was a very big blessing. My heart loves this man and he is I are such good friends that my heart breaks when he left. I know the friendship is more important in my life then a relationship with him and I treasure that decision.

My neighbor on the new year had a party until 3am so last night to say the least when they turned on there surround sound I just happen to start putting up pictures I said nothing on friday but it will not continue. One of my other issues right now is the people who let there dogs go potty in my yard and not clean up the mess drives me nuts. I just need to pray hard for these issues so I will have no need to fester over this.


Now on to my little buddy LANDON he is needing to go to UCLA Medical center to see the a specialist however the insurance the family had UCLA does not take. I am going to work on two fund raisers for this family.
1. A Spaghetti feed (no date in mind yet)

2. Selling "Butter Braids" desserts with different fillings- these will sell for $15.00 each with the family receiving 40% of the money. ( A special account has been set up for Landon at Alaska USA Federal Credit Union). Please lift this family in your prayers.

Many of you know I do not check my emails but weekly however I want to really thank you for the cards, emails and notes left by you to me and my family during the holiday season.

The heart of Destiny is in you and me as long as you remember her and think of the memories she gave you.

God Bles you each and every day in your daily walk.
Love Ruth

We had a beatiful day- on Thanksgiving
To much food I sent everyone home with a couple of bags of goodies. Still learning my oven my peaches and cream did not turn out to be the greatest I've made before but it was eatable.

My little buddy Landon is back in the hosptial will be stay until until the first of the year the doctors are in touch with another specialist in LA where they are looking at sending Landon they will be there from 4 to 6 months or longer if needed.

This little one opened my eyes and made me realized how much of a part of my part he is but more importantly how much of my life is a part of his.
Yesterday I was at the hospital with Family Action Counsel helping Santa with letters to kids.
Landon was walking down the hall with his parents holding his hands I came out of the room to see him he started crawling and talking up a storm to me. He shared his red sunglasses his mom had for him. Then he would look at the pictures with me on the laptop and smile when showing him a couple pictures of Destiny he would look at her then look at me and it touched my heart deeply to see into the child's eyes. So I then showed him pictures of himself and his family and he would laugh.
After going home and sleeping on this moment I realized how much I need them in my life to how much those eyes and smiles and laughs melt my heart.

I ask all of you to look into a child's eyes to see the wonder of life and what the purpose to show the children what GOD does daily in your life.

As Christmas approaches be safe and enjoy today-
As everyday.

Wow can you believe its almost Thanksgiving
From one day to the next its almost the end of another year. My church is finishing the 40 days of a Purpose Driven Life. HOW incredible I encourage all of you to read this book if you have not.
I have been blessed each and every day reading and going to a bible study we are going to continue with a new group in January.

I am putting the house together lately all the photos of the kids are from one end of the living room to the kitchen area on the floor in date order and school all are placed in frames now its time to start pounding on the walls. I placed all the frames on paper traced them, cut them out, putting this paper on the walls to see how the pictures will set without any holes being put into the walls now I am ready to hang them. SO do I be rude like neighbors and pound on the walls at 10:30pm to 1am as they are to me with there TV or music ---No that is not me nor would JESUS do that to them. I will watch during the days like fridays when both of them are at work and do as much work then.
Dad came over with my nephew and put in extra shelves in the laundry room for me they are beatiful. Now they will come back in a couple of weeks to put more in my walk in closet. I will wait for next summer to put some in there.

Today is a new day--Enjoy and make the best of it.


God Bless you all daily with what you do.
Love Ruth



P.S. HAPPY THANKSGIVING--

SAVE A TURKEY EAT BEEF--WE'RE GOING TO HAVE PRIME RIB

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVEY
My Dear Destiny today you turn 5, mommy has brought you some yellow roses I left a few at your condo site and pray the ground crews do not move them.

You are in every breathe I take and everything I do I know you are with me. It is going on the six months since of you left this earthly shell and I want you to know there is not a moment I do not miss you.

At times my still weep and pray hard for the strenght daily to move forward because of you I am able to help other families and wanting to help other kids with medical needs. You gave me a compassion to share with others and help them know they are not alone most importantly to help the parents so they can move onto the next day.
Providing mommy this insight I only pray to use this blesses in everyday.

- LOVEY-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY what a better why to have a party in heaven with JESUS and the rest of the family members.
love,
mommy

I have had problems with webpage-
All is going well, I am painting different walls in the house I was able to put my living room and dining room curtains.

I've been very blessed to have this house, the peace I am given knowing the work going into the house is becoming a home. No pictures on the walls yet to many walls to decide on all the photos I have.

Destiny's birthday is coming up on October 17th, next sunday, the week after I am going to have my housewarming party and a cake for Destiny.

Still having trouble with my phone off and on working on it my cell is the best to leave messages.

Wanting to let you know my heart is here and I am able to check my email at mom and dad's on sundays so if I do not return your answer right away know sunday is when I check it.

Our friend Brooke is going home soon after spending 3 months at the hospital.

Our little buddy Landon is up to 16 pounds he looks like a different kid all together. GREAT JOB-
Landon's grandpa passed away last week and our prayers go out to the family.

A close friend of the families Sarah is going in for a triple bypass surgery on 10/20/04
please keep her in your prayers along with her family. God willing I will go sit up at the hospital with her children and will post later on.

My cousin Edna went in for another knee surgery, lift her and the family in close prayer to comfort them.

GOD BLESS you all,
love
Ruth

Try this again
I have been unpacking and it feels like Christmas with all the items I am finding. My stuff has been in boxes for years.
Trying to paint room by room the laundry room, hallway is done my room is half way done.

Still having trouble with the phone line just try my cell 230-0495. It is incredible receiving mail at my new address.


Once the phone is working I will post from home MTA needs to come out AGAIN---

All my thanks and prayers go with you.

I bought me a Marlin
Well many days have changed since I last posted--
I did some heavy praying was able to get some final answers as of Friday August 13th I closed on the house it is offically MINE---- I moved my stuff today the only thing I need to move in is the refridgerator and extra freezer that I have in Cindy and Cliff's.
I put all the stuff in the garage until I am able to paint all the rooms and living space. I have asked a couple of the church members to come over and give the house a blessing. I am kind of wanting this to be done before I start unpacking.
I am house sitting for Cindy and Cliff for the next two weeks and I plan to -s l o w l y -- unpack my stuff.
I made a second run to the house to get all of my plants which filled the front and back seat of my car.
I am off next friday--for those who want to take a drive going northbound on the glenn highway take the north eagle river exit at the stop light turn left on the old glenn highway turn left on fire eagle way.

Thank you so much for the emails after I bought the house. It means so much to me, many blessing and alot of peace overall.
Love Ruth

I am going to walk away from the house- stay with me
I have prayed hard for this answer-
Around 4:30 the mortgage company called they have the packet from the contractor however they wanted to know about the cash deposits I made to my account for about $1500 that I made in three payments to my account I informed them it was birthday money.

Because I do not have a list of everyone who sent me cash for my birthday they can not accept my offer on the house here is why.
Any "gift" money's have to not only have a name but a printout from each person from there bank account for the last 30 days to show they had the funds in there account. Now those of you who sent checks for the most part you will notice I never cashed them. Now this gets better my Realtor is now on vacation for two weeks and the person who started all my paperwork at the mortgage company is on vacation as well.

Stay with me- I am going to walk away there is no way this house would close by tomorrow for the what they want. They want a family member to gift me now $5800, a 30 printout from there bank, a copy of the check they are giving me and the deposit showing it cleared there bank and the deposit into my account along with another 30 day printout.
So here is the plan I am going to set aside the money I would be paying for mortgage payments for the next 6 to 7 months in my savings account then be able to walk with with $7000 to $8000 and say this is what I want and this is my offer GOD has a plan for me to have something better and maybe bigger who knows its not for me to question I am going to follow it.
This means the person who buys my house must need this house really bad. They will have a great start and alot of blessings.
SO I am going to be paying off most of my debt over the next 6 months I actually feel good about not buying this house now here is something special for me it is a great feeling to know I was able to buy a house for $170,000.00 by myself with no help maybe once my debt is paid I can buy something for more. NOT that I need a bigger place just maybe a duplex or 4 plex like I always wanted to do.
I going to call MTA to keep my phone number and hook it up to voice mail only so when I do move out there I have a history with a company and not have to pay a deposit.
Alot of good can come out of all of this so now it means I must reorganize all the boxes I have and be ready when the time is right-
I will post more tonight