My View on Religion

I was raised a Catholic by my mother. And my father basically had no say in my religion. He is of no denomination. He told me once that he told my mother once I grew up I would no longer want to be a Catholic. And he was right.

I believe in God, but I'm not really sure about the bible. It just seems questionable to me. Some of the things contradict themselves. Especially the difference between the New Testament and the Old Testament.

What I basically have faith in, is that God is a spirit that is all around us. I think he lives in everything. Especially the sky. And I think that our conscience is really Him. Telling us what is right, and what is wrong.

If you knew me personally and were a very religious person, you would probably think that alot of what I do is wrong, but I don't feel that it is. It is just the way I am. It is my being.

In my mind, as long as your not hurting anyone by what you are doing, I don't understand how it could possibly be wrong. What you do is what you choose. And it is your business. No one elses. And no one has the right to judge you just for some things you do that they don't find appropriate. If what your doing has nothing to do with them, then they can't judge you for it. And if they do, they weren't ever worth anything in the first place.

But back to God. I do believe he exist. I feel him all around me. And I see him in my family's faces. I see how he has touched their hearts and made them free.

I don't feel this about myself. I think that I am too afraid to let go of myself to surrender it to any force right now. Good or Evil. I wish to remain in control of myself. With some help every now and then from who cares to provide it.

I'm not posting this to dispute anyones' beliefs or try to trash them. It is not my goal. Faith is a beautiful thing and I respect those who have religion. But I also know that religion is just something that we hang onto. It's something that some people must have to keep them going. To give them a tiny spec of hope.

I do believe one thing very strongly though. If you do something wrong and you truly regret it, I believe God will redeem you.

If you do something that is wrong, I'm not talking about a murder. But if you are not hurting anyone else and you don't feel it's wrong. Well, maybe it isn't.

I did learn one thing. One piece of advice I took from the Devil's Advocate. Al Pacino as Satan said, "Guilt is like a bag of bricks on your shoulder, just set it down." And sometimes that is exactly what you have to do.

Love, Anya If you wish to learn more specifics about my beliefs or care to know what is left unsaid, you may email me.