"She raped me, Adrian. And I know, maybe its not that big of a deal in the scheme of things, but when it happens to you, your little word is just torn apart. But I think I can make it, I really do. I mean, I'm not going to give her what she wants. She wants to ruin me, but I won't give her that! I think I'm going to make it though this Ad. I just, I mean. Well, I thought I wouldn't trust anybody. Everybody was out to get me. But thats not true. Not at all. I know you guys are here for me. And you guys, you love me. And you're the ones I live for. So I know I'll be ok, I just need you guys to help me for a while." Taylor said quietly. I could tell, even with all the stammering and pauses, that Taylors speech had been well thought out. "Oh Taylor, thats great." I said, gently throwing my arms around his neck. Even with the speech he had just told, I could tell by the way his body tensed this process wouldn't happen over night. But he was right, he would be ok. From over Taylors shoulder I saw a body sitting on the stairs, I could tell from here that it was Zac. And even through the darkness, I could tell he was crying. I smiled at him. Taylor could turned around, and he could see it too. "Hey Zac." He said, giving him a little smile. "Taylor." Zac said, making his way over to us. "I'm so sorry, about what happened to you."
"Its ok, Zac. I'm going to get over it. I'm going to make it through this, I just need your help, ok little bro?"
Zac nodded. "Its nice to have you back Taylor." And soon Isaac was downstairs too, and the four of us sat on the floor, in an endless group hug. After what seemed like only five minutes, but was really an hour an a half, Isaac broke the silence.
"The sun is coming up." He said, smiling.
"We should watch"Taylor suggested.
"Thats a real great idea." Zac said distantly.
"Come on, lets go." I said, grabbing my blanket.
The boys ran upstairs to grab their sweatshirts, and were quickly downstairs and out the door.
"Here Ad, I got one for you." Zac said, handing me a big grey sweatshirt.
"Thanks Zac." I smiled at him, putting it on.
Watching the sunset is such a beautiful thing. Its so beautiful to share with the people you love. I felt to close to Isaac, Taylor and Zac as we watched the sun come up. And huddled together like we were, I know we all felt the love that had been built within for one another. It was something that just didn't have to be shared, we knew it was there. Taylor looked up at us and smiled. "I really love you guys." He said. We all squeezed in just a little closer, and hugged him. We didn't say anything, but from the smiles plastered on our faces, our responce was known. 'We love you too Taylor. God, do we ever.' ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"YEAH BABY! I win again!" Taylor yelled. I giggled, looking at the pout on Zacs face. Taylor had beat him at yet another game of 'Mario Kart 64'.
The past week had been filled with love, and we had all taken time to enjoy the little things in life. It was the most amazing thing for me, because just spending this time with the ones I loved made me learn so much. About them, and even about myself. Diana wisked gracefully into the room, carrying hot cocoa and cookies. "Have you all looked outside yet?" She asked pleasantly. Zac shook his head. "It snowed." She said, quietly and gracefully, the way she always said everything. I smiled at the way she was. Zac gave out a cheer, and Isaac and Taylor began making bets on who could make the best snowman. Diana distributed the cookies and hot cocoa, and we all sat around in a circle to enjoy it. "Thanks mom." Taylor said, giving her a kiss on the cheek. "You know." Zac said, taking a bite out of his cookie. "I think that last week we had it all wrong, wanting everything to go back to the way it was."
"What do you mean, Zac?" Isaac asked.
"Well." Zac said. "Things aren't the way they were before, and they never will be." He smiled a little. "I know we're all closer than we would have been if all these bad things hadn't have happened. And so, its kind of good we had to go through tough stuff."
"You know Zac." Taylor said. "I feel the same way."
