Yesterdays Love

Yesterday I wrote aletter, a letter you didn't receive,I know you said you didn't love me, but Iwrote of your love fulfilling my needs.I even wrote of us getting married but Irealized it was just a dream.It seems at one time our love was an ocean of lovebut it seems our love is now a slow drifting stream.I remember your eyes, theywere the stars in my sky, and you were my world,but it's reality I've denied.Iremember our first kiss you took my breath away, and though you knew you had togo , for just one more night you said you'd stay.You had given me your love & itwas my love we would share, so when I loved you with my body, I thought youwould always be there.Well I am sorry your'e not here anymore, you left me withmy own heart broken and torn.The humility of my stupidity is all you had togive, and now I sit here all alone wishing I could not live.I tell myself I'llget over you and one day I'll move on, b!ut as for now I cry each night wishing you weren gone.Sometimes I wonder if youthink of me,I wonder if you've cried.You said you loved me,and to give it time,but the truth is that you lied. Maybe you lied because you didn't want to hurtme or maybe you never cared.I used to cry of happiness but my tears now fall inmy own despair. Maybe it's just a phase and you'll realize it's me you love,I'llbe the one you're dreaming oF. Look at me I am falling again, you don't love meand you'll never understand.I don't know why you've done this, I dont knowwhere I went wrong, you told me we'd be together forever , well I guess your forever isn't very long.You know yesterday I wrote a letter to tell you how Ifeel, and yes today I wrote another to prove my love is real.The letter I wrote yesterday was a letter you didn't read and just like that letter you won't seethis one, I won't remind you of the love you don't need . I'll suck up myemotions, and smile at you, you asked to be fr!iends, well that's what I'll do. I'll let you be happy, even if it's not with me, I'll unshackle my love and let you be free. I'll hide my sadness and show my pride I'll forget that you loved me and wanted me as your bride. I'll pretend I don't love you, and I really don't care.I am letting you leave, for it's not my love you declair.

Haley M. Upton