i'm at brians
i'm over at my friend brians house...i just bought tony hawk underground so he's off playing it. i just wanted to write about last night. i went to see katy harms's play. it was awesome. i could relate a lot to what was going on...and the play made me cry a little...the thing is though...my mom has three kinds of depression. one is were she is usually just down a little if not a lot. another is where she has periods where she is fine and then periods when she is REALLY depressed. another is one i can't remember. but i think i have at least one. i think it is the one where i get REALLY depressed sometimes for no obvious reasons. last night, after the play, i was waitng outside and i started thinking about the play...then it turned to me thinking about myself, and i got really depressed. my sister picked me up and i acted as if i were fine. when i got home, my parents were having a "discussion" so i went upstairs. i wrote up another profile thing because i couldn't update my blog. i went downstairs and the rest of my family were talking and i rushed past them and got some stuff. then i rushed upstairs and became so depressed when i got in my room. last night...was the worst i have ever felt. i was so sad...so very sad for absolutely no reason. i wanted to do only one thing. i wanted to talk to maggie...i thought she would understand...but she didn't even ask how i felt...that made me feel worse...but don't blame yourself maggie...please don't...i just want to write out my feelings...i'm sorry...to the few people who care...i'm so sorry everyone.
Current desire: to crawl up somewhere and die.