his thoughts on the issue

Sorry for the typing. its 2:50am.. way past my bed time.

So once again me and emily part. I am super biased about this one.. and well I think for once it is actually her fault. And really, it might as well be mine, same arguements .. same outcome.
I don't know thought this could be the one that splits us up.. Lets do a little background. Emily lives with me as some of you may know. She currently has no job and hasn't for about 7 months. Her car is broken, I have bought one piece but can't afford the other and the speciality tool to fix it until this or next paycheck.

I have wanted for her to get out and do ANYTHING durning the day so she is not stuck in here all day.. but she refused to drive my truck.. She has been trying to get a job, and i think she may actually get one with the last couple applications she picked up.

Well tonight I came home.. dead beat.. it was 6:30pm.. and I just wanted to sleep. We made dinner and ate it and watched some TV.. and around.. 9pm I crawlled into bed. She tried to seduce me into sex, but I was just to tired to want any. This is because she kept me up late the previous nights in this week.

Well immeditially she gets upset and got online .. she is upset because she thinks I don't want her. I tell her that, I do want her I am just tired.. she doesn't listen or doesn't want to listen, I don't know.. She calls her friend and starts to bad mouth me about how I never want sex etc etc etc.. I got pissed because she was and was being loud at it as well.

So stupid mistake #1 (for me).. I get up tell her I am sorry I'm not as good as mr. wonderful bill (josie's fiancee, who for reasons i know of she obviously doesn't love him that much. ).. mr. romantic etc etc.. So I go out into the living room and goto sleep.. THATS ALL I WANTED TO DO. Sleep, I wasn't asking her to perform some anul sex or something equally horrid.

Well it now is 1:50am (I went to sleep at 11:00pm out in the living room) and she taps me on the sholder and tells me she is leaving. So I get up and come into the room. She goes on to tell me she basically has a horrible life, and what I can gather from things its my fault. Some of it is true. I haven't fixed her car yet because of fincial problems, nor do I let her use my car very long..

Guess where she goes?.. Could she go to a worse person.. I think no. Brandon. She says she will be home tomorrow, I honestly don't know if I want her back. I do, but I think that was uncalled for and well it was wrong. she had other options.

So now here I sit, I guess she is coming home sometime tomorrow. I don't know. I'm pretty bent. If she would have ditched some pride or actually talked to me, or get over herself this could have been avoided.. I just wanted some sleep and I told her that straight up. Sometimes I think she wans to fight, just to fight.

I threw in a "thought we were going to last longer comment", right before she left.. I hope she thinks about it..(this was also stupid mistake #2) if her life is all that bad then maybe she should do something about it.. leave me, move whatever.. just stop being helpless and do something proactive. I love her with all my heart but she is driving me crazy..

Basically stupid mistake #3 is not asking her to stay, but it would have feed her arguement about me wanting her home when she goes out (i like to see her what can i say.. ) .. so now who knows. I got pretty pissed almost started helping her pack her clothes and was debating on how to get a tow truck to tow her car away.

This is what she has to say


chas, 2000.

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