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No Order or Reason (Notebook entries and randomness from 1997-1999)
Ah, the formative years. The writings here are just random notes and notebook entries from High School and the thereafter, until I hit NY. These aren't really in any order as far as dates go because not much of it was dated. But, as I re-read these things, I can see how prevalent they are in my future writings. It is amazing how much this stuff is played off of, how the styles of writing progress from this and how littered throughout this entire document, I think I came close to actually filling in those Outlines. Hah. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Remember some of the stuff you read in here about my personal politics and stuff at 18, they really continue and flower and, well I like to see the progression and growth; and, before liking, I just hope someone else notices. BB (2/26/03)
Trials and Updates Part One (NY/OLY Journals)
Okay, it is true that very little of this journal takes place in NY, but it still gets to be the NY journal because I started it there and I want to have as much NY reference as I can. I so wish that I had kept somewhat of a complete NY journal because what happened over that nine months was truly amazing, the highs and lows that I went through and everything that I learned. And un-learned, hah. Anyway, this is where the actual diaries begin. Good luck! BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Also, something to note, from Aug. 10 to Sept. 18, I saved receipts. Virtually everyday in there, there is at least one receipt taped in the actual journal. It made it quite a pain to type, having to life them and all, but I will never forget how much bread I ate! I contemplated typing in the receipts, but it just seemed like too much work to be worthwhile, but sometimes so do this entire thing. Hah. BB (Oct. 23 2002)
People W/ Papers (on trains to nowhere)
"People," as you have already read (unless you skipped, or just know), is the first poetry book that I released. Most of the material that is in here was written in NY, and it only comes after the NY/OLY journal because it was compiled and released after I was in Oly, it was actually one of the first things that I did there and the main reason why there is such a long gap from the time I arrived in Oly, to when I started regularly writing. Anyway, what is here is the basic first type of the poetry book that I wrote in NY, eventually the poems were combined and cut short, modified and the Essays part was totally removed. My friend Rob in NY has the original work and it would be crazy when I see it again. Anyway, this is how it came out of the book (mostly) and just refer to the actual publication to see how it came off the computer. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Believe it or not, these writings have come across me many times, in this form and every time I want to remodel them in a different way and most times I convince myself that changing it would be something new and then I don’t. I still want to though and I have plans to rework these ideas at some point in life. I laugh and hide my eyes when I read some of this stuff again, so read all of this with a grain of salt and remember that we are all dynamic individuals. BB (2/17/03)
Anywhere, Kid (Diaries from OLY/SB/and other places)
I started this facet of the journals in Oly, but soon after I took off for California and I didn't date the entries. I didn't date them for a reason, because I didn't really want to know what day it was. If you have some savvy you can figure out where I am at and what day of what month it is by certain references. I never took the time to figure it out, but if I really wanted to know I could find out. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Humans Aren't the Only Species on Earth (Poem Journal from 2000-20??)
Now, I never said anywhere that I was good at writing poetry. I like some of it, but defiantly not most of it and if you labored through "People" this will kind of be a breeze. I like alot of the stuff said here, towards the end. The beginning stuff is hilarious, well, if you care to find out, then you'll know. Yeah, whatever. BB (2/23/03)
Xanga Journal (Online Diary from April 2001-Sept. 2002)
It may catch attention that the last diary ends in 2002 and this one picks up in 2001. Yeah, a bit of a functioning problem, when I didn't have a computer to keep the diary online, I wrote in the previous journal. It is a different style of writing completely and I felt that instead of mixing it in with the Online Diary (which would also be a lie) I would just show it as it looks. No fancy stuff. Read it in order if you want too or just read it through the way it is laid out here. It is up to you. Also, if you go to the actual website, you can read comments left by the people that read the site for specific entries. You can also try to trace the comments I left about others comments, as I took to commenting on their blog whenever they commented on mine and I usually talked about what they wrote in my comments, rather than what they were talking about in their blog. Regardless, endless internet interaction and fun. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
I have since deleted everything from the website, none of the comments exist anymore, well, at least none left for any of these posts. I did it because I wanted to just get that entire aspect of writing away from people it wasn’t working and the best thing to do at the time was delete it all. Because of that, some of this will not make sense when I am talking about others peoples posts and what not, or comments left here or there. There is no more interaction and this part will no longer be fun, it will be laborous as some of it you have even already read and the links probably wont work and it will be a disaster...but you will be the better for suffering through it. BB (2/17/03)
Diaries for a New Generation (Computer Journals from May 2002-Oct. 2002)
DFANG was started purely because I was tired of the inconsistency the internet offered me. Most of this journal has also been put on to the Xanga site, but that is not what it was for. After awhile of writing not for Xanga, but for me again, I started to get the feel that it doesn't matter the way people react towards me. I got tired of writing about people for people, here, I am mainly trying to just get back to transcribing my thoughts and not focusing on the way it would be taken by those that read it. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Exotic (Diaries from Oct. 2002-Nov. 2002)
Exotic is a trip. I especially like the stuff written on the new book, but that is something to get too. Really, if you get into this you need to read it all, because there is so much that happens in here. Just wow. Wow man, really. BB (2/22/03)
Singularity WKSP (Diaries from Nov. 2002-Jan. 2003)
Some of the best writing goes on in here, it is VERY honest. Some of my best writing happens on the 16th of Dec. ... but it doesn’t make sense unless you know. You know? BB (2/23/03)
This is actually going to amount to some of the truest words a person was probably ever written about themselves and those they are surrounded with and given out to any that wish to read--before they are actually dead and the people will still like them solely because they are dead, because if that person were alive, he'd be a real asshole, you know? Anyway, I also learned some new HTML for this, strikeout, so you get the thoughts that I started to write and then scratched out, and that is intense too. Imagine something fuller and more real. Consider me dead when you read this. BB (2/24/03)
Trials and Updates Part Two: Portland (Diaries from Jan. 2003-Feb. 2003)
Alright. Turn around, I do not recommend even opening this unless you have some frame of reference. There are thirty days here. And they are packed. Full of ideas and if you don’t know, this wont tell you. Seriously. Go. Well, whatever then, you do what you do, but know. BB (2/26/03)
Tomorrow is a Dream (Diaries Feb. 2003)
As with anything else, this really isn’t necessary unless you have frame of reference. This is some morbid stuff and you might think less of me if you don’t have any idea where this comes from, but hell, you think whatever you want to of me. BB (2/28/03)
Letters--to and from
The way we'll work this section is in order, damnit. I have thought about this alot, and as I don’t have all of the letters that I have sent out to people over the years, I will just work them in order, as best I can. In 2002 all the ones I wrote were dated, at least the ones that I've preserved. Whatever figure it out. BB (2/18/03)
If any section gets harassed, I think it will be this one. If you sent me a letter and I saved it or through some action, re-attained it, I am going to print it. This is a reflective section of how I deal with others and how they deal with me. The only thing I can do is mask your name, and if that is something that you want to see happen, let me know. That is, if you can get a hold of me. BB (2/19/03)
I guess we'll no longer have to work this in order. Well so this section is now sectionized. This is easiest for my purposes, and really this is ALL for me. Yep. BB (2/20/03)
Emails
During the time that all of this stuff is taking place, the internet is a big thing. Being that I am traveling and trying to meet new people and feeling that I have something to say some of the time, I took to email as a way of letting what I wanted to happen escape my person and invade other people. Most people just ignored the things, some were probably touched. Because I couldn't always save all of them, this is as complete a list I can muster from me to them and if I have any anywhere, from them to me. The Mass Email List is a comprisal of all the people over the years that have received emails from me, never all at one time, but maybe in the future. I am still attempting to compile emails and people that received them, so this will probably always be somewhat incomplete. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
And, as for the letters section and this email section, if you have anything that may work out here (an email or letter from me to you, or a letter that someone sent to me and you now have--don’t ask), get on to me if you want to and I will check it out and make this as complete as possible. BB (2/19/03)
Oddities, Rarities, and Unplaceables
So, this is the part of the book where I get to put all the other writing that I have that don't really fit a time period or a certain book or maybe they were just adaptations of other things and I didn't want to put them right next to each other because that would make things boring. Luckily, I am not going to add all of the adaptations, because then this thing would never end. I will give a brief synopsis of where these things come from and why they don't belong, or why they do belong, they just belong here. BB (Oct. 20 2002)
Leave it alone, alright? BB (2/19/03)
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