Putting myself together, day after day, holding to the love,dreams, thoughts that are me
Topic: new entry, new day
Yes, it's all about me :) As all the little people of this world I confess I need this five minutes of self promotion. Here and now it's me - Do I count? What is there to say about me, few pictures hidden in dusty drawers, pathetic childhood that I use as a good excuse for later failures in my life and that's about it. Who am I? Huge heavy girl, getting older, a mom - not very successful at being one - at least it seems so, a secretary that does her job well but not more than that, a distant relationship with a wonderful man - sweet bitter love that suffers because of being stretched over the ocean, a passionate player of heroes of might and magic, because I drown my emptyness in them a lot of time - killing everything that comes near, watcher of sometimes good and sometimes empty Tv. What else, what else is there to say???
The name of the blog is danes (today), so I guess I'll start with today.
Today I am happy because Brian came out of the second hurricane this year unharmed. House was damaged, but that was all. I can't thank God since I am not religious, but there is a joy inside me and thankfulness. Thank you Brian for taking good care of yourself and Thank you Nature to let him be safe. I wish I was there with him yesterday, now and tomorrow.... but that's old story that will unfold one day hopefuly to something I only dream about now.
For now I try to learn and remember the old truth : Wherever you are and whenever you are - You are Here and Now. I understand this with my mind and with my heart, I just wish living by that would be easier.
What did I do today? Work, school - meeting Jan's new teacher, that was Ok, she is fast, demanding but clever and good. Talked to Brian, saw the pictures of the house and everything around it as it is now after the hurricane, Brian told me he was making scrapbook and encouraged me to start mine on web - so here I am. Plans for tomorrow? Hum... finding something that will inspire me to put it here on the web. It's a goal at least. Beside that it's work, getting Jan to doctor to get an appointment with the dermatologist. And hopefully somebody or something will make me laugh. Hopefully I will make somebody laugh - that would be even better.